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  1. #301
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    I wish Lena would come to me, Marianne. If she has, I've forgotten the dream as I wake up. I would love to feel her in my arms again and kiss her sweet little face; hear her sigh as she would settle close to my heart; hold her up and kiss her potbelly. I get plenty of signs, but I would just love to hold her again.

    It's been raining here too. My guys all come in from the backyard with their muddy paws! I shouldn't complain, right now they are all well, no one has had to go to the vet in weeks. I looked out the back door yesterday and Gable was standing on top of a trunk we put the outdoor cushions in. I took some pictures, but can't get them to upload. He is really feeling his oats lately! I put a chair closer to him so he wouldn't jump off and break anything. He always liked to be up high so he could see everything. He used to climb the playground steps and sit on top before this all started.

    I bought Sibbie a new Xmas dress. She will look adorable. Doree can wear Sibbie's from last year. I miss seeing my two girls in their Christmas tee shirts. I just can't bring myself to have Sibbie wear Lee's.

    Other than that, we're getting ready for Christmas. I'm not decorating as much as I used to, I just don't have the energy after my 3 1/2 hour commute to/from the city every day, plus I'm getting too old to do it all myself. It's time to tone down!

    Merry Christmas, my dear friend...and to all of my dear friends here on the forum!
    Joan, mom to my Angel Lena, Doree, Gable, Cooper, Angel Phoenix and now Sibble.

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    Hi to my friends and family here. November 16 was my third year without my baby . I miss her and love her so much . I still cry every day for her . Sometimes a few tears and other days a flood opens up . But now another heartbreak in my life has come . The sweet man I was engaged to passed away Thanksgiving Eve . He was only 45 . How does one go on ? How does one celebrate the holidays ? I truly hope my family here has a great holiday season . And please give thanks to the people and pets in your life . We never know how long we will have them .

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    Oh my dear Dawn! I’m stunned to read this news about your fiancÚ! I am sorry beyond words to read about this new heartbreak in your life. There can be such joy and beauty in life, but also such sorrow and pain. It seems so incredibly unfair that you should be dealt this new blow. Thank you so much for coming back to tell your family here. We’re standing right beside you, once again and always. Always in support of you, and always in loving memory of the sweethearts who have been lost to you on this earth. May the circle of love remain unbroken, though. I do believe, in my heart of hearts, that love is forever. And forever loving, and forever loved, you shall be.

    Hugs, hugs, and more hugs, my dear friend.
    Marianne

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    Oh Dawn, how sad! I'm so sorry.

    We are celebrating differently this year. My mom who has Alzheimer's has been in and out of the hospital and rehab for the last couple of months and probably won't be able to come to our house Xmas Eve like she usually does. My sister and her family will come anyway, and one of my brothers who does not celebrate the holidays, will stay with my mom...it will be different.

    I started making my shortbreads last week and could only think of how much Lena loved them. I missed having her sitting in her bed in the kitchen waiting for a taste of the dough from each batch. When I Skyped with Melissa, the animal medium, the summer after Lena died, she said that Lena was telling her something about some special bread that Lena liked. At the time I said bagels, because I couldn't figure out what she meant. It wasn't until Christmas when I started making the shortbreads that I realized what it was. Every year I say I'm not going to make them anymore, but my baby loved them and I can't disappoint her.

    i thought you might enjoy that story, Dawn. I hope it makes you smile and realize that our loved ones never really leave us.

    Love,
    Joan
    Joan, mom to my Angel Lena, Doree, Gable, Cooper, Angel Phoenix and now Sibble.

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    Thank you Marianne and Joan .Wishing everyone a nice Christmas.

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    Dawn I am so very sorry to read your news. You wonder sometimes just how much in this life of bad things can be thrown at you before you cannot take anymore. Somehow we go on though, plod through and somewhere, sometime life is worth it again. I cannot believe the struggle some us are dealt. My heartfelt sympathies are with you especially this time of year.

    On another note, I actually dropped by the forum to wish the absolute wonderful family here a Very Merry Christmas, and only the very best in the New Year.

    It is still difficult for me to come on here, you would think after 4 years it would be easier, and I guess it is a little, but all in all still a heartache.

    Ok.... enough of the sadness for now.

    MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE......REMEMBER THE REASON FOR THE SEASON.
    Judi & "mah boy" Keesh

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    Thank you Judi. I know you understand . I am tired of sadness and pain . No more fur babies or loves for me . Hope everyone will have a Happy New Year . A coming year of good health , happiness and peace .
    Last edited by mommyslittlegirl; 12-31-2018 at 01:00 PM.

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    Dear Judi and Dawn,

    Thank you so much for all your well wishes, and I join in wishing our K9C family much peace and comfort in this new year. So many challenges are faced by so many of us, and the love and support of our dear little family helps to carry us all through together. I wish only the best for us all.

    Happy New Year, indeed!

    Love, Marianne

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    I know our winter holiday season is now far behind us, but it’s not until today that I’ll be packing away my own decorations. And I wanted to add one more note here to explain why I’ve been so scarce during the past month. I was feeling so good about being well-prepared for Christmas this year — the tree was up, the presents bought, the cards had been sent, the menus were planned. And then, one week beforehand, I pulled up the last email I was ever to receive from my beloved mom. At age 99, she was still sharp as a tack, and we emailed back and forth every day. The email title was “A matter of concern...” and she proceeded to tell me that she had awakened that morning frighteningly short of breath. Didn’t call me, mind you — but emailed me so as not to worry me unduly. The rest of the past month is a blur. Something catastrophic had gone wrong with her heart and she was way beyond wanting any intervention. So we enlisted hospice, she told them exactly what she did and did not want to have done, we loved on her 24/7, and during the early morning hours of Sunday, she relinquished her hold on this world. I like to think she had a front row seat for the lunar eclipse that night. She would have loved that.

    She was not only my mother, she was my best friend. Only now am I finally allowing some of the pain to set in, and I will miss her so dearly. For so many reasons, it will be so bittersweet to pack away the decorations today for the Christmas that was not to be. A blink of an eye, and the holidays are gone this year along with my mom. There is still a lot to be done, and it’ll be a while before I’m back here again in full force. But I’ve still been reading and following along with my family here, and I still wish everybody my best for whatever lies ahead of us in this new year to come. Truly, peace and comfort and love remain my hope for us all until the day comes that we reopen the doors to our holiday house once again.

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    Dearest Marianne,

    Today I have been going through stories I have written, thoughts of mine, snippets through the years. I came across a letter I had written the first Christmas I spent without my mother. It gave me pause and reflection.

    I took a break and decided to stop by the forum. I saw your last post and my heart sank with sadness, reading it.

    Nothing prepares us for the loss of our mother, no matter how long they may live. It changes, I think, who we are in an unexpected way.

    I can smile now when I think of my mom and I hope you can too when the loss is not so fresh and new.

    But I can still feel sadness too and I can understand my mother now, better, perhaps than I did when she was alive.

    Big hugs, Marianne and perhaps next year, if appropriate, I will share my Christmas letter written to my mother.

    I am so, so very sorry.
    love,
    addy, zoe and koko


    My little dog - a heartbeat at my feet. ~Edith Wharton

    Memory is the power to gather roses in the winter

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