Zoe By My Side- Our Journey with Cushings

Addy:
Just thinking of you, and Koko, and your hubby. I don't know how you are doing it, but you are very brave going to work. I am sure Zoe is looking down and proud of her courageous mom. Blessings
Patti

Dear Addy
How cute. Maybe Zoe is guiding Koko. Anything is possible.
Sending you love and support.
Hugs Sonja and Angel Apollo
When Zoe died I felt like something was missing, even though I never met her, every time I see a Lhasa Apso, my heart skips an extra beat.

So happy you felt Zoe's presence with you and she gave you comfort. I agree with Val...I think Koko had a visit as well. What a sweet thought.

Barbara

Hey you

Sorry I haven't been about the last couple of days things went wrong on a system earlier in the week and they neglected to tell me so it was a scramble to get it fixed!

I read about Koko and his puzzle, how cool is that, I am sure they sense and know a lot more than we give them credit for.

I hope you and Hubby are ok and hanging in there as best you can.

Big hug

Mel
Xxxxxx

We knew today would be hard. We finished our chores then drove across town to our favorite little french bistro. We have not been there in a long, long time. We had lunch (crab cakes benedict) which we could not finish and ordered bean soup to go so we have dinner and we stopped to purchase a fresh baquette on the way home to go with the white bean soup.

Koko seemed a bit freaked out locked up in the kitchen while we were gone today. It seems to bother him more when I am home or the one locking him up rather than hubby. He is such a mama boy.:rolleyes: I worry about his seperation anxiety coming back.

I looked around the restaurant and told hubby he and I look like the walking wounded. :( We both look so tired and drawn.

We are to get 4" of snow later today so we are glad we were able to get out for awhile before the bad weather comes again. At least it is not below zero today.:):):)

Love you all

Loved reading about Koko solving the puzzle! It is his time to shine. Zoe passed him the torch and will now be watching over him.

Sending hugs to all of you.

Grief is strange. When my daughter died a friend, who had also lost her daughter several years prior, told me that the third year had been the hardest of all for her. I thought then how deep her grief must have been to find that the worst time was so long after her child had left. I couldn't imagine anything feeling worse than that immediate sense of loss. But she was right. The third year was very tough for me. Perhaps because those first two I was in some other place. Squirt's diagnosis brought me back to real life, it woke me up and I had to face reality, turn away from the deep burning pain that had been my only, all-consuming truth. I had to face the fact that my child was truly gone and all that meant. I made it through that year and thought - ok, the worst is over. It wasn't. Not by a long shot. The fifth year was pure hell. I once again found myself reaching for the phone to call Gia and tell or ask her something - then remembering all over again. And every time I remembered, I was transported back to those very first raw gasping hours.

Zoe is your child, your daughter. We never stop hurting from a loss like this, it never goes away and stays away. We have good times then find we are torn to bits again over the least little things. But that is how it should be. It is an expression of the love we still carry and will always carry. It is our Sacred prayer to them and for them. It is a way of honoring all that was. Our tears carry as much love as the smiles and laughter that come with memories carry.

Many hugs to you and hubby,
Leslie and the gang

Now it's time for Koko to shine. I'm thrilled that he has stepped up to the plate. Go Koko!

Much love to all,
Kathy

Addy:
Thinking and praying for you, your hubby, and dear Koko. Blessings
Patti

Hi Addy

Just had to pop in before I go to bed to wish you Happy Spring!! We are two days into Autumn and I cannot believe how cold it is tonight, tempted to put the heater on but I refuse to let go of summer this soon!! So if we are Autumn you must be Spring, can you see any flowers yet? I hope it will warm up for you soon. Wow you had a visit from Zoe, I knew that wee girl would find a way to show you she is alright. Sending a hug to you for the morning, have a good day at work xxxxx