There are still times when the sadness is still so intense. I didn't grieve openly and pretended all was okay with those few people I told about Buddy's death. I even dropped his name from my signature just so I could keep his memory to myself. The people I work with only found out by accident months later by accident because I just couldn't bear to have people tell me they were sorry knowing they really had no idea how much he meant to me. Things were just getting back to normal when we lost Nelson.
Life goes on and Luke and Joey are a real joy, hard work sometimes but certainly worth it. Phoebe is doing ok but next month she will be 18 so I have to give her extra loving every day.
The days are flying by and in a few weeks it will be the first anniversary of Buddy crossing the bridge. Sometimes it seems like yesterday and other times a whole lifetime ago. I have finally disposed of the vial of insulin in the fridge and am planning on taking the syringes to the vet to be given to someone who needs them.
So thinking back on 2009 I will be glad to see the end of it and hope that 2010 is a happier year.
Jenny