Hi guys... things are going from bad to worse unfortunately. Long story, but the gist of it is that I bought a house in New Brunswick, however the roads are horrendous here, blown tires, broken springs, shocks or axles take such a beating. Not sure why anyone would even consider visiting the area at least I'm in. Can't get anyone in the trades to do their job nor do it the way a customer wants it.... really a joke here.. and to make matters worse the septic has to be replaced, so after 10's of thousands of dollars spent, I am going to list the house and go back to Ontario. Don't know where or even how I can afford it anymore. I have worked my butt off and it's just too much for me. The house looks worse now then when it was shown to me, so I have to spend even more money to make it suitable to show. i.e. I ripped up broke ceramic floor and it's not replaced-tore up sticky tiles- now floor is sticky- knocked down wall- now that needs to be repaired and-tore off trim to paint it so now have to put it back on. I have no clue where I'm going to get the energy. I cannot live in the house the way it is and haven't, been staying at my brothers and I'm sure it's rough on him, but he is almost 80 so when I get finished at the house there are all sorts of things I physically have to do for him and I just can't take it anymore. At least my health is ok for now. Missing "mah boy" as much as ever.. what I'd give to just have a kiss or howl from him especially now. I was doing well mentally, but this journey I have been on, is destroying all the progress I had made. Oh well life just sucks.... but keep on keeping on for sure.