My baby dog, Visuddha

[Squirt's Mom]

Happy Birthday, Visuddha!
((((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))) Shana

[DoxieMama]

I wanted to start this post about his life, but made the video instead. I thought I had cried all the tears while making it... watched it all week with dry eyes. But today, I tried to post it on Facebook. I watched it once, crying, and then was notified that it wasn't posted due to copyright. So I watched it again and cried some more. Later, I posted a link to this copy of it on Youtube... and watched it again, crying again.

I miss my heart dog. He was my shadow, my comfort.

I miss him so much.

[labblab]

Such a sweet and tender tribute to your little boy, Shana. My heart goes out to you, until the time comes that you are together again. Hugs, hugs, and more hugs being sent your way.

[spdd]

Happy Birthday to your sweet boy. Your tribute video is wonderful. Maybe someday I can get the courage to make one of Keesh, but not yet. Sure know how you feel about missing them, seems it's a hole in the heart that never quite heals. Hugs to you.

[DoxieMama]

For those of you not on Facebook, there is a "feature" called "On this day" where it will show you posts you made on this date in previous years. When I posted last year to let everyone know of Visuddha's passing, it was the day after... which was yesterday. My post began with something along the lines of "I don't want to post this here because I don't want Facebook to remind me next year, or 7 years from now...." and yesterday, there was that reminder. Stupid Facebook.

It is possible to set dates (or people) that you do not want Facebook to bring up using this feature. I won't do that ... I'll face the emotions that come up every time I'm reminded of Jupiter, Star, Tia, Visuddha, and human friends who are no longer in my life for one reason or another. It still sucks though.

Thank you to all of you for wishing him a happy birthday, and watching the video that was gut-wrenchingly difficult to make.

My baby dog was obnoxious and vicious, bigger in spirit than any dog he encountered, with courage and tenacity to match. But he was my sweet boy, who squirmed his way into my heart. And I wouldn't have it any other way.

[Joan2517]

It's so hard when that shows up...so many of the "On this day" have Lena in them. Three years ago, four years ago...and there she is somewhere in the picture, such a huge part of our lives, always.

[molly muffin]

I still have Mollys picture as my header pic and I don't know when or if I'll take it down. Maybe someday but not yet.
It's bittersweet to see it there, but heart breaking to think of moving it. I know exactly what you mean about the day pop ups.

[DoxieMama]

Another year, another Facebook reminder. Not that I needed it.

Happy Birthday, little one. Your birthday (Halloween), I wasn't interested in answering the door and handing out candy, so dad had to do it. We only had about 14 kids this year.

Yesterday, I took Jackson and Kira for a run in the morning. I used new shoes that hurt my feet, so when we got home I redid the laces and went back out without them. I ran the half mile that you and I walked when you were tired. Then the family played a new board game in the afternoon. I went to bed early, tired from the time change and the emotions I shoved down and ignored all day.

This morning, Facebook memories showed me your face. It is my profile picture again, just for a while, as the tears fall.

I miss you, baby dog. Much love,

Your mama