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My baby doll Scoop
Hi my big boy Scoop. You left us July 1, 2013 around 11:00PM-11:10PM.
My heart is breaking. I miss you so, so much.
I didn't want to leave there. I wanted to stay with you and just hold you and give you kisses forever. I can still feel you in my arms. Your soft ears in my hands. My lips kissing your head.
I don't know how I am going to get through the days and nights without you here with us. You are so special. You were such a good boy. There will never be another one like you. I am so proud to be your mom.
I want to hold you again and I can't. I miss those soft ears and those big beautiful eyes.
I am so sorry you got sick and I couldn't help you. I'm sorry I wasn't there to hold you as you crossed the bridge. It breaks my heart we weren't there with you.
I can't believe your gone. My heart feels like it has been stomped on and it will never heal.
I hope you know how very much we love you, forever and ever.
I love you, I love you, I love you my big boy, baby doll Scoop!
You are my sweetheart.
Love and hugs and kisses forever.
Mom
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Dearest Vicki,
I am so very sorry for your loss. I know your little man will always be with you.
We are all here for you.
In Memory of your sweetie pie Scoop.
(((hugs)))
Terry
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Vicki,
I'm so sorry to hear about your baby Scoop.My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Love,
Patty
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aww vicki i can't tell you how deeply sorry i am for your broken heart,it is so hard to lose our babies.vicki know that you gave your baby scoop the best life ever and he will always have that special place in your heart.i am sending you great big hugs and send you prayers for healing.patty(milo)meka xoxox
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Hi Scoop, my sweetheart.
I miss you so much. Words can't even express how much.
I feel so lost without you. I think about you every minute.
I love you!!
Hugs and kisses,
Mom
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Hi my big boy Scoop,
I want you to know I think about you constantly. I can not believe you are not here with us. The days are so empty without you. You are my sweetheart. I love you very much.
Love, hugs and kisses
from Mom
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Scoop, I couldn't sleep much. I keep thinking about you. I miss you so much. I hope you know how much you are loved and missed every second of every day.
Hugs, kisses and ear rubs.
I love you.
Mom
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Hi my sweet Scoop,
I am so sorry for all that has happened. I hope you can forgive me.
I don't think I will ever be able to forgive myself.
I love you and miss you so much it hurts, baby doll.
I wish I was with you right now giving you an ear rub and lots of kisses on your sweet little head.
I am hurting so bad right now.
I hope you can forgive me and you still love me as much as I love you.
Hugs, kisses, ear rubs and lots of love to you forever.
Mom
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Hi baby doll, my big boy Scoop,
I miss you more than you'll ever know.
I want to tell you how much I am sorry for what happened.
I love you with all my heart and would never have done anything on purpose to hurt you much less cause you to not be here with us.
This is so hard for me. I wanted to help you to get better and for you to be with us for a long time and this hurts so much. What happened, baby?
Please forgive me my sweetheart.
I wish I was giving you kisses and ear rubs right now.
Love you Scoop.
Mom
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Sweet Scoop,
Today has been really tough. One week ago was the last day you spent here at home with us. It's been so hard. You did not seem like you were getting sick. I wish I knew what happened.
I have been looking through some old pictures and they make me smile seeing you younger and enjoying so many things.
Tonight is going to be really hard. I might come back and talk again later.
Love you forever, Scoop
Mom
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Hi my sweet boy Scoop,
One week ago you spent your last night at home with us.
I miss you so much. Why did you have to go?
My heart aches so much to hold you and give you kisses.
Love you forever.
Hugs , kisses and ear rubs
Love you,
Mom
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Hi my sweet baby doll Scoop,
One week ago you left home to go to the hospital and that was the last time you were in your home. I wish you didn't have to go.
I am so sorry for what happened. We all miss you so much. I know Molly and daddy miss you just like I do. I think Raleigh does too. He always liked being with you. Why did you have to leave us?
It is very hot and humid here. Raleigh has been minding it very much. He was just sitting here aside of me and some bears came on TV. You know Raleigh. He had to jump off the couch and bark at them. That's Raleigh!
I keep thinking if I would have done things differently would you still be here with us?
I know you had a lot of problems but I didn't expect this to happen.
I will be back later.
I miss you and love you forever my sweetheart.
I want to hold you again and kiss your sweet head and it hurts because I can't.
Love you,
Mom
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Oh Scoop,
Tomorrow is going to be such a sad day. It is going to be tough. It will be one week that you are not here with us. It feels like it has been an eternity since we were together and I was able to hold you and kiss your sweet head and rub your ears.
My mind doesn't stop thinking of you and what happened. I feel this need to know what caused you to leave us. I keep thinking should I have had an autopsy done? This is going to eat at me the rest of my life, not knowing.
I wish I could let it go and accept what happened but you know your mom, I'm not that kind of person. I can't let things go. Just like I kept thinking I just had to be able to get you better and look what happened there.
If you could help me out and let me know somehow what caused you to pass on, it would make me feel a bit better. I'm having a hard time not only because I miss and love you so much but also because I wasn't with you at the end and now not knowing what happened to you is so, so hard.
I love you my sweet Scoop.
Till tomorrow-hugs and kisses
Love,
Mom
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Morning my baby doll, Scoop,
I can't stop thinking about you and missing you so very much. I am having such a hard time. All I want to do is be with you and hold you, my sweet boy.
I will be back later, not sure when. I might be going to meet with a group tonight to talk about you.
I wish I would get a sign from you. I had one short nightmare about you last week. It startled me awake. I keep looking at your pictures. I miss you so very much.
I hope you have lots of friends to play with.
I miss you and love you forever and ever my sweet Scoop.
Love, hugs, kisses and ear rubs,
Mom
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Hi my sweet Scoop,
One week ago tonight you left us. It has been a tough week without you here.
We all miss you so very much and wish you didn't have go.
We love you more than words can say.
Love forever, Mom
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Hi Scoop,
I was at the hospital tonight. I saw Chrissy and Carole. I showed them some of your pictures that I had with me. I got to meet Chrissy's boy Carter. He is a sweet boy just like you. Chrissy told me several times that you reminded her of Carter. He was giving Chrissy the paw just like you did when you wanted more ear rub. Carole said that you seemed to enjoy the ear rub she gave you before you passed away. I so need to know that you were content before you passed and were not in any pain. They told me they tried their hardest to bring you back but they couldn't. I'm sorry you had to leave us. You are missed so very much. We love you forever baby doll. Good night my sweet angel.
Love Mom
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Oh my Scoop,
I miss you so, so very much. I want to hold you again. It hurts.
I wish I would have a wonderful dream about you. You are always in my thoughts and in my heart.
I will be talking to Dr. Carter in a couple of hours. I don't hold out much hope on her telling me anything that might be of help to me but I have to see.
I am thinking about talking to a medium. Hope you would be up for that.
I wish I would have checked into talking to an animal communicator before you passed to see if she could find out what was going on with you but I never thought we were going to lose you last Monday night. Even though I know you were sick I wasn't prepared for what happened.
I will be back later. I can't stay away. I feel the need to at least come and tell you how much I love you and miss you my sweet boy.
Love, Mom
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Hi my baby doll Scoop,
I talked to Dr. Carter today. She is pretty sure about what happened to you. It made me sad to hear that she thinks the infection was too much for your organs. I'm sorry my sweet boy that you had to go through that. I hope you weren't in pain. They seem to think you weren't. That you went to sleep and didn't wake up. I'm still sorry that you had to leave us. We miss you so very much. Know that we love you with all our hearts. We didn't want you to go.
Lots of love, hugs and ear rubs.
Love forever,
Mom
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Hi my Scoop,
I came to say goodnight to you and tell you that I think about you all the time.
I still can't believe you aren't here with us anymore. That makes me so sad.
I thought of a few more questions to ask Dr. Carter. I just feel bad about bothering her again.
I hope you have lots of friends to play with and have lots of good treats.
You are such a special boy. I love you with all my heart and miss you so much.
Lots of love, hugs and ear rubs.
Love forever,
Mom
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My sweet boy Scoop,
I took Raleigh out this morning and I thought about you not being here for me to take you out. I started crying and haven't stopped. I miss you so, so much.
My heart aches to see you and be with you and hold you and give you kisses and ear rubs but I know I can't and it hurts.
Love you forever my baby doll.
Mom
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My Scoop,
Wanted to say I love you, I miss you.
Mom
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Hi my sweet boy Scoop,
Today I cried so much because I miss you. I picked up some pictures that I had done and they were recent photos of you. Molly and I looked at them tonight and it made us both so sad that you aren't here with us. We all love you. We all miss you. I wish you wouldn't have had to leave us. I want you to be here with us. I am so sorry you had to get sick. I wish I would have known what was going on with you. I tried my best but it wasn't good enough. I am so very sorry. It just breaks my heart so much I can't stand it.
I will say good night. You are loved and missed so, so much.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom
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Hi my baby doll, Scoop,
I haven't heard from the hospital yet unless they tried to call while I was talking to grandma. She called thinking you were supposed to be here with us yesterday. I said I was waiting to hear. I'm so nervous. I wanted you to come home to us healthy so we could all give you hugs and kisses. I miss you my sweet big boy. I'll be back later.
Hugs, kisses, ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom
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Hi my sweet Scoop,
We are glad you are home with us. It is not the way we wanted you to come home but I'm sorry there is nothing I can do to change that. I wish I could. I got some more pictures printed and picked them up today. They are from years ago. Do you remember the year you put your head in the garbage bag with the Christmas wrapping paper in it? I got pictures of you with your butt sticking out. Too cute. You were something else. Also got a couple pictures of you sitting on Molly's belly. You loved sitting on her belly and her back and when you were little you would like to chew on her hair while sitting on her back.
I wrote Dr. Carter a letter and asked her some questions. We'll see if she answers them.
I miss you so much my sweet boy.
Hugs, kisses, ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom
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My Sweet Scoop,
I can not get you off my mind. I think and think about what happened to you. It is driving me crazy. I hope you can forgive me for everything. I wish you were still here with us. I miss you baby doll.
Hugs, kisses, ear rubs.
I love you forever.
Mom
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Hey my Scoop,
Miss you so much my baby doll.
I hope you can feel the love we all have for you.
Hugs, kisses, ear rubs.
I love you forever.
Mom
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Dear Vicki
I am so sorry for the loss of your angel. Scoop will always be in your heart. Keep writing, let her love enfold you.
Love and hugs Sonja and Angel Apollo.
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Hi my baby doll Scoop,
It was 2 weeks ago tonight that you spent your last night here at home.
It has been and continues to be so very hard for me without you. I miss you so very much. I think about you all the time. I hope you can still feel all of our love for you. You are so special my sweet big boy.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs
I love you forever.
Mom
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Hi my sweet Scoop,
The weekends are so hard thinking about you spending your last day at home and going to the hospital for the last time.
I miss going grocery shopping on Saturday mornings and coming home to have you all excited for me to be home. Then remembering you having your breathing problem and having to take you to the hospital Sunday morning. The last time you were here with us.
Daddy and I spent a very special moment together this morning about you. He misses you so very much. Molly misses you lots and lots too. I'm sure Raleigh does. He used to love being with you. Just laying by your side.
I hope you know how very much I miss you and love you. Things are so different and so difficult without you my sweet boy.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom
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Hi my sweet baby doll Scoop,
Tonight it will be 2 weeks since left us and I saw you and held you and kissed you for the last time. Oh how hard it has been. I miss you so very much. The tears still flow freely anytime. I wish I could hold you and kiss you and give you ear rubs again. How you loved your ear rubs. Whenever somebody was rubbing them and would stop you would paw at them and want more.
Today I was having one of my guilt trips. I just feel like I should have known something was going on and been able to help you. I hope you can forgive me if there was something I could have done different that would have helped you. I'm still trying to work through all of this. We all miss you and love you so very much. I wish you wouldn't have had to leave us.
You are always in my thoughts and in my heart. In a few hours it is going to be extra hard thinking of what happened two weeks ago. I hope you weren't in any pain and you were thinking of your family, who loves you so very much, when you left us.
You are my big boy, my baby doll and I love you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom
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My sweetheart Scoop,
It's been 2 weeks now.
I miss you so very much, my baby doll. Love you lots. I sat here holding your box for over an hour. I'm getting tired so I'll be back tomorrow to talk.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom
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Hi my baby doll Scoop,
Molly and I were sitting here tonight looking at some pictures that I found in a box in the basement. Some of them were of you on the day we brought you home. Some of the others were from shortly after that when you were so young. In the one you were dashing around the yard. Molly said she remembers you used to run around and around the dining room table. She said you used to fly up the stairs to her bedroom jump up on her bed, jump down and then run back down the stairs.
Miss you so very much.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom
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Hi my big boy Scoop,
I'm very tired. I'll be back tomorrow to talk.
Have to tell you how much I miss you and love you!
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom
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Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
I am missing you so much. I wanted to tell you I am thinking of you and miss you all the time. Oh how I wish things would have turned out different. I still think it could have.
I have some errands to do. I'll be back later. Just wanted to tell you how much we all love and miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom
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Hi my baby doll Scoop,
Picked up some more pictures today that I got printed. Later Molly and I will sit down and look at them. We sit there together, looking at the pictures and they bring tears to our eyes. We miss you so very much. I am feeling guilty about what happened to you. I am so very sorry for all that happened to you. I'm thinking this didn't have to end like it did. Right now I am not happy with the vets. I hope you weren't in any pain. It must have been building up in you for a while. I feel so bad about everything. I hope you know I would not have done anything to hurt you. I love you and I didn't want you to leave us. I am struggling so much with all this right now. The more I think about everything the more my heart breaks and the angrier I get.
I hope you forgive me and love me as much as I love you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom
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Hi my big boy Scoop,
Molly and I looked at the pictures last night and we did cry. We miss you so very much. I picked up a few more pictures today but not near as many as yesterday. I think we will pick one of the pictures from today and have a 5x7 made for the special frame that Molly got for your table. It has a beautiful poem on the left side and a place for a picture of you on the right side. Molly said she will be getting you some more fresh flowers over the weekend. I go to your table many times a day and give you a kiss and tell you how much I love you and miss you. I hope you hear me tell you that.
I will say goodnight to you on here. When I am ready to turn in I will give you a kiss and say goodnight and tell you I love you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom
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Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Tonight it is 3 weeks since you spent your last night here at home with us. We still miss you so very, very much. It has been so hard since you have been gone. I think of your last few days and I feel so, so sad and just cry. Please forgive me. I didn't want that to happen. I love you so much. The heartache is still unbearable. I wish we could go back and do things over and have a different outcome. I want to be able to give you kisses and ear rubs again and just hold you. I miss your cute face.
I'll be back tomorrow, which will be another hard day.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom
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Hi my baby doll Scoop,
Today has been another tough one. Molly and I were just talking about you. You are always on my mind. I miss you so very much. I found a few more older pictures of when you were a young guy. Tears still flow easily. My heart hurts.
Molly bought you some fresh sunflowers today. A few of the wildflowers that came with the sunflowers last week were still OK so we put them back in the vase along with the new sunflowers. They look so nice. When you were younger you used to love to smell flowers. I found a picture of Molly holding a flower and you are smelling it. When we lived in Allentown when you were younger you used to like to do your business while you were smelling the flowers in the yard. What a silly guy you were.
I forgot to tell you. Yesterday Molly got a tattoo. I went with her. It is 2 paw prints. They are on the outside of her right leg, aside of her ankle. One is blue with a heart in the middle of it and it has a yellow/gold halo over it. That one is for you. The other one is red with a heart in the middle of it. That one is for Raleigh. The blue is because you wore the blue harness and leash and the red for Raleigh because he wore the red harness and leash. She said maybe in time she will get your names put on.
I'll be back tomorrow.
We all love and miss you so very much.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom
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Hi my big boy Scoop,
I had to come by and tell you how much I am sorry for the way things happened this past year and especially your last few days. I am hurting so much. I am so sorry. Please forgive me. I miss you so very much and I love you with all my heart. Tonight it will be 3 weeks since you left us. I'll be back later my sweet boy.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom
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Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
I keep looking at the clock. Around 11:00PM or just after, it will be 3 weeks since you left us. They couldn't tell me an exact time. It hasn't gotten any easier since 3 weeks ago. The only time I might have a little smile on my face is when I come across some pictures of you from when you were young or I'm sitting at the camera store to get pictures made of you when you were young. Just seeing you being happy in the picture brings a little smile to my face but then reality slaps me. I am sitting here holding your box on my lap. I wish I would be giving you an ear rub and some kisses. I wish you could give me some kind of a sign that you are OK and that you forgive me and that you love us. This has been so, so hard. Molly had to work late tonight and just now as she should be walking to her car it started to pour. I have quite a few pictures to pick up tomorrow. I am going to need lots of photo albums or a big container till I'm done getting all of your pictures. That's OK. I'm glad I have them. There might be some on the computer that got the virus. Hopefully Saul will be able to retrieve them for me. Know that I am sitting here holding you close. You will always be close by me as long as my memory doesn't fail me. Forever in my heart my sweet Scoop.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom