Attila-Calcinosis cutis, starting treatment w/ Lysodren..(Attila has passed on)

a couple of videos about cyber knife

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SrbWZ0_wNE4

checking in on you and Attlia. How did this morning go?

hugs

My sweet baby boy passed on this morning. This came on suddenly the night before last when Attila started yelping in his sleep. I thought he was having a running or barking dream, but it kept going, and I saw that he was disoriented. My husband and I rushed him to the emergency room where he was put on anti-swelling meds and sedated for the night. Our trusted vet took an MRI which showed the huge (2.3 cm) brain tumor I mentioned in my previous post that had started bleeding, hence the sudden onset of symptoms. We were hoping the brain swelling would go down and we could radiate that damned tumor down to size this morning. I got a call from the vet at 5AM this morning saying that Attila was having problems breathing and his blood pressure was low and he may not have much time left. At 6AM we made the decision to set Attila free of his struggle to breathe. My husband and I were with him - he knew we were there and that he was surrounded by love. I kissed that fuzzy muzzle, and I had my hand on his heart as he passed.
I know we all ask ourselves - should I have done anything different? Our vet said that even if we decided a few months ago to get the MRI and do radiation, there were chances that it might have side effects on the rest of the brain because the tumor was so large in proportion to his little Frenchie brain. I have to trust that this was the best way for him to go.
Attila went to work with me twice this past week and made quick fans of everyone. He was happiest being around his humans. He was his usual alert, energetic, stubborn, playful, silly, sassy, loving, empathic, gentle self up to his last day.
I have never experienced grief, but it physically hurts. Attila opened my heart and he kept it massaged. He amazed me every day with his innate gifts. How lucky I was to fall in love each and every day. Although I have not been a consistent member to this forum, I can't tell you how much I have appreciated everyone being here for me and each other. It takes a village to raise our canine children, and you are all part of that village. Thank You, Laura

Laura,

I am very sorry to read about your little Attila!!! Yes the grief hurts very deep and will continue to and know we are all here for you.

To second guess is something we all have gone through, but know you did your very best for him! And he knows this! Please be kind to yourself.

(((hugs)))
Terry

Laura, my heart breaks for you. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your husband.

-Lisa

Laura--my heartfelt condolences to you and your husband. Your love for Attila was obvious to all of us and all of your decisions were based on that love.

Oh Laura, so very sorry to hear that Attila passed. I'm glad he knew you were there with him.

My sincerest condolences.

Oh Laura,

I am so terribly sorry for the loss of your sweet Attila, you are in my thoughts and prayers.

With Heartfelt Sympathy, Lori

I am so very sorry for your loss.

Dear Laura,

My heart just shattered reading about your sweet baby boy. You gave Attila a wonderful life and fought with him for as long as possible. I know he is watching over you with all the love in his heart.

Our deepest sympathies,
Leslie, Trinket, Brick, Sophie, Fox, Redd and all our Angels

I Haven't Left At All

I saw you gently weeping as you looked through photographs
You paused for just a moment at one that made you laugh.

But as you turned more pages the tears began to flow
You whispered that you missed me but I want you to know;
I softly licked those stinging tears that down your cheeks did fall
I want to help you understand I haven’t left at all.

On those days that you are overcome with sorrow, pain and grief
I rest my head upon your leg to offer some relief.
When you take our walking path I’ve seen you turn around
Because I know you surely heard my paws upon the ground.

At night while you are sleeping I snuggle at your side
You stroke my fur as you touch that place where I used to lie.
You said it’s just your heart playing tricks upon your mind
But rest assured I’m really there, my spirit’s left behind.

I know your heart is hurting; it’s like an open sore
You think my life has ended and you won’t see me anymore.
But for those of us bound tight by love, death is not the curtain call;
It’s really the eternal beginning that waits for us all.

So, dear Master, as you live your life I patiently await
For us to be together when you pass through Heaven’s gate