Lena, Teacup Poodle w/ adrenal tumor - Lena is now an angel

[Harley PoMMom]

(((Hugs)))

[Joan2517]

My precious, Lena...it has been one long year today. One year...and I have cried every day. I miss you so much, Lee.

Josh is in the hospital again, just like this time last year. That Sunday after you died, I had to watch Alex because Jess was at the hospital with Josh. Thank God Jeremy came because I was in such shock over you dying that I could not have watched him by myself. All I remember of that day, and most after, was just sitting or lying on the couch.

After he left today, I sat outside with Daddy. It was such a beautiful day and I thought of how much you loved sitting on the deck watching everything, taking your little strolls along the paths, watching you investigate every bush, plant and the ponds. I could almost see you hopping up the one step into the rose garden and then hopping down and making your way back to us on the deck. I would sit on the step and you would sit in my lap facing the garden and we would just watch. I always loved those moments. I have so many pictures of you sitting on my legs facing out.

It is still so strange without you, my baby girl. I posted some pictures of you in Williamsburg on their Facebook page. I'm hoping that someone will remember you and our trip that year. You were such a big hit...everyone wanted to meet "Princess Lena".

Every memory of every occasion that I can remember, you were part of. You were such a presence in our lives, Lee.

One year and not a day goes by that I don't think of you and miss you. You are forever in my heart and mind. I talk to you constantly in my head, sometimes out loud. My first thought when I wake is of you as is my last before I sleep.

I was driving to work one day and thinking about that night and wondering...were you waiting for me? wondering where I was?
were you afraid? And I looked at the car ahead of me and there on the license plate was "JoeFixIt". I hoped that you were telling me that Pop was taking care of you because no one in Heaven would be calling him Pop, they would be calling him Joe...I hope so.

There will be no more "firsts" after today. They've all been so hard. I've dreaded each one.

I love you forever and always, my precious, angel child...Mommy will always love you...you are my heart.

[molly muffin]

Hugs Joan. There are no words, just tears and hugs.

[Joan2517]

I know, Sharlene...hugs right back at you.

[Squirt's Mom]

((((((((Sobby hugs from me, too.)))))))))

[mommyslittlegirl]

Joan, the first year is so very hard, filled with tears and memories. Most are precious and beautiful. All a part of the life you and Lena shared. Hugs

[DoxieMama]

Lena... thank you for watching over your mommy this past year. You know how beautiful and loving she is, and how strong... and just when to send her the right message to give her more strength when she needs it. You are a bright star for her, today and always.

Joan... much love to you, my friend.

[Whiskey's Mom]

Dear Joan, thinking of you with much love and comforting hugs. As I said in Whiskeys thread, they are woven into every fiber of the fabric of our lives. Such a part of everything we do, every single day. Bless you, and your family, and take comfort from your other pups and all of us here who care about you. Lena is watching over you all.

[Joan2517]

((((((((Sobby hugs from me, too.)))))))))

Thanks, Leslie...I was hoping they would start to subside, but alas, not yet...

[Joan2517]

Joan, the first year is so very hard, filled with tears and memories. Most are precious and beautiful. All a part of the life you and Lena shared. Hugs

I do smile more when I think of her, Dawn...sometimes without realizing it. I'll picture her sweet little face and the way her ears would go down when she saw me and a smile will start. She always made me smile, and she knew it. I hope you are doing okay...