Hi, i just wanted to say what a rough time you and your dog have had.

I just wanted to share my experience with losing my first two bichons.
The first was almost 15yrs old, was incontinent, pretty much deaf and blind plus doggy dementia. She still went out short walk each day. It was really tough watching her pace back and forward, washing her and her beds and eventually i felt her quality of life was so poor i took her to the vet. I felt so guilty afterwards had i done it too soon but when i looked back at photos she was so frail i really think i kept her going too long.
When the next bichon was diagnosed with chronic kidney failure i knew in my mind i would not let her suffer and prolong her life. When she started to go downhill, you could smell the toxins building up i made my decision, made sure it was her regular vet and we enjoyed a few last days together. I never felt guilty. I knew i had made the correct decision for her and stopped her from getting worse and suffering.
One of my current dogs has cushings and despite being on medication is still showing all the symptoms. If i felt her quality of life was poor i would make the decision. I would rather help them by ending their suffering than live a miserable life.

Its still sad even without the guilt dont get me wrong but all the great memories help you through when its time.