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That is so beautiful, Sharlene. I hope that some day your memories like this one will be something you and Daniel can hold onto and think of with joy and love.Quote:
Originally Posted by molly muffin
Many more hugs your way...
Me too Joan, me too.Quote:
Originally Posted by Joan2517
So,so, hard.:o ((((((((hugs))))))))
Well, in terms of her own self-preservation, our Diva did a good job of engineering the timing of her exit. "Won't have to deal with no stinkin' cats, mom and dad. You will have to wrangle them all on your own!" :o :o ;)Quote:
The cats and the kids are still moving in, probably mid October till their house can be moved into, they are hoping before Christmas.
In honesty, I do feel as though Peg's timing held somewhat of a blessing for her as well. She left us right before the awful heat of this summer had set in. At the end, all she could really do outside was just go sit in her soft grass. But with her black coat, she would have been miserable had she tried to venture out in the sun, and by mid-summer her grass had turned all brown and brittle. :(
At least you and Daniel will have a month to yourselves beforehand. And perhaps by mid-October, you truly will welcome the hustle and bustle. Right now it is impossible to look ahead at all. But perhaps a full house will be a good thing by then, or at least, a good thing for most of the time. I will surely hope so.
I know what you say about the deafening silence. I came to a completely empty house and by 2 days later, I couldn't get up off the floor from the completely overwhelming grief. I literally wailed and was by myself with no one to rely on . I had to remove his bowl, toys and everything that was his and put them out of sight... only because it would put me in a complete tailspin. I remember saying that I grieved more for "mah boy" then I did for my own mother and felt so guilty about that. I believe it is because they depended on us for their day to day living and in return gave us complete entertainment and love. The dependency on us is a huge factor in the grief. Sharlene, I personally dreaded this day for you... and Leslie and I wept all day for you quietly between on our Facebook. We sooo knew how you would feel, cause our heart babies are gone. Every step of the way in this process we are with you, and I'm now 21 months into this and the tears can come still unexpectedly and at inappropriate times. I never apologize for it.. it just shows how greatly they affected our lives the bond and unconditional love we had for them and they had for us. On here they said to me, minute by minute, day by day, week by week and so on. I pray for comfort for you and Daniel. When Molly returns it starts all over again, that's why I kept Keesh with me until he could go home with me again. Love you sweetie.. and everyday I know how that particular day is going to affect you. Just wish I could make it all better for you...
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Bless all of you wonderful people for being here for Sharlene. I've been hiding in the bathroom at work, crying as I read all the posts. Whiskey is the only dog I've ever had, so I have no experiences to share, but I do understand because he is truly the dog of my heart. He knows me better than I know myself. He has been there for me and my family through good times and terrible times. I know he won't be with me forever, so I can sympathize with everything you're saying about the emptiness you feel. Please take care of yourselves, and know that I too share your sorrow.
Annie
P.S. I'm picturing Miss Molly with sparkly, glittery angel wings
Sharlene,
I am so very sorry to hear about Molly's passing. I was hoping that when you wrote to me about my Bailey's recent passing that Molly would be OK. Helping our sweet pups cross over the Rainbow Bridge is such a heart wrenching thing to do. I'm still in tears on a daily basis and I know it will be awhile before things get better. The void in our house is very noticeable too. Molly like Bailey are free from their very ailing bodies and can romp and play freely now. May your wonderful memories of Molly help to heal your broken heart. With heartfelt sympathy, Lynette.
Hi Sharlene, I am sorry I am late, but I wanted you to know that I have been thinking of you and beautiful Molly. I hope you are being kind to yourself right now.
A Dogs Message from Heaven
I am sending you this message as I can see you are still having struggles with coping each day since my passing.
You may walk in darkness and your heart is broken with my absence. I haven't left you as you hold me in your heart. Please don't be sad as the light will come shinning through for you. For each day of sunshine, think of it as reminder of me beaming down on you. Be happy that I am no longer in pain from sickness. I don't want you grieving for me for long as it makes me sad to see you in so much hurt. Don't dwell on the guilt you feel for making decisions we both know you had to do and I thank you for releasing me of my sickness.
Cry if you need to, miss me if you must, but don't worry about me, I'm in a place I love.
Yesterday I talked with the Creator and he said you'd come one day. I wanted you to know this. So you see I'm happy and I am free. There's nothing to worry me. Dry your eyes and make plans to see me again. I will look for you and when you get here, you will see what a wonderful place this is.
Let me tell you what it's like here in this wonderful place. There are no clouds or dreary rain…Just lot of blue sky and sunshine casted on us from His most gracious presence. There are miles of green grassy fields and meadows of beautiful flowers.
There are no cruel humans to hurt us, just the keepers who have been specially chosen to care for us...
We all get along here large and small. Some of us had a pretty rough life while others were very spoiled. We run and play tag or chase balls. We can be lazy as we want and take long naps. The Creator checks on us each day.
I have met many of your friend’s fur kids here.
There is never a sad moment. Just so much to keep busy....We get a lot of new kids arriving daily and is fun to show them the ropes here.
We are here waiting here for you when your purpose on Earth is complete. My wish for you is to be happy for me and not sad. It will be the most happiest of reunions and I will lick away all your tears. There will be nothing but good times for ever and ever.
I will let you feel my presence if you will just have faith and allow it to happen.
When the time is right, and it will come, I want you to take in another fur kid to care for just as you cared for me and protected me from all harm and gave me the security that I needed all those years. They deserve the life I had with you. Don't think of it as replacing me but giving another the love you have inside you to bring joy to another. I felt honored to a part of your life and you gave me so much of yourself.... That will always be special.
You were my life and I will always love you for that.
I am not that far away and I will be close to you in spirit and will remain in your heart. That is the bond that connects us. Do not think of me when I was at my worst but all the great memories we shared together. I hate to see you cry. I am happy here so be glad for me.
I want to be remembered for all the silly things I did and things we did together. We had some great times together.... So cherish those memories.
So my best friend, until your task on Earth is finished, take care of yourself and help another less fortunate kid to know the love I shared with you and you will be forever rewarded. You will know when the time is right.
Love you Forever,
Your 4 legged soul-mate, Molly.
Author...Kay Faulkner
Oh, Leslie...how beautiful...and I'm crying at my desk again.
You guys are the BEST!!!! I can't think you enough for all the support in the past years and through this truly horrible ordeal.
Today is better than yesterday. I know all days won't be good or bad, they will be roller coasters of moments in time.
Through the years I've walked this path with many of you who also lost your furbabies and what I know is that no matter how many times we walk the walk together, it always brings our own pain back to us and I thank those of you who are enduring your own pain again by being there for me and molly. It's isn't nothing, it's HUGE and I'm grateful.
Yes I have been on the floor, holding her sheep skin rug, wailing too. And I likely will be again.
There is nothing that just makes it better, only time passing can make the cut less sharp and the tears flow less often.
Still thank you each and every one. It's comforting to not be on this journey as alone as it is often feels like you are when these moments in life come around.
As long as we have this forum, we have family who understands.
Sharlene, you are an amazing woman. I am in awe that you are taking the time to respond to so many others on their threads now. I'm not sure I'll have the strength to do so in similar circumstances.
More (((hugs))) your way...
Yep, I definitely second that, our Sharlene is a wonderful person!Quote:
Originally Posted by DoxieMama
And we love her!
Oh I just read about Molly. I am so terribly sorry and I know Molly was met at the Bridge by all her buddies that want to show her all the best fields to run free. She is shining brightly in the sky with all the others who watch over us always. You will always be missed sweet Molly.
Still thank you each and every one. It's comforting to not be on this journey as alone as it is often feels like you are when these moments in life come around.
As long as we have this forum, we have family who understands.
You are so right, Sharlene, t is comforting to have this family...the only good thing that came from Lena's diagnosis and then death, was having found this forum.
This is where I can come and be the nutty animal lover that everyone thinks I am, and it's perfectly normal here. I have new friends from all over the world, who feel the way I do; who can grieve and mourn for not just our own fur babies, but for all the others; and it's okay.
We can cry, scream, and grieve for as long as we need to, and not feel like we have to keep it to ourselves because others think we should be over it by now...but not here.
Here we can take as long as we need to, talk about it as much as we need to; and be there for all the rest who are going through it now, or still.
This forum has been a Godsend to me, a place I can express my grief, not just for Lee, but for all of our babies.
And it's also a place to celebrate good news for those who are having success with treatment. The fact that we can still feel that way just goes to show what a great bunch of people are on this site!
I miss her too! Such a spunky little Diva. ((((hugs))))
Yes, Sharlene is always right there first for all of us. I once asked her to adopt me, but she must have thought I was kidding. I wasn't.;)
We are stronger together. ((((Hugs))))
Dear Sharlene
Last night was a full moon and all I could say was shine bright Molly Muffin. We all grieve in our own way. Grieve in the way you need to. We are hear to hold your hand. The only thing that would make it better would be to have Molly back healthy and whole. But that is not to be. There is never enough time with these Angels. They are on loan from heaven and the imprint they leave on us is so deep, in our hearts and souls. They make us better people. It has been 4 years since Apollo died and I miss him every day.
Love Sonja,Apollo
Still holding you and Daniel in my thoughts and prayers.
Sharlene -- Shana said it perfectly. I know Abbie's time is in the not so distant future and I can only hope that I will be able to handle it with the grace and courage you have shown.Quote:
Originally Posted by DoxieMama
In it's own way it is easier to respond to others than it is to think of what myself and Daniel are going through.
I follow in the footsteps of some very awesome people on this forum who have lost their own furbabies and still are here, helping out others. If it where not for them willing to do that, then we would have no forum, no home. We HAVE to help others even after our own have gone on from this world because I cannot imagine not having this forum to come to. This home, this safe haven.
We have awesome people here and it is comforting to know how much they understand, the fear of diagnosis, the ups and downs of treatment and some day, hopefully far in the future the pain of loss.
Molly didn't pass from cushings, it was in the end, as the IMS always told me it would be, the kidneys that failed her. She was treated for cushings successfully, with the regular up and downs of dosages and ACTH tests all the time. I was told years ago, when I joined here, that often it is not the cushings but other things that occur that will be my biggest issue and those who told me that were right. Dogs get older and their bodies just like ours start to fail and things happen to those bodies that can't always be controlled and treated.
It doesn't make it any easier to bear, but it is the cycle of life I suppose.
Here I am just rambling on. I think I'm just putting my thoughts out there for the world to read. Today I am emotional and logical both. Logic unfortunately cannot cure a broken heart.
Just dropped by to tell you that we're thinking of you all.
I think it can be therapeutic to help others when we're grieving. When we lost Hamish I found it very helpful to take some of his things to the local SPCA as I knew they would help other dogs.
Oh gosh yes. I can't get rid of mollys things right now. Not her beds and stuff. I'm going to vacuum pack it I think.
I was looking at the local shelters and rescues this week to see about taking over some canned food, prescription that I know would cost them loads of money, and instead I see all the precious animals up for adoption and it just broke my heart. I do need to do that though.
Oh golly, sorry no I wasn't suggesting you should get rid of Molly's stuff. Please don't think I was.
I still have some of Hamish's toys and his favourite bed, but I took food, meds, other pills, shampoos, plus other toys, beds, towels, blankets, etc. and it did make me feel better knowing the dogs there would be more comfortable as a result.
I still can't get rid of anything of Lee's...even her meds as much as I hated having her on them. They have her name on the bottles...and it's kind of a journal of what was wrong and when.
No one will be wearing her Halloween shirt of Christmas dresses, those will be packed away with other mementos.
Sibbie has a brand new Halloween costume (2 in fact, as both grandsons wanted something different), but I will probably dress Doree in the other as she loves to get dressed up.
I still have the last batch of food I made for Squirt in the freezer, some of her meds in the cabinets tho they are long expired...I just can't throw them out yet, can't. I have taken that food out I know 50 times then end up standing there with the freezer door open, tears flowing, rubbing the package, seeing her face watching me as I made a batch. Back in the freezer it goes. I just can't....
No I didn't think you were suggesting that at all! I was just saying there where some things I can't get rid of, but some things I do need to get rid of, that can help others.
We're good, just the normal typing misunderstanding. I understood what you meant. :)
I still have Bo's newborn toy packed with his ashes in a memento box. I go to that toy and just smell it sometimes and remember the days he would shake it around and then end up sleeping on it....we gave it the name "Flat Stanley". Just brings back the great memories I have. Looking at the stars tonight knowing they are out watching over us. ((((HUGS)))) to you, Sharlene!!
Sharlene, Just wanted to say I'm thinking of you.
It's been over 3 years since Scoop passed and I still have his things.
Good. Just hated the thought that I might have upset you.Quote:
Originally Posted by molly muffin
Dear Sharlene
Now is not the time to be thinking about getting rid of Molly's things. You are right in the middle of grieving and can not think straight. It can wait. When Apollo died the only thing I could get rid of was all the medications. I put some of the medications and food aside and gave them away when I was ready. But you do not have to do it today. I was hysterically throwing all the bottles away, screaming at the top of my lungs. I went through him not eating the last week of his life, trying to get him to eat. When he was really getting ready to die. I finally gave him permission to go. After he died.I would run around the house and just fall on his beds and try to smell his scent. I was so numb I could not think straight. I still have most of Apollo's things and will get rid of a few things when I am ready. You are not ready to let go. It can wait. Let the feeling come out. Just sit with it. You just lost your little girl. You and Daniel need time to heal. Please do not feel you have to do it all now. When the time is right you will keep what you want and give the rest away. But not today. You need to shut the world out and grieve . It is too soon to do any of this.
What I am saying ,you need to grieve in your own way. You need to be kind to yourself and Daniel right now, nothing else. Do not listen to other people. Love always, from one Canadian to another.
Love Sonja and Apollo
Dear Sharlene (and Daniel),
I just now read the horrible news and I am so very sorry for the loss of sweet and lovable Molly... I remember how I would flee the house to escape the deafening silence and emptiness that surrounded me and I would go for a "walk" in my wheelchair. But once outside, I would flee back to my home because there would be nothing walking beside my wheelchair...and that was unbearable too. No matter what you do, they are not there...and that's impossible to fathom. They are part of every aspect of our life and that's so hard to deal with and to adapt to. I wish there was something I could do or say to make it easier, but I can't... all I can say is that I am thinking of you and Daniel and sending you all my love, strength and courage...
Big hugs,
Saskia and Quincy.
Dearest Sharlene,
I am so sorry - know my heart and prayers are with you two!
Terry
When they brought Lena to me that morning, they had washed her and put lotion on her. It didn't smell like her at all and I needed to breath in her scent.
The quilt I had wrapped around her when we rushed to the hospital, I told them to keep it in the oxygen tank with her. Before I left that night, I went in to kiss her and tell her I would see her in the morning and the quilt wasn't there. My mother had made that for me for my 45th birthday. They said she had peed on it and they had it in the laundry bin. I made them take it out and give it to me.
I didn't wash it for days.
The weird thing is that for weeks after she died, I smelled the lotion smell in different places...at work, walking past some stores, in the street. It could be because when they handed her to me I just buried my face in her little body and held her for hours until the vet opened and I brought her to be cremated...
I made my husband cut some of the hair off of her ears, the ears I loved to feel and kiss, and I carry those cuttings in a baggie in my pocketbook and take them out and look at them. Sometimes I open it up and feel them...my kids would say that's gross, but I couldn't care less.
I'm not getting rid of "Mollys" personal stuff. But I do have cases of food and unopened bags of treats etc that I need to take somewhere for others to use while they still good. Her blankets and toys and coats, food, water, treat bowls. Those are all here and will stay.
We have the kids moving in soon so lots to be done and will be busy with the baby and cats here too.
So lots to do and Daniel and I are just going to be focusing on each other and our lives for awhile and mourning our loss of a family member. We will get through this. Molly wasn't well. She wasn't happy she felt so bad that last week. Moments of good in a week of over all bad. I know it was right to let her go. That helps. I did the right thing by her. Always. She was our priority.
So now we just carry on and we miss her. That is all there is.
Our first weekend without her will suck. Today I have lots of errands to run as I didn't leave house except to vets for a week at least and did nothing except take care of Molly the week before. Tomorrow we are out all afternoon and night so won't have time to think.
I just read Molly's final chapter. I'm so sorry.
Thinking of you as I take a break from my marathon wash day.
Thinking of the years we spent here on the forum, thinking of all those memories!
Girly drinks when we celebrated or waited for news, everyone climbing in cars to go the vets or packing the vets waiting room,
All the laughter and tears, friends from around the world.
Here Molly lives on forever. She is known and loved by so many as are you.
A tribute to you, Sharlene, everyone here stopping by to give you virtual hugs and rembering our Diva.
Group hugs from around the world.
Sending hugs to you and Daniel today.
I hope you are able to smile today, just once. You may feel like your face is betraying Molly but that isn't the case at all - it is simply a sign of healing a teeny bit and Molly would be happy for that. But I cried for hours after the first time I smiled, feeling guilty. :o
Oh Dearest friend Sharlene,
I could not believe that here I log in today, of all days as I celebrate the life of my precious girl who sadly left us 3 years ago today, only to learn our sweet Molly has joined her on that beautiful rainbow bridge. I know that in my heart they are together now watching over us and enJOYing a new and beautiful life. Nevertheless, I feel your great pain as my very own 3 years ago. It hurts, it truly does.
Today and for the remainder of your days without Miss Molly, I am sending those very tight hugs you will need to get you through this, and always know that despite my long absence, my k9cushings babies and their mommys and daddys are ALWAYS in my heart & soul.
Love to you and your family sweet baby doll Sharlene and RIP sweet Molly girl--I LOVE YOU!
OOOOO Jeanette
Thinking of you and Daniel, and of course our little diva who is now flying free.
Buddy's personal things brought me much comfort. His stuffed friend, Froggy, which he slept with every night and kept nearby during the day, stayed on the foot of my bed (by the wall) for an entire year. His cuddle blanket was there too. As time passed, I didn't need to reach for them during the night, quite as often, but it helped for me to know that they were there. It's been over three years. I still have them nearby and pull them out, whenever I need a good cry. The rest of Buddy's treasured belongings have been inherited by Rosie. Somehow seeing her enjoy them, helps me to feel closer to him.
Keep Molly's things as long as you want or feel the need to. There is no time table for any of this. Do what you feel comfortable with. That is what Molly would want. xxxxoooo