Dear Dawn
The pain, the loss,the regrets can overwhelm us. Even after over 4 years I still have guilt, miss him everyday. Like you Apollo changed my world, opened me up more,etc. No one can take that pain away. We try to find a way to go on. The loss will always be there. Many of us pass the love on to another fur ball to ease the pain. My little rescue Ariel,helps me cope with the loss. Once you experience the joy of having a fur ball. You are never the same. There are so many rescues out there that would love to be with you.
No one can tell you what to do. We can only share our experience strength and hope.
Love Sonja,Apollo