Confused and Overwhelmed-Diagnosed Anal Sac Carcinoma (Woody has passed)

Waiting is the worst. I often find myself waiting for updates on issues and I am rubbish at it, get so annoyed. You think I would be used to it by now!

Hopefully someone will come back with something soon. Is there any volunteering you could do around your way to fill some time?

Well at least you had something, I did fillet steak with potato rosti and coleslaw was pretty tasty. Another incident came in just as I was off to make it but I managed to get that on hold till tomorrow. This client has 24*7 support in January so it's like being on tenterhooks waiting for something. Have done this for over 8 years now but it gets no easier esp as people are leaving and systems change so it's makes it harder.

Did you get anymore snow? We had hail and rain again today but me and Boyce managed to miss it for once!

Mel
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That sounds really tasty I love steak. Bit of a pain in the butt giving 24/7 support means you can,t really plan anything. I used to do every 3rd wknd on call in my last job and I hated it.

Some of the positions I applied for the closing dates are until this Friday so I,m assuming I won,t hear till next week. There isn,t a lot of my type of work around this area, so I may need to move or travel a lot wait and see :confused:

We had beautiful weather this morning clear skies so I managed a good walk, but rained all afternoon, the temp has risen and that normally means snow is on its way :cool:

Wishes you were closer as I would come and cook you a good meal, can't even fedex it to you as Scotland is a mission from here!

I have done it forever but then I had a break from it and now I have a client who needs it again. Sucks as like you say daren't plan anything as it's like the universe knows :D

Hoping that something crops up to suit you, as I am sure you could do with the distraction of work.

At least you managed to get a walk in with some sunshine, I always think that's good for you especially as we get so little in winter.

How is your sleeping? Getting a few more hours?

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Sleeping is not much better I can,t seem to fall asleep before 3 am most days no matter how tired I am. I,ve given up trying as the more you try the less sleep you get. I,ve never been a great sleeper, but obviously it got worse when woody needed out during the night and now I think its all just with everything running through my head, I guess in time that will go. Getting a job would be a distraction for my brain and it would give me back some structure in my life, as I,ve always worked so not used to having so much free time, I try and go a walk everyday so that the walls don,t start closing in on me :)

I can relate. I find it difficult to switch off and Tia was exactly the same could be up 3/4 times

I still have nights where I wake up that many times, I always seem to wake up like an hour after I have fallen asleep then takes me another hour to get back to sleep! Wishes we didnt have active brains sometimes!!

It's good to force yourself out even if you don't feel like it. Did you find out any info on the dog walking or is it a bit soon?

I,ve been looking into it, and all the paperwork I would need like insurance etc so hopefully can do it later on when I get some money together.

My friend asked me today to look after Mac her westie for a few days at the end of the month, he usually goes to a petsitter,s house so I agreed to take him for 3 days, he is a lovely wee dog and I,ve been around him since he was 8 wks and he,s 5 now, she says she will pay me the going rate I said no way I,d do it for free but she insists on paying me so this could be the tester for me and if it works then I could look into doing it more often at least its extra money and I get my doggy fix, without the heartbreak. My brother has also asked if I could look after Murphy for a week in Feb if I,m not working, so they can go on holiday abroad, as they,ve not been since getting murphy 6 yrs ago again I,ve known his since he was 8 weeks so this could become my hobby for the moment :)

It sucks when you can,t switch your mind off, I,ve always been the same but at least I had Woody to keep my mind of things.

I didn't even think about insurance would make sense, nothing is simple!

I think it will be great for mac to go to someone he knows, I know you probably don't like the idea of taking the money but she would have paid the pet sitter and it will help keep some of your savings babe, that's what friends are for. Will be nice to have him around for some cuddles too.

Boyce has gone to bed, he doesn't sit up with me, I take him out he gets his biscuit then buggers off to bed! No loyalty at all :D

Ha ha Boyce is probably thinking yeah right I,m not sitting up its bedtime and I,ve lots of snores to be doing. I didn,t realise he was a staffie till I looked at his picture, I love them they are so loyal (well except at bedtime) I have one in the village and he is cute as a button and nearly knocks me over with his tail he is a rescue and is covered in scars poor soul but he is a great wee dog. Its just a shame they get such bad press up here, not sure if its the same where you are.

Tia didn't look so staffie like but she was pedigree and his sister so all stafford. She was more slight and not so much of a bruiser as him

Boyce has never grown up, he is 13 going on 8 weeks for all his life, he is such a happy guy, you just have to look at him and he wags his tail, he sometimes seems like he will take off! The amount of things he knocks over with it is ridiculous :D

Yes unfortunately they do get very bad press, he would never go for a person he just wants a cuddle. All dogs can be dangerous it's how they are brought up same as humans!

It is exactly how they are brought up, never a bad dog only a bad owner is what I say.

You better get yourself to bed its gone 11.30 you,ll never get up for work in the morning.

Good to catch up with you Mel and I hope work gets better :)