Many members has sent me PM's asking specific questions as to how I have been dealing with the loss of Buddy. Please know that these comments reflect my feelings about this very difficult subject. Others may feel differently and that's perfectly okay. I have been told many times in messages that I am very brave. I need to dispel that myth right now. I am not brave. I am human. I am damaged and I am sad. I did what many others on this forum have done. I released my best friend, so he wouldn't suffer. A large chunk of my heart went with Buddy when he crossed over that day. I was the last thing he saw as he closed his eyes for the last time. I told him to go get the lizards as my heart was torn to shreds. I went into shock immediately following Buddy's release. I couldn't even go home because I wasn't ready to face my family. They begged me not to take him, but I knew it was the right thing to do. The only thing that I could do for Buddy.

Know that grief comes in waves. There is no time frame, so be gentle with yourself when the time comes. Our family here held me together when I was in shock and unable to function. Losing a beloved fur baby breaks your heart, but you are never alone. There are always angels here who understand.

Kathy