Re: New to this - Jake has passed
That's how I am about Lena, Barb. I think of her all day long, whether consciously or just in the back of my mind. There's always a memory or a thought; I'm always telling Sibbie, Lena did this or Lena never did that....it's always "before or after Lee". At first I cried so much I couldn't believe I still had tears. I still have those days; sometimes I cry myself to sleep. Anything sad will make me start.
All I can say is that it does eventually get easier. At first that made me feel terrible. Was I forgetting her? Didn't I still love her?? I will never forget her, ever. And I will always love her, always. It's not that I don't miss her. I'm just getting used to missing her; it's always there.
Joan, mom to my Angel Lena, Angel Gable, Angel Phoenix, Angel Doree, Cooper, Sibble, and now Raina.