My baby doll Scoop

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Molly came home tonight. She was tired and has sunburn. We talked a bit and ate some salt water taffy and fudge that she brought home. It sounded like she had a good time. She was starting to fall asleep so we didn't get to look at the pictures. We can do that tomorrow night. I forgot to tell her about the sunflower by the corn field. Have to remember to tell her tomorrow. She also brought dad and I each a t-shirt home. Raleigh was really glad to see Molly. I bet you would have been too if you were here.
I was checking into something and now I'm upset about something else with Dr. T. Can't figure some things out as to why she did them. I wish I would have known things months ago that I know now. It pisses me off. Don't know what she was thinking. It upsets me to think these things could have helped you and I trusted her because I thought she knew what would be best. Yeah right. I'm sorry Scoop. I wish I would have known better.
Miss you and love you so much.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Another Saturday night. They are so tough thinking that Saturday was your last day you spent here at home, 7 weeks ago. I still miss you so very much.
Molly and I looked at the pictures I got printed. They make us smile if only for a bit. Then I realize you aren't here any more and I miss you. You were one special boy. You were such a good boy. You mean so much to us and we love and miss you so much. You will always have a special place in our hearts.
Dad and I were talking about you at lunch today. Dad said you were such a good looking Pug. You were very handsome. We talked about all your good qualities and how you could have been a show dog except maybe your tail wasn't quite curly enough. It was just fine to us. We loved your tail. I got out the papers from the pet store. I remembered you came with papers but I didn't remember them exactly. They showed your family tree. It was so neat to see it. You were one special boy. We were so lucky to have you in our family. I'm so sorry the time was so short. It's so nice to talk about you and how special you were but then there are times I think about you not being here and it makes me so, so sad.
Just know how much you always were and always will be loved so very much.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
Another tough weekend and tomorrow night will be even tougher. I was having a very bad night and when Molly came out of her room we started to talk about you and we talked for quite a while. That's why I'm a bit late. It felt so good to talk like that to her about you. I'm feeling a bit on edge now again but it was worse before we had our talk. I miss you so much. I just hurts. I forgot to mention I had a nice dream about you a few nights ago. I don't remember what it was about. I just remember waking up in the morning thinking I had a nice dream about you. It was calming to me and made me smile just a bit. Wish I could remember what it was about.
I want to send the AAC an email and ask them to fax Raleigh's records to Comet's vet. I am going to start to take him there instead of seeing Dr. T. I'm going to do that now so I will say goodnight. I love you my sweetheart. I miss you so much. Wish you were still here with us.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Here it is another horrible Monday night. 7 weeks ago you left us. It has been tough my sweet boy. We all miss you so very much. You are in our hearts forever and ever and we will always love you. This time of the night is so hard knowing what happened to you around this time. I hold you in my lap every Monday night around this time. I want to be close to you. I wish oh so much that you didn't have to get sick like you did. I am sorry for that. I wish it would have never happened. I miss holding you and kissing your little head and rubbing your ears.
I emailed your old vet and asked them to send Raleigh's chart to the new vet. I will be making an appointment for Raleigh for his check up and blood work. I hope that will come back OK. Did some more pictures today. Will pick them up tomorrow. They were from last summer when you first started with that horrible Cushings.
It's just about that time when I got that phone call that changed everything. You weren't here with us anymore. I miss you my sweet boy. I am holding you close to my heart. We all love you forever and will always miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs
Love you forever,
Mom

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Molly and I had some pictures to look at tonight but other than that, things have not been easy. Even the pictures were hard to look at. They were from last summer into the beginning of fall. That was when you first started with cushings. I don't know why things can't be easy for me. Everything has to be so difficult. I know it's not your fault. Sometimes I just don't know. I love you Scoop and I miss you so very much. Nothing about this past year has been easy. I feel like a failure. Just know how much you are loved and missed. Good night my sweet boy.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

Dearv
Vicki, keep writing, let the feelings out. There is no easy way to grieve. When we lose our precious angel, the one thing that kept us grounded we flounder ,grasping to make any sense it all. Wishing
I could jump in the computer and give you a big hug.
Hugs
Sonja and
Angel Apollo

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
It was a warm day today. Raleigh has been panting a lot. You know him and his black fur. Tomorrow I am taking him to see the new vet. He will get a check up and some blood work done. Please watch over Raleigh so that everything is OK. I worry that he will start having problems. Oh Scoop, I am missing you so much. I think about you all the time. Wish you were here with us. I have some kind of rash on my neck. It itches a bit. Don't have any idea what it is. Hopefully it will go away soon.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs,
Love you forever,
Mom

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Raleigh had a rough day at the vet's. He has a bit of an ear infection. It's not too bad. So he got some drops. They took blood to do a full work up. I should hear about the results tomorrow. He got his butt glands squeezed. Got his nails clipped. They also took blood to do allergy testing. That could take a week or two for those results. The vet talked about putting him on prednisone and an antihistamine or an allergy diet. I wasn't crazy about either of them. So we did the blood testing. Raleigh is also starting with cataracts. I guess that's why sometimes it seems like he isn't seeing too good. I know his hearing isn't good anymore either. I hope his blood test results are good. Watch over your little brother. I'm sure he misses you. Just like we all do.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Here it is. Another weekend getting ready to start. They are so hard on me. It makes me cry now just thinking about it. Oh how I miss you. I worry about Raleigh now too. The vet said Raleigh's blood work was pretty good. His one liver enzyme is a little high. I said to the vet that I worry about cushing's with the higher liver levels. She said it's usually associated with the other liver value. So I hope Raleigh doesn't have any problems. He needs to lose some weight. He pants a lot. I picked up pictures today and I forgot to get them out for Molly. John called me earlier and told me he has the copy of Raleigh's blood work. He picked it up at the vet's for me today when he got Comet's food. We were talking for a while and when we hung up I forgot to get the pictures out. I thought of it right after Molly went to her room. We can look at them tomorrow night. I forgot to tell you. Molly brought home some flowers for you tonight. They are sunflowers but they are already in what looks like a jar. The stems are short. There are 2 sunflowers with the dark centers, one sunflower with a light center and there is one I'm not sure if it is a sunflower or a mum that is red-orange. There are what looks like 4 green like wildflowers in the middle of the other flowers. The flowers are so sweet and beautiful. Just like you. I miss you my sweet boy. You are always in my heart and on my mind.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
Here it is another Saturday night. A tough one for me. 8 weeks ago you spent your last night at home. It is still so hard to not have you here with us anymore. We miss you so, so much. Molly and I looked a the pictures tonight. They are from last year when you first started with cushings. It makes me sad to look at those pictures. I hate that you had to get that horrible disease. I am so sorry. I wish they could find out why so many pups get cushings and how they could prevent any others from getting it. I worry so much about Raleigh now. I hope he doesn't start to have any problems of any kind. Watch over your little brother. Keep him safe and healthy. I miss you. I love you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom