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    Thank you for this thread. I remember my Apollo would get so excited not only would he open his presents,but want to open everyone else's too. One year when my niece was about two, Apollo started opening up her present because she wasn't fast enough. Being the regal king that he was,he thought all the presents were for him
    Miss my baby every day.
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    OK kids, another November is here and another holiday season approaches. Wowsa, how can the days fly by? On the other hand, how can the hardest days seem to drag on forever...

    Anyway, I thought I'd bump up this thread once again. Just in case anybody wants to drop by to share some smiles, tears, thoughts, memories, dreams, wishes, hopes and sorrows. I know for me, the holidays are made up of all those things, including some of my tenderest feelings and greatest longings for loved ones who are physically absent.

    Anybody who knows me here knows I like to yak! It brings me comfort to talk and to write. I surely understand it is not the same for everybody. But for anyone else who also finds solace in adding a note here or sharing a group hug, please know you are welcome no matter what is on your mind or in your heart. Good or bad, happy or sad. This is a place we can come all through the holidays, knowing our K9C family understands things that perhaps our other friends and family do not. Like how much it matters that things are forever changed by the absence of a sweet warm body and a dear face at the table, at the party, in the kitchen, at the fireplace, at the window, at the door, by the tree, in your lap, beside your chair, just being loved.

    Starting things off with a giant bear hug from me, in honor of my Barkis and the joy he always brought us at the holidays. He was a December baby, as was my dad. Both will always be so special to me in the heart of my holiday memories.
    Marianne

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    Last year sucked with regard to the holidays. I was down for the count with Whooping Cough the entire months of December and January. I could barely function, so celebrating the holidays did not happen. That wasn't even the worst part. Previously, whenever I felt poorly, Buddy never left my side. Him not being there with me was worse than being sick by far. I am hoping for a healthier holiday season. I have hand sanitizer all over the classroom. Hopefully the germ magnets will get the hint.
    Kathy and Angel Buddy. The mightiest of all lizard hunters!

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    Boy, I remember your Whooping Cough as though it was yesterday. What a nightmare!!!

    It would be nice if you could issue surgical masks to the germ bombs along with the hand sanitizer...

    But yeah, the cough involved physical pain while Buddy's absence was deep emotional pain. Your first holiday season without him would have been so hard, regardless. You layer on the cough, and it became a double, triple, quadruple whammy.

    I know you will still be missing Buddy terribly this year, as well as all your rituals together. But hopefully you will have your physical health intact so that you can participate in some outward celebration. Inwardly, you will still ache at times -- probably often. But sometimes when I think I am only going through the motions, I discover I actually have more fun than I thought would be possible. I hope the same may end up being true for you, and that some new memories can be made with Rosie to store in your heart alongside those precious times shared with your baby boy.

    In that vein, I can think of no better way to describe the holidays than bittersweet. Such a double-edged sword, in so many ways.

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    I do not think I could handle putting up Zoe's tree. Actually, I know I cant do it. I had hoped we could go away for Christmas with Koko but now I have this never ending cough and hubby has a medical procedure coming up mid December so we cant get away.

    I thought really hard about maybe putting up Zoe's tree but decorating it with my antique ornaments rather than her beautiful birds. Then I realized I would have to lock Koko up in the kitchen again as I would be too worried leaving him home alone with a tree filled with glass ornaments.

    So now I guess I will just stop planning anything, live in the moment and go with the flow, whatever I do.

    I am so dreading Thanksgiving without Zoe barking at the table and being so excited. I try to banish the thoughts from my mind and just not think about it. Sort of going through the motions without too much thinking involved.

    Firsts are hard.
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    Quote Originally Posted by addy View Post
    So now I guess I will just stop planning anything, live in the moment and go with the flow, whatever I do.

    I am so dreading Thanksgiving without Zoe barking at the table and being so excited. I try to banish the thoughts from my mind and just not think about it. Sort of going through the motions without too much thinking involved.

    Firsts are hard.
    I think going with the flow is an excellent strategy. As well as not dwelling on the painful thoughts. They will come up on their own, but the trick is to release them on their own, too. At least, for me, that is the trick. Not to latch onto the thought and the pain and hold on and hold on and hold on. Like endlessly rubbing a sore in your mouth with your tongue.

    There is a phrase my husband and I both use in relation to playing instruments (for me it is keyboard, for him it is stringed instruments). The phrase is "muscle memory." It always seems like a bit of a miracle to me when I memorize a song and can play it effortlessly without the music. But we call that "muscle memory" -- when the notes become physically encoded in some way and our fingers just know automatically what to do. The truly odd thing is that when I use my brain again and start thinking about what I'm playing, the whole thing usually falls apart. The brain consciousness overrides the physical consciousness and short-circuits everything.

    I am really good at letting my brain short-circuit things.

    So I will project my own self onto you, and tell you that I think going with the flow is an excellent idea. Let your body and your heart lead you through the holidays. Who knows, you may end up heading off in a surprising direction by trying something new or by repeating something old that still ends up feeling comfortable after all.

    Carpe diem. Savor the moment. Isn't that what our puppies lived by? Of all the life lessons they could teach us, I sure hope I can grasp that one before it is too late.

    And absolutely, firsts are d**n hard.

    Marianne

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    Right back at you with the hugs Marianne. Your sweet December baby brought us the gift of you. Thank you Barkis for sharing your mom with us.

    Yes, The last holiday season was my first without Buddy. I did not want to do it without him. My heart was not in it. I wanted to skip it altogether and just start up in January. As it turned out, I ended up too sick to do much of anything. Be careful what you wish for. You might just get it.

    Quote Originally Posted by labblab View Post
    Starting things off with a giant bear hug from me, in honor of my Barkis and the joy he always brought us at the holidays. He was a December baby, as was my dad.
    Kathy and Angel Buddy. The mightiest of all lizard hunters!

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    Oh Kathy, I am LOVIN' Buddy's Christmas avatar!!

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    Oh Marianne,

    The title of this thread could not be more appropriate. Ever since we released our sweet girl, the silence is unbearable. This will be our 2nd holiday season without our girl. But last one was the hardest. I have been missing from the forum for quite sometime now, and I just could not find the right time or words or even the time to open up. But it has been long overdue, and I am in a better place to let it all out.
    In November, 2013 I was dx with invasive breast cancer (almost a year now). I couldnt bear to tell my girls the horrible news and risk spoiling the little magic we still managed to carry in us that Christmas, specially after just losing our Princess, so I decided to wait to tell them until after the holidays.
    I underwent a bilateral mastecomy in January, 2014, chemotherapy from February through April and 33 daily rounds of radiation from May through July. I never thought I would pull through such emotional and physical pain, for this has been by far, one of the longest and trying journeys I have ever been dealt. I never questioned the "why me" as much as just the "why". Many times I thought to myself well yeah "why not me". If this is where I was meant to be, there must be a higher and bigger purpose for all of it, and time will tell what that is. For now, I am going strong again, getting my energy back, and just truly grateful for every single day--goodness, Im aliveee! We must rejoice in that and i am focused on each precious day, and less focus on the dark side of my journey. I think the only one thing that sticks out for me is the fact that I had to lose my girl 2 months prior to my starting my journey. That "why" I will always question. Why did she have to walk out of my life when life seemed to be walking out on me? Why, then when I needed her the most? Oh sweet Princess, I always wonder if this ride could have been more bearable with you at my side every step of the way? But I guess it just wasn't meant that way.
    My dear family, I am so relieved to finally come here with courage to tell my story, because you are all still so dear to my heart and always will be, and nothing can ever change what a special place in my heart you all occupy. I love and have missed every single one of you and your furbabies, and I am sorry for my long absence.

    And I am sending all some very tight hugs for old times sake.
    XO Jeanette

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    Ps: i also wanted to wish my sweet girl an early 12th birthday on November 21st. I pray you are soo at peace and happiest again. I miss your big smile the most. :-)

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