Quote Originally Posted by marinaliz View Post
I was away for a couple of days and I just read for your loss. I'm at a lose for words, I don't know what to say… This must be so hard for you. I'm sorry for what you are going through. I wish I had the right words to comfort you but I believe that only time will make it easier for you. She may be in a better place now…R.I.P. little princess...
Thank you...I know. My brother sent me a whole you tube video on making the right decision about when the time comes, but it was all about being there when they are put down. He meant well, but boy did that bring back the guilt of not having been with her. I just can't get past that.

I can accept that it was her time, just looking at pictures I can see how much she changed and I can see the pain and confusion that started to show in her eyes compared to how she used to look.

I just can't accept that she went by herself surrounded by strangers, not with the one who loved her more than anything. I am so afraid that she was looking for me or waiting for me to come back. I wish I had stayed, then they could've just come and got me and I could've held her in my arms while she died...I just can't seem to get past that.