Hope you first day back goes as well as it can.
Think of us all hanging around your desk with you. Probably like little random bubbles in the air filled with supportive comments.
I can picture that but don't have the right icon:)
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Hope you first day back goes as well as it can.
Think of us all hanging around your desk with you. Probably like little random bubbles in the air filled with supportive comments.
I can picture that but don't have the right icon:)
What a wonderful image, Addy!
Thinking of you Sharlene.
Hugs,
Sus
It's an motion all roller coaster. I was fine yesterday and went back to the office. I was fine today and then the call came. Molly was ready to come home one final time. That was the end of fine for awhile. I got up and walked outside. Luckily this afternoon got busy Nd then it was time to go pick her up. I did so. Got through that, came home and fell asleep till 7:30. Just could t deal with being awake so slept.
I suppose there will be many days that are up and down. Sigh. Don't like this at all.
Just sleep, Sharlene...I think it's the body's way of giving our minds a place to rest. A place where they are not gone; a place where we don't have to KNOW; a place where they still ARE.
I still go there...I am a frequent guest...
dear Sharlene
You need to be kind with yourself and Daniel. It comes in waves and you never know when it will hit. Go with it. Because you loved sweet Molly so much it is only natural to feel this roller coaster of emotions. She was and is your baby and will always be your baby. Grief is awful. You can't think straight, you cry for no reason, you are so tired , your don not know how to get through a day, a minute and second. We are here for you to comfort, support you, give you viral hugs.
Love Sonja , Apollo
On my dear Sharlene. Doing the right thing for our precious babies does not make it hurt less. It hurts like hell and tears your heart out. The sacrifice is made out of love. I believe that there is no greater love. I had a plan in place for Buddy. I knew he was on borrowed time and every minute was precious. Making the plan was easy. Carrying it out was torture. The emotional rollercoaster is a ride that we all eventually end up having to take. I can't take your pain away. I can't make it any easier for you and Daniel. Just know without a doubt, that you aren't alone. You have all of us and we do understand and will hold your hand for as long as you want us to.
Addy mentioned all of us hanging with you at the office like little thought bubbles. I would be much more intrusive than that. I am like an inquisitive child and would be playing with all your trinkets on your desk and driving you nuts with multiple questions. ;):D. xxxxoooo
I know that day. It still sits in my gut, ready to peek out at the least provocation. I go thru it all over again. When Connie came around the corner with that white box in her hand, when she put that white box in my hands, watching my hand open it, seeing that blue velvet bag inside carefully packed, and realizing that was my Sweet Bebe. Not being able to breath. Next thing I remember is sitting in my truck in the clinic parking lot, my head on the steering wheel, sobbing while my hand rested on that white box sitting in the passenger seat where she always did. After that, things just happened and I'm sure I participated but I can't recall.
I still have that white box and the packing inside but Squirt's ashes are now in the beautiful urn Terry and Peter made for her, inside the shrine where she wanted to be. I can see her there every nite when I go to bed and every morning when I wake up and that brings me comfort today.
This does ease and we do find ways to make peace with this immense loss; we find the things that bring us a bit of peace and comfort and cling to them, developing them. And that becomes a sort of ceremony honoring our precious babies, a way to continue expressing our love.
For now, grieve, Sharlene, grieve as you need for as long as you need. There are no rules. We will be with you always.
I remember driving to pick her up, but nothing after...I have completely blocked that day from my memory. She was in my bedroom for months, and then I brought her down to our family room where she could be with all of us, just where she always was before and where I think she wanted to be.
((((((((hugs)))))))))❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
I am so sorry to hear about Molly.
Sharlene, belated hugs.
I just read of your loss of Molly and am so sorry for all you're going through. I still remember the ache of the quiet house after losing my guinea pigs. And I still know how much I cried after losing Lucy, who was my heart cat. Our Gizmo came to us at ten, but his zest for life was sorely missed after he died. Yes, grief is a roller coaster. And even when the roller coaster finally stops, life will be different. How can it be otherwise when one's heart is broken from losing a best friend?
I'm sorry for your loss Sharlene. :(
Molly is now in Doggy Heaven.
Peace and comfort.
-Mike
Hey Sharlene, just popping in to tell you we love you!
Just wanted to send you and Daniel hugs and a-r-o-o-s from Abbie and me!
Sending loving thoughts.
Sonja and Apollo
Thank you everyone :)
We have just been taking it easy and getting past the silence of the house. Finding out new normal. I think we will just always miss our molly as she was a special girl to us.
I got a note from the veterinary hospital today that my vet had made a donation to the pet trust for research to benefit pet health in mollys name. That was so sweet.
We had cards from a couple of our vets too this past week. I do okay until I have to face the "she is gone" factor.
Daniel saying how long do we wait to get another puppy, I miss a puppy in the house, just killed me. I thought it would be him that would be saying no and me begging to fill the silence. Instead it is me, saying i can't discuss this now, we will get one when we are ready. Nothing is every really the way you think it will be.
Molly is home and yet I don't know if I am comforted or not. I really don't know what I am when it comes to everything.
I know one thing. Cushings doesn't scare me near as bad as kidney disease does. I can talk about cushings till the cows come home as they say but mention kidneys and it's terrifying to me.
love you all and thank you so much for the support and love.
What a lovely thing for the vet to do, and when the time is right a pooch will appear.
Hugs from Henry and I xx
Daniel saying how long do we wait to get another puppy, I miss a puppy in the house, just killed me
I told you...any man who could love a dog as much as he loved Molly, would need to open his heart to another.
Yes you where right in that Joan :) Daniel is a guy who needs an animal in his life and even though he (in his words) "wasn't a dog guy" he sure proved himself wrong with molly. She was his special baby and they had little special times just for them. She knew when he drove up and was at the door to meet him, then would jump on his lap to share tiny pieces of a treat, every single day. His is the only lap she was ever willing to jump onto. She come trotting over into my lap if she thought there was food to be had, but for him she would snuggle and actually stay for awhile. Looking back through pictures throughout the years there are tons of him and her crashing together on the couch for a nap. (not a dog guy my foot!) LOLOL
We won't consider anything until after the kids and the cats and baby are into their own home. It would be too much to bring a new puppy/dog, whatever into that sort of crazy life right from the get go. Like with cushing meds, slow is the better option. For all of us. :)
In addition to all of that, I know that it isn't, I want a puppy or I want a dog in the house. The problem is not wanting a dog it is that in fact, like all of us who have lost a dog for any reason, we want That dog back. Not another. That feeling has to subside before even considering anything further. We can't have That dog, it isn't possible and that is something we have to come to terms with I think first. At least I am sure that is what it is in our case. Each of us is different. It took me a year to find molly after tasha passed.
Or you could be blindsided like I was....
There is that. LOLQuote:
Originally Posted by Joan2517
Absolutely true Sharlene. I still want THAT dog back, and I have another. The problem is, she is not him. Adorable yes, but NOT HIM!:o
Quote:
Originally Posted by molly muffin
So very true :(Quote:
Originally Posted by Budster's Mom
they each have their own place in our hearts, but some have the larger share
[So very true :(
they each have their own place in our hearts, but some have the larger share]
I agree....and thank you for helping me feel a little less guilty.
I guess like persons, they have their own special individual traits and personalities. And, for sure, I would never attempt to "replace" an earlier dog. Sometimes there are those dogs that come along and for whatever reason they burrow a tad further down into our hearts and souls. I just need to remember how very lucky I was to have one, maybe two of those very, very special ones.
For now there is Bailey and she is special in her own unique ways. I feel very lucky to have her. She is full of love and joy and hi-jinks. But it is very different from how I experienced Palmer, and before him, Peaches.
You sound like you are doing very well Sharlene. I loved your comment about Koko needing his own bowl and I heartily agree and second that!
Love,
Sus
All the posts express my thoughts for you. Prayers and thoughts to you as you recover.
Thank you all.
I'd say I'm maintaining. :)
Luckily the kids move is keeping me so busy there isn't any real time to think about myself and how I feel about anything. Not numb, just not focused on it. If that makes sense.
On top of that we've had an acquisition at work that is also keeping me really busy. Then add on the holidays coming and I'm on the social committee so have several events either already on the go, or need to be planned soon, and boy, it feels crazy around here. My table is covered with decorations for a work function this week and I have so many lists that I need a list of the lists!!!
I think we'll revisit the another dog in our lives issue next year. After the cats and kids are in their own place and after winter. I've looked at the rescue site and there are so many adorable dogs in need of a home that I know that is the route we will eventually go when we are ready for that.
In the mean time, I've told friends that after the cats are in their home, that I'll be available for pupsitting duties. :) Baby steps. :)
Sounds like you have a lot on your plate as usual this time of year! They will be good for keeping your mind occupied, no question. Don't forget to take a little bit of time for you in the midst of all your upcoming activity. ;) Enjoy as much as you can, laugh often.
btw - puppysitting is nice! :)
We got a card from the IMS at the emergency hopsital that molly went to so frequently, this week. It was signed by all the staff that took care of her and they wrote of how they will miss her so much. That made me cry too.
Then the next day I got a letter of a donation to a pet fund that the hospital supports. It does so much good for owners and pets. They made a donation in mollys name.
Gawd this sucks so much.
She made such an impact on our lives. She literally changed our lives. When I think of all my friend in the neighborhood, good friends, I met them all because of molly and our daily, 3 times a day walks. Now I don't see everyone every day as I use to.
One set of neighbors said they thought we must be on vacation and then were just so sad when told molly wasn't with us any longer. They all stopped and said hello to her almost every single day.
She brought them into our lives and we would have missed so much in this wonderful neighborhood if not for her.
gads, I come here and I cry. It sucks. Yet where else could I possible talk about her and have people who understand.
Totally understand.:o We miss our spunky little diva too!
Yes...where else can we go but here...
When my vet's team mailed a card with all their signatures on it after Bobo's brother passed - I fell apart - it meant so much to know that they cared for Sparkey and me. Knowing that you can share your loss with your neighbors must be such a blessing. I can't tell you the pain will pass quickly, and it is the little things that bring on the tears. But, I can tell you that those same little remembrances will eventually bring a tear and a huge smile remembering your "baby. " We're here for you. Your love will see you through.
I guess I was such a witch at the end, not one of the vets sent me a card. His 9 year vet of course I called her up on wrong testing, so got my money back from her and the vet college, so.... that would be a reason, 2nd vet had to read his book on how to give the acth test, I ended up telling him how to do it and to keep the serum.. so.... that could be a reason, 3rd vet though surprised me that I got nothing when I called to tell them. Only card I got was from Gateway when I picked up "mah boy." - and Oakville only saw him once, so they wouldn't even know. Wonder if there are cards you can buy that say "Thanks" for not sending a card..... nah just kidding. Coming up 17 years since puppers was born and 2 years since he died. Miss him just as much as the day he passed.... I really believe that you can die of a broken heart...wouldn't surprise me at all if I did. You have great strength Sharlene, you've already shown it in you postings to others since Molly left us.... but I know how the other moments are too. They catch you when you least expect it. She was loved and you were the best mommy any pup could have. Hope you take comfort knowing you did everything humanly possible and if only love could keep them young and healthy, we'd have them forever.
Thanks Judi. yea it's those blasted moments. :) They just come out of nowhere and knock you for a loop.
At least I am staying so busy that I don't have too much time to think about it. Maybe why the moments seems almost unexpected when they do hit.
Dear Sharlene,
It hits you out of no where, any time, any thing can set you off. Just let it out. We all miss Molly so much . Beautiful, spunky Molly.
There is no easy way around the feelings. We are here to love, support you through this.
Love Sonja, Apollo
I'm so very sorry for your loss of Molly. I am sorry to say I know how you feel. I hope it gets better for you too. My hurt is fresh as I'm sure yours is also and words are comforting. I wish you happiness when you recall your precious memories of Molly. May they sustain you through your grief.
Janet
Dear Janet, thank you for your kind words. I wish the same for you. I know your pain is just awful right now. Sending you big hugs.
You know when life and things got to me, it was always molly that I turned to. A walk out of the house, meeting up with other dog walkers to share funny stories about our beloved dogs and let them have play time together was just the thing to get me out of my head and relieve the days stresses.
I don't have that now and I wonder if the anger part of grieving is just kicking in late or if I just need something else to get me to relax. I don't know.
It is like you have to learn all new coping mechanisms for life.
I admit that things are getting to me that shouldn't. I need to find a way to let it all roll off my shoulders and just enjoy the important little things. Talking a walk on my own doesn't seem to do the trick, as it gives me more time to think things I don't want to be thinking about and need to in fact get away from. UGH This sucks.
On top of having a house full of people that I am working every day and then coming home to make meals for, clean up daily, shop for, my MIL has told us that she will be here the first part of December. Permanently. My first response was Here? In the house? With all of us? No room!!! Literally no more room.
But no, she is going to move into the retirement village a few streets over from us until she gets an apartment. But she is shipping some furniture that she can't leave behind to our place. NO ROOM!!! but alas will have to find some room.
The cats are still fighting for some awful reason. 10 years those two cats have lived together just fine but come to our house and it is hissing and carrying on every single day.
I seriously just want to give up. The only reason I was able to grab some computer time tonight was because no one is home for once, for the first time in weeks (?) at least weeks. I don't expect it to last much more than a few minutes more, but it is still precious to be able to come here and say hello and shed more than few tears over the passing of dear loved ones.
Hugs to all. What doesn't kill me makes me stronger right?
Hello back to you, Sharlene! I wish I had some words of wisdom but just want you to know that we are always here for you even if you are pulled away (and in so many different directions!). I can't imagine working all day and then coming home only to be expected to take care of a group of people. Hang in there -- this too shall pass! Miss Abbie sends a big ar-o-o-o to you!
Okay Sharlene, you are too nice! Make the freeloaders (Oops, I mean kids ;))help with meals and such. Hang in there!
I don't mind them being here. I don't know. Today is not a good day and everything just adds up sometimes.
Hubby made me a martini tonight. He knows. Lol. This weekend we have a gala charity event coming up. After a day of salsa dancing lessons. I will forget all of this for awhile. nothing stops just because I am grumpy.
I am tired of fast food. So last night I did chicken Caesar salad and tonight salmon with garlic rice and broccoli. The kids had hamburgers and fries from somewhere. So only cooked for hubby and I. Now I have to go clean kitchen. In the morning I will need to clean it again most likely. Then again tomorrow night. But I do have lobster bisque and garlic shrimp and salad for dinner tomorrow night. Will make some cheddar garlic butter biscuits I think too. Whomever is here can eat.
I'll be okay. I always am. Just you know. Sometimes you need to vent and can't Here I can whine and moan and groan.
If Molly where her we would be heading outside and she would have had some salmon with me. She loved fish. Oh. Think this is the first time I made salmon since she been gone. Just thought of that. Sigh