Confused and Overwhelmed-Diagnosed Anal Sac Carcinoma (Woody has passed)

Hi Tracy

Just wanted you to know I am online. Thinking of you

Mel
Xxxx

Hello darl

I am finally home, its nearly 11pm here and left this house at 7am. Thank you so much for sending me your messages today while I was at work I had to go into the loo when I saw them in my inbox so I could read them and shed a silent tear for you and Woody and then head back out to work some more.

I have had to go to a party straight after work, I organised it for a my favourite colleague who retired this week. But I have been thinking of you and dear Woody and raised my glass to toast your both, I said to you last night you had to be strong for him and by crikey you were Tracy, such unselfishness on your part. I had a friend who was the sober driver tonight and we just drove home right along the beach front. There was this most gorgeous orange full moon coming up over the horizon and it was 10.30 at night! I said to her oh look at that huge orange moon, that must be Woody painting the sky red for us tonight. I think she thought I had finally lost the plot until I told her about my Scottish friend who had lost her darling boy today and so we drove along looking at the beautiful moon and I was thinking how much cancer blardy sucks and how unfair this all is. RIP Woody, you were a much loved boy and your family will be missing you dreadfully. I am here for you Tracy, I so admire your strength through all this xxxxx

Thanks for your post on T's thread. I hope you are holding up as ok as you can be.

Tia liked a sunbathe too, she wasn't that great at sharing it mind so poor Woody shouldn't be surprised if she gives him a kick in the ribs to shove over, she did it to her brother all the time!

Sending you a great big hug

Mel
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Oh Mel sorry I missed you last night, I just went to bed at that time, I managed to get a little sleep, but mostly just lay in the dark with my thoughts.

I got up this morning and went into the kitchen and like every morning I shouted "Woody Tablets" only he never came running in like he used to :( He did love his heart meds as they were beef flavoured anything for food :)

My mum goes for her cancer check up today and I was supposed to take her, but I just couldn,t, I so hope its good news don,t know if I can take anymore bad news this week.:confused:

No worries, I just like you to know your not on your own if you feel like a chat.

It breaks your heart all over again, I so wish it could have been different for you both

Am sure you mum understands they love him too, praying for good news for her today babe

Xxx

Trish/Mel

Must,ve posted at the same time as you. Painting the sky red that was him making his way on his final journey I bed if you looked closely you would have seen a trial of destruction behind him. lol
I,m trying so hard to get my head round how quick this all happened, as last week he was playing throwing his toys everywhere and now he,s gone. But he wouldn,t have wanted to be sick every day I knew he wouldn,t cope with that, so he bounced into this world and my heart and he bounced back out, but he took a piece of my heart with him :(

Destruction is what is expected from a JR Terrier

It's such a shock I am sure, so hard to get your head around all the things they were discussing to this point.

You did the right thing by him Tracy, I know you are now suffering but you did that so he didn't have to.

I am hosting a meeting now but I will be in and out throughout the day x

Well there has been a bit of hail so that might be his trail of destruction. I know I think the speed of this has shocked us all Tracy, so fast. In some ways that is good, good for Woody that he did not have to struggle for long, bad for you as you do not have so much time to prepare. I hate that this has happened and I still do not know what way is better. Personally I don't think there is a better way as you still end up hurting in the end.

I was so pleased it was Ian with you, I loved his caring ways and he sounds like he was so upset too. I think Woody will live long in your vets minds as a puzzle, he confounded them all.

I hope your Mum gets a good report today xxxx

Yeah I,m glad Ian was there, he was in bits, and couldn,t believe had fast this had happened. He told me during the afternoon that Woody was the 12th patient with an Neuroendocrine Tumour in the whole of the UK this year so its pretty rare. I spoke with Craig yesterday as I,ve known him for 15 plus years, to ask his advice and he said he would do the same although you know your making the right decision its always good to have it confirmed.

I have to say the hospital were wonderful yesterday, the had set aside a room for us with access to the grounds outside for a walk and got me sweet tea when it was over. They will deal with everything save me doing, his ashes, cancelling the insurance and anything else I need. So all I need to deal with is his stuff and the big empty hole he has left in my life.

And that should be all you have to cope with right now. Your pet hospital is awesome taking care of that for you, big ups to them. Craig has been great too, so reassuring to speak with those you trust to make sure you are doing the right thing. I am so glad they were there for you Tracy. Must have been some horrible conversations you have had.

Did you actually sleep last night, have you eaten... sorry but I have to get the practicalities out the way... ask Kathy, I am the food police at a time like this! xx