Debbie, Im so so sorry for your loss. I know exactly what you are going through as we just lost our little girl on monday. As you know and I have found out, this is one awesome group of people. Allow yourself to scream, grieve, yell, cuss, do whatever at the "moment" makes you feel better.
This is a hurt unlike any other I have ever experienced and so so unfair.
I will keep you in my thought and prayers for comfort.
My words seem so insignificant at this time but I grieve with you.
much love and comfort
Bonnie