Yes Marianne, I did notice that you lit a candle for your sweet boy too.
I am not looking for great advice or for anyone to fix me. That would definitely be a full-time job for a whole boatload of people!
Our family here is a safe place where we can unite to talk about those that we have loved and lost with family who understand. It is okay not to be okay sometimes. Not everyone understands that. We get that here. We don't have to pretend. We can be ourselves.