My Bestest Boy

HUGS from me too Marianne.
Sharlene and Molly Muffin

Hello my sweet Barky Boy. It has been such a long time since I last wrote to you, but you are never forgotten. At the beginning, I used to write so often. It helped me with the hurting. But as the years passed, the written words fell away and I have instead felt close to you in many different ways.

But today I feel like writing again. That is because I have a favor to ask, and that is for you to begin to especially watch over your little (well, big :o) sister Peg. It was just about this time ten years ago that I started to see the changes in you that ended up taking you away from us. That was such a hard summer, and oh, how our hearts were broken that August. But little did we know that August morning that little baby Peg was already growing and just waiting to be born. Just waiting to come to us and heal our broken hearts. It seems like only yesterday she was just a tiny thing, with the sweetest face and the biggest paws. She looked just like a little black bear cub. I think she still sensed the presence of your spirit when she first came to us, and she felt protected and safe. I will never forget her snuggling her tiny self in the middle of your big dog bed that first evening. She knew you were watching over her, and you were glad there was joy and new life in our home.

But where has the time gone??? Baby Peg is now nearly ten years old, and her muzzle and chest grow gray. She gave us a bit of a scare again this week, as she was acting ill. I think she is OK. But I know she is now of an age when she needs you to start watching out for her again. And watching out for us, too. Because we will be needing your help more and more. Me, especially. Please help me to be better and stronger for Peg than I was able to be for you. I know if you are helping me, I can do better. Surely I can.

This is the thing, though, it is going to be so hard for me. Because when the time comes for Peg to join you, I will feel as though I am losing a last link to you, too. You and Peg share your own sweet circle. So I know she will always be safe with you. But my boy, it will be so very hard for me when she leaves us to rejoin you. Hopefully that day will be far in the future. But in my heart, I know it cannot be as far away as I would wish. I am already starting to worry and that is why I need your help. My worrying makes things so much harder for us all.

But for now, go and enjoy this beautiful spring day, my sweet boy. I'll bet you are over running in the field with all the buttercups right now. We'll watch for you in the morning, me and the girls. Come and run beside us then, if you have a mind to, OK? That will make the sunshine even brighter and the buttercups even more beautiful.

I love you, my sweet boy. And always will.

I understand now, dear Marianne and send even more hugs and more love.

So beautiful Marianne. I understand oh so well!:o

Sending you much love and tight hugs,

Kathy

Sending you big hugs Marianne. I am positive he is watching over you and Peg.

Sharlene and molly muffin

Tears rolled down my face as I read your beautiful tribute to sweet Barkis. Tons of huge and loving hugs being sent your way.

Big ((((hugs)))) to you!!!!
T.

I read this yesterday and couldn't see for the tears to reply. That circle you speak of that Barkis and Peg share - a circle takes at least 3 points, otherwise it is a line between two points, a path back and forth between the two. You are right about the circle, tho...you simply left yourself out of the equation. You are the anchoring point for Barkis and Peg's circle, you created that circle where none existed before. Their circle is not complete without you, dear Marianne, and the love you all share will continue to flow round and round and round for all time.

There is no question your Bestest Boy is watching over you all...and always will.
Hugs,
Leslie

Dear Marianne, what a lovely post to your precious boy. I am sitting here with tears also, as I understand so completely about the circle. I know he is watching over you and Peg, that will always continue.

Lots of love and big hugs,
Tina

Tears are running down my face as I so understand what you have written. He is watching over you.
Hugs Sonja and Angel Apollo