My dear friend , years pass but the love , support and happiness our babies gave us will never leave . The hole in our hearts and the pain of missing them remains .. Perhaps forever . Guilt is a part of death. I to have so much guilt . But I try not to concentrate on the guilt or sad times . . But on the love , happiness and the many more joyful things that were shared. And how they made us laugh . And remembering that we did the best we knew how for them . Hugs always Sonja