Zoe By My Side- Our Journey with Cushings

PT said I was so tense I was clutching my left hand into a fist and my knuckles were turning white while she worked my bad shoulder.:o:o I guess I am a bit stressed.:(

Hubby said Koko ran to the bedroom by himself for nap time. So the tradition continues for hubby.

Hubby said it is now Koko's turn to become a swan or as Marianne suggests- a rose.

I know each day will get easier. A roller coaster of emotions. So up and down. Tomorrow it will already be a week since she died. I cannot comprehend that fact.

Song- Zoe did give me a gift before she died. That morning and then again in the ER later that day.

I think lunch is over. I am worried about Jasper. I hope he is ok when Tina gets home.

Addy:
Take care, I am thinking of you and hoping this can somehow get easier for you.
Blessings
Patti

How sweet Koko is doing that, he must know his daddy needs snuggles.

It seems so long but short, it's such a strange feeling. I don't think the intensity of the pain ever goes away but you learn to cope with it a bit more each day.

I think writing to Tia in her thread helped me as it felt like I was talking to her and still connected.

I hope your shoulder doesn't feel too sore after p/t.

Gentle hug to you

Mel
Xxxx

Ouch Addy!
Sounds so painful. Do hot showers help?

Koko knows that dad needs snuggles. It's truly amazing what they sense.
Anyone who truly believes that animals don't have emotions is clueless.

I think that you're doing wonderfully Addy. I know how much you miss Zoe, but you are talking, grieving, doing all that you need to. It's part of the healing process. Hugs.

That is super sweet of Koko to run in for nap time. I bet that made your hubby smile. They sure are smart and sensitive when they want to be :)

Yep, a nice long hot bath/soak sounds just the thing. Have to keep that shoulder from freezing up, even with all the tension you're going through right now.

I love that song Marianne.

love
Sharlene

You will all think I have lost it and am crazy- but she is here with me. I feel her presence so strongly as soon as I walked in the door. First in the kitchen and then in the living room.

I honestly feel her here with me tonight. I'm not crazy, really. Wait I think she left. Something has changed. Her spirit- maybe she was cremated today.

I can't explain it. My father came to me in my sleep last night but not Zoe. Her spirit has been released from somewhere today. I know it.

you are not crazy in the least. Zoe was there and what you are feeling is normal.
For me , one of Apollo's music boxes started playing on it's own. Be open to the signs.
Hugs Sonja and Angel Apollo

That is very special Addy to have that feeling that Zoe was with you.

We don't think you're crazy. :) I think anyhow, that if you are so lucky to have that special presence and be able to feel it, recognize it, then you have been blessed with a special gift.
They say it comes when you need it the most. Maybe today was the day you needed it, was ready to feel it, the most.

love
Sharlene

She popped in to make sure that Koko was taking care of you.
Now that she knows that you're going to be ok, she feels safe to cross over completely. Xoxo

I am so sorry for your loss. What a blessing to have Coco to comfort you and carry on the tradition. They know don't they? How to comfort us when we need it. Prayers for God's peace for you and your family.