Squirt - my Queen has crossed The Bridge

there is nothing i can express that has not been expressed by so many.....i hope that you know you and squirt are surrounded by so many hearts that truly love and care for you both. As you know....touch is healing...so as you speak and your heart over flows into your soul with the love for squirt you touch touch touch touch and let that flow into that sweet little body of squirts. and know that our hands are reaching out to both of you expressing our love for each of you, and prayers uplifting to both. you are the most remarkable individual, truly gifted in many ways, blessed with a heart and soul that is rare to walk the earth. love you my dear friend.

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Originally Posted by molly muffin

Leslie HUGS. I'm just bawling. Your words on Scoops thread I think has touched many of us in the deepest part of our souls. I really, for once, do not have the words to go any further. You are stronger than you'll ever know because the gift that some day you will give to Squirt will be the most heart wrenching one you can give.

love and hugs,
Sharlene

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Dear Leslie,

Sharlene could not have said how I feel any better. I also read your touching words on Scoop's thread, and am bawling too. And I too can relate to all that you said, and share your feelings. You and your precious Squirt are in my prayers. There is nothing I can say that others haven't already said. Huge hugs my dear.

Love,
Tina

Hi ya'll,

Squirt is doing pretty good the last two days. She’s eating most of her meals tho I’ve had to wake her for a few of them, which is not the norm for Miss Piggy! The kibble soup is still acceptable tho she’s developed a bit of loose stool as a result but we have good ole SEB on hand. She’s drinking more and peeing more…she’s had two accidents walking down the hall. She started leaking again today so we will start on the Proin tonite per Doc’s orders, keeping to the lowest possible dose. I had hoped she wouldn’t need it until after the liver enzymes were rechecked and I may let it slide if possible. She’s gotten some melatonin to help her rest at nite but I haven’t given the lignans and may not restart them. If she keeps eating decent, I may start the Lyso back Sun but am still debating that. I may wait until after the labs for that decision. Altho, a portion of me says the Lyso is part of keeping her comfortable.

If she’s up to it, I plan to take her out to Mark’s this evening and let her take a walk through the woods there. She has a little trail we would follow when we lived there and it always made her so happy to lead me off on an excursion. If she’s too tired or hurting too badly, we will wait til in the morning and go. I want her to be able to enjoy it as much as possible!

I keep saying thank you but I don’t know how else to express my gratitude to you. You honor my Sweet Bebe with every word and there is no greater gift you could offer me than that.

Hugs,
Leslie and Squirt

Leslie,
I admire you. You are such a good mom to your sweet girl.
I hope you two have a nice pleasant walk tonight & many more to come.

hug
Amy

Oh Leslie, I so hope you will be able to take your walk together! I know you will drink in every moment with all your heart and all your senses.

Sending more loving thoughts your way,
Marianne

Leslie,

it sounds like you have a fabulous night planned for you and Squirt :)

Have fun!

take back pack and have picnic! and if squirt gets sleepy you can nestle squirt in tote and not hurt back carrying!
somewhere....someone mentioned about giving pills in canned or homecooked foods.........and if needed to feed kibble how would they offer pills.......you can take kibble and put in blender to powder form and add water and its like canned food. If you recall who mentioned that need maybe they will read it here too.
hope your able to tote camera along and snap some pictures too!

Leslie,

I'm glad Squirt is doing fairly well. I hope you got your walk. You have a lot to consider with your little Squirt, but I have no doubt whatsoever that you will make the right decisions for her. She is so lucky to have such a wonderful mom! It's clear you always have Squirt's best interest at heart.

Thinking of you both,

Julie & Hannah

Mornin',

We did get to take a short walk last evening. There has been quite a bit of storm damage out there and her usual path was trickier than it used to be with fairly large limbs across the paths, big puddles of water and mud, even a treetop or two in the way. She started that way then turned as if she knew that sort of thing was no longer something she could tackle and started down the lane folks use to drive from place to place off-road. Our trail through the woods meets this lane at the end and we would typically then walk down it to the neighbors in the past. Last nite, we stayed on the lane which she seemed to enjoy almost as much as the woods. She wanted to run, what is actually a lopsided bunny hop these days, a few times but her shoulder wouldn't allow much of that....nor would mom! :o But she managed to hop a few feet from time to time when I got close enough that she thought I might be planning to pick her up and put an end to her adventure! :D

Not far from the point where the trail meets the lane stand a group of small bushes. Something must make its bed in those bushes because she has always stopped and thoroughly inspected this area. Last nite was no different and it made me smile through and through to see her intensity as she snuffled and poked her face in the dirt. Every now and then, she would look over her shoulder at me as if to say, "Well, why are you just standing there? Come help find this critter!" :p

The neighbors have two dogs who used to meet us on the trail and walk with us. As we wandered down the lane, Jack and Buddy came to see what was going on. They had always gotten along with Squirt just fine, playing with her, accepting her presence. Not yesterday. I knew they would have to "re-meet" since it had been a bit since they have been around each other so I picked Squirt up just to be safe and let Jack and Buddy come to us that way. Both of them reacted negatively, bristling, growling and showing teeth at her, stiffly walking around us. She wanted down so badly, whether to greet them or to teach them a lesson, I don't know but she didn't get to do either. I sent Jack and Buddy back home and when they were gone, we resumed our wandering...using the eyes in the back of my head just in case. ;)

I don't think this was a case of Jack and Buddy deciding they no longer cared for Squirt but rather a case of them sensing a weakening in the hierarchy. I am seeing the same thing at home with Sophie. I have called Squirt the Queen of Dogdom because that is how she acts and has been treated by other dogs. She has demanded to be the top dog and would not back down from her rightful place as such. She rules, period. Now others can tell she is losing her power, her ability to maintain her throne and they are moving in. I put Squirt's food bowl down and Sophie will charge her, trying to take it away from her. Two weeks ago, she wouldn't have dared such a move. :(

After our walk, we went in to visit with the family for a while. Squirt wandered through the house, checking out familiar spots, then came to the chair where I as sitting and wanted in my lap. She is not a lapdog, never has been; she's always been much too independent for that. But she lay in my lap for almost an hour, calm and relaxed. As much as I enjoy holding her like that, it also breaks my heart to see such a drastic change in her personality and needs. In the past when I would want to hold her, she wiggled and twisted to get down after just a few seconds - "that's enough of that crap, Mom!" Now I can carry her as much as I want and she is relaxed in my arms the whole time. She's always enjoyed me picking her up to let her get a different view, perspective, on the world but she always wanted down fairly soon to go check out something she had seen from up there. She still enjoys the change in perspective but no longer feels compelled to go investigate what she sees. So several times a day we stand on the porch, which is about 6' off the ground, and look out into the woods in front of the house. I watch her ears prick and her head lift as she spots something of interest and joy floods my heart...then when she doesn't fight to get down, sorrow follows swiftly. I must learn to appreciate the remaining things and not dwell on those that are lost.

She's tired this morning and did eat her breakfast, tho she refused a treat. Her legs and shoulder are bothering her a bit more this morning but it's supposed to be a sunny warm day and I plan to take her out in the yard while I do some work so maybe she will find a sunny spot and take some sun therapy for a bit.

Hugs,
Leslie and the Queen of Dogdom, always the Queen in my Heart

Leslie,
it sounds like Jack and Buddy do sense Squirt's weakness. Squirt knows it and is looking for comfort from you. Trust me, she's happy to be with you.

Daisy is less independent too and she loves to be held etc.

Sun means vitamin D and that's good :)