Confused and Overwhelmed-Diagnosed Anal Sac Carcinoma (Woody has passed)

Tracy:
I was reading your post to me and wanted to tell you I do some of the T Touch with Tipper, but she will not allow you to touch her back legs or feet. I keep trying. I hope you are getting along alright, I think of you often and how your life has changed. It very much saddens me to know you are alone again. Just know I think of you often and wish only the best for you. Blessings
Patti

Hi Tracy, sending you lots and lots of love and hugs.

I think Trish is right, it is an emotional rollercoaster and one that none of us wants to be on. :(

I hope your walk brought you some peace, it sounds so beautiful. I wish Woody was there with you too.

Thinking of you both
hugs,
Sharlene and Molly Muffin

It is a rollercoaster ride, but I think someone should stop the rollercoaster as I want off now ;) I think its really hit me now that he,s not here so I guess I,m just starting to really grieve for him. I,m keeping busy and take each day as it comes :rolleyes:

Tracy,
It is all so new for you and it SUCKS! Okay, I said what everyone else is thinking. I lost my Buddy July 2nd. I am still grieving and it's damn hard!:p Everyone grieves differently. Whatever you can find to do that brings you even a small amount of peace, do it and don't care what anyone else thinks. Sometimes I think I'm doing well and I am, until I'm not, if that makes any sense. Grief comes in waves. At least it does for me. It is not to be analyzed or judged. It is just there, so I sob and hold on to Buddy's cuddle blanket and Froggy when I need to. We love our babies so much, that our hearts break when we lose them. Please know that what you are feeling is completely normal and those of us who have lost babies, totally understand. Our angels were here 24/7 to hold my hand when I crumbled into millions of little pieces. My brain shut down. I lost my purse and didn't know where I left it. I didn't eat for several days. All the while they were here to keep me talking, so I could start to process what made no sense. We are here for you too. Please keep talking, screaming, crying, slamming doors and throwing things. It's all allowed because we've been there and yes it does SUCK! ((((HUGS))))

Tracy:
Many hugs and much love to you friend. I think Kathy did a superb job describing all of it. I feel so bad that you are grieving so. I know how you loved Woody and how dear he was to your heart. It was very evident in all you wrote about him. I miss hearing about him too. I have still not gotten over the news of his passing. You are a strong women and I give you all the credit in the world for coming right back on here after Woody passed. God Bless You Both
Patti

Kathy you hit the nail on the head, and sometimes I feel like I,m doing well and then I,m not so I get what your saying. Whilst cleaning out a cupboard yesterday i found my digital camera, totally forgot all about it, so switched it on and on the memory card is over 400 pictures of Woody all starting from the day he came home all when he was healthy and enjoying life ive now downloaded the memory card and can,t stop crying since, its bringing back memories that I had forgotten about although all good memories I,m angry really angry that he,s not here, that horrible cancer got him, he should still be here life sucks sometimes :mad:

Yes Tracy, There will be many triggers that will start a tsunami of grief, over and over again. I was very angry too, but have finally been able to move beyond that. You will too when the time is right.;) The numbness will start to fade. With that comes the reality that they are gone and are not coming back. Anger is a huge response to that painful realization. Be very patient and kind to yourself. Know that Woody wants you to be able to move on and find happiness, sharing your immense amount of love with others. You will know if and when that time occurs. When you are ready, it will just organically all fall into place. Until then, it's day by day. Sometimes even minute by minute. You can do it Tracy, even though you don't feel it right now. I don't think we ever get over losing our precious babies, we just find a way to continue without them. You will too.... Xxxxxx

Tracy, My mother left us 2 years ago and I still have those moments. Woody was a part of your family. Over time, more and more of those moments will be replaced with happy memories. I promise!

Sometimes it also take time to get through the initial shock before you start really grieving. I tend to be the one who gets it all done in the family. We planned my mother's funeral the day that she passed which SUCKED and I had been begging both of my parents to do this before either got sick.

Long story short, I didn't grieve until all was said and finished. Then it was my turn.

Tracy:
I truly hope the New Year brings you some relief. I know how you have to be feeling. None of us should have to go thru this, but life can be unfair. I pray for you every nite in hopes that you can make your way thru all this heartache. I think of you often, and the beautiful place where you live. Blessings
Patti

Hi Tracy, I hope that 2014 will be a better year for you and you will as Patti said, find some peace, find a new job, keep yourself busy and some light will shine into your life. Hopefully in a most unexpected way that can bring joy with it. Who knows what it may be, but it's a new year and anything is possible. I'm going to hold onto that hope.

hugs,
Sharlene and molly muffin