Beloved Zoe

Thank you for celebrating and honoring my precious little darling.

The impact this small wonder had on me will be with me forever. How is it possible it has been a year? I miss her every day. I try to ignore the pain. Distractions help.

My Zoe, mama will always hold you close to my heart, will always love and remember you and the short life we had together. My only true love in a lifetime. Zoe, my face at the door that is no more, my joy that has been tempered now, my laughter quieted to soft giggles.
I love you so and always will.

Dear Addy,

Thinking of you and your darling Zoe often and always will.
It was such pure love that was shared between you and your precious Zoe and your devotion to Zoe was second to none. For that I know it hurts that much more thinking about Zoe but I'm very proud of you and Koko for how far you two have come without Zoe.
Your darling Zoe will always be in our hearts and will always be the brightest star in the sky. Big hugs.

All those visions of our feisty bossy little sweetie Zoe come flooding back as I sit here remember her funny stories and antics, I cannot think of Zoe without smiling as she had a knack of making you think "You GO Girl!" :D Loved her spunk and attitude of meeting life full on, her face may not be at your door Ads but her memory and love for you burns in a huge bright shiny presence that I don't think is every going to fade. Standing beside you as we remember her today, if I was with you I would have to insist we raise our glasses to toast her, as I think she would like that... (especially if it was a creamy drink and she got to lick it!!) xxxxxxxx

Oh Addy, I, too, am joining in with the others in honoring sweet Zoe. The sad feeling of their loss remains even though another year has passed, and our love for them along with the memories will never change.

I raise my glass to toast our most precious girl, Zoe.

In loving memory of dear Zoe, always.

Love and hugs, Lori

Dear Addy,

Joining you today in remembering your darling Zoe. It is a sad month for many of us and I will be thinking of you today.

Linda x

Our precious Zoe, you will always be remembered and cherished.

Addy, my tears fall with yours, dear, during this most difficult time.
Hugs,
Leslie

Joining in with the others in remembering sweet Zoe, it is a sad day, but you are doing good Addy

Dearest Addy,

I'll be holding your hand all weekend. I hope you're able to get something done with only one hand. ;):D

Yes, we miss her too!

Thinking of you and Zoe. Know that zoe is looking down thanking her lucky stars that you were here mum in the time she had here.

Dear Addy,

Stopping in to let you know that I have been thinking about you and beloved Zoe, and my heart is with you during this difficult time. I too have so many happy memories of her, and I think about her and her cute ways quite often. She was a special gift and we all miss her.

Big hugs from me and Jasper xo

Dearest Family,

Thank you so much for celebrating my beautiful little girl. You have all touched me deeply. I find that his one year mark has been much harder for me than I thought and words are not coming very easily to me. Life has been throwing me many curve balls since I lost my darling Zoe, I find right now, I just can't speak.

Thank you all for your unconditional support. Our family here continues to amaze me. Your kindness and support are unwavering.

When I feel like I can again join the conversations, I truly will.

Right now, I cant.
Love you all and thank you.

Remembering your sweet girl Zoe.
Hugs to you Addy.

Dearest Addy,

We completely understand, and you take all the time you need. Sending huge and loving hugs your way.

Addy, I've just come from reading a reply written by our dear Leslie, and was struck anew by these beautiful words that accompany all her writings here:

"May you know that absence is full of tender presence and that nothing is ever lost or forgotten." Anne, a Corgi mom

I thank Anne for writing these words and I thank Leslie for sharing them. Somehow they seem especially suited to this week of honor for both Zoe and Queen Squirt. We know that Zoe is forever present in your mind and your heart, tucked safely into corners that she has claimed and that belong to her and her alone. And Addy, you are always present with us, too, even in the absence of written words. You do not forget us, and we do not forget you. Words are always appreciated when they come. But they are not essential when connections run as deeply as they do among our family members here. You take care of yourself, Addy, and write if and when it is a comfort to you. In the meantime, we know you are never far from us.

Marianne

Dearest Addy,

You and your sweet Zoe will always be a part of us here. Keep well and take the needed time.

((((hugs))))
Terry

{{{{Addy}}}}
love

Oh Sweetie,

We're chatted before about certain things that are difficult, if not downright impossible for us to do right now. We feel yours, Zoe's and Koko's presence whether you are currently posting or not.

Surrounding you with love and care,
Kathy

Hi Addy-

I know it's especially rough now. I remember all too well. It's hard to believe it could have been one year but just think of all the fun your Dad and Zoe are having together.

As we were returning home the other evening, as we passed just under a street light, it went out. If you remember back I shared how it came to be that I think that's Mom just checkin' in to let me know she's still around....and she knows all that goes on. I find great comfort in thinking that our special ones, both two legged and four legged, are still "with us." Zoe was a very special little gal. We all miss her.

Love,
Sus

I have been out celebrating my birthday, have been thinking of you tonight Addy, I am home and playing music and want to share with you my favourite song of the moment!! Weirdly, this song seems to be on the radio the last couple of times when we have left the IMS... so I have dubbed it Flynn and my song LOL... but I think it think it matches you and Zoe too! So wanted to share! Hope you do not think it too sad.. but they belong with us on this side or the other side of the rainbow bridge... love this song and sending big hugs to you tonight!! xxxx

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zvCBSSwgtg4

Dearest Addy,

I very much understand the need to take a break...I have felt it, too. I have been thinking about you and wondering how you managed on the first anniversary of losing sweet Zoe. I cannot believe it has been a year already since we lost our girls. The anniversary was much harder than I anticipated, and I am sorry you are experiencing the same.

We are fortunate that we had our girls in our lives for the time that we did. Even though our hearts have been broken.

Take care, dear friend.

Dearest Zoe-

Your little friend Bella is in surgery today. Please watch over her, ok? Remember how you loved to correct her behavior on your play dates? We are all waiting to hear if the cancer spread or if it is only in her spleen. I keep seeing the two of you playing together, running round and round the kitchen and living room in my mind’s eye. You supposedly were the same age but Bella always seemed younger. How you loved those play dates, baby girl.

Loving you and thinking of you so.

Dearest Family, words still do not come and I am ill again. Thank you for thinking of us.

all my love,
addy

Holding you all in my thoughts, prayers, and heart, Addy.

Aww Addy. I hope that Zoe's playmate Bella will be okay.

You take care of you! My friend had recurring bouts of bronchitis since before Christmas till just recently.

Sending you tons of love and strength

Thank you, Bella is home recovering, they did not see any more tumors or cancer. I hope she will be ok. I have been worried about her for awhile, something was not right. I mentioned it once or twice but really could not say any more without offending.

Dr. says I have bronchitis and wants me on 20mgs prednisone for 5 days.
Not sure I should take it. She said it is viral and since I cant take codeine she has nothing left to give me.

Not sure I should take it, I went down this road last Fall with the asthma drugs and it caused me nothing but trouble.

IDK:rolleyes::o:confused:

Oh Addy, good news about Bella, but not-so-good news about our Addy! :o

As far as the pred, have you taken it before with bad results? There can definitely be side effects as we all know, but sometimes the anti-inflammatory action it supplies really does help enormously. Perhaps you could give it a try since you can always stop taking it if you don't like how it makes you feel?

Sending healing hugs your way!

Thanks Marianne, you are right I can just stop it. Last time I took that small dose was about 7 years ago and I was fine. I have just been overdosed on pred and other asthma drugs, I get scared unless I have a reassuring doctor.
I'll take you though for reassurance if I may:)

I used to take Zoe's pred when my sinus headaches were awful but that was only 5 to 10 mgs. Shhh don't tell anyone I did that:rolleyes::o

I have to do something, I can't sleep because I make these strange crackling squeaky noises when I try to sleep n then have a huge coughing fit I literally choke and throw up phlegm.

I have to try something.

Bronchitis is horrible. Impossible to get a good nights sleep, coughing non stop. I'd give a small dose of pred a try, just for a little while and see if it at least helps you. I agree with Marianne. If it doesn't work, stop it or if you feel bad while on it.

I'm glad Bella is doing so well. Your turn!!

hugs

Well I just swallowed the dang pill, hopefully I wont have the heart palpitations like I did last year from the Asthmanex inhaler. I read sometimes you can even take a short 3 day course. My ribs hurt so bad from coughing and my ears hurt really bad.

Hopefully it will help without making me crazy.

I need a hand icon for you to hold:);)

Oh good luck, Addy!!! Will this work in place of an icon?? :p :) :) :)

We're all here rooting for you! (Hoping you can click on the "thumbnail" below)

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Addy, you don't have to take the whole 20mg either. Start with 5mg and see if that gives you enough relief without causing additional problems.

I have some recipes using food items for a soup and chest poultice if you are interested. They can help open the airways and move the excess fluids...and since they are made of onions and garlic and other such things, they smell rather strong, which is one of their methods of working. Onion has antibacterial properties, garlic has antimicrobial properties- both lose effectiveness when heated. If you like ginger, get some ginger root from the grocery and use it liberally - eat it raw in salads and such or just nibble on it, use it to make tea, add it to soups, etc. Ginger helps with blood flow, warming, and has some pretty good anti-inflammatory properties.

Hope you feel better soon, sweetie. I am very glad Bella's results came back so good, too! That is one less thing to worry about now.

Love the hand holding, thank you so much:) Marianne where did you find the photo?

Leslie, I have to be so concerned about my asthma, I could hardly move my peak flow meter.

So far just alternating from feeling too "dried out" in my sinus area to feeling better. The coughing is not so severe and straining.

No weird things yet but I have kept my brain occupied while resting, trying to find a new doctor.

So far day one not so bad:o:o
I feel like such a wimp:rolleyes:

Yay, so glad you're feeling even a bit better!!!

I'm so glad you like the photo! :)

I plugged "holding hands" into a Google search, and then clicked on "Images" and this was one of many sweet and beautiful ones that came up. There are a multitude there, so we can even rotate pics and hold new hands every single day if we want to. ;) :D

dear Addy
so sorry feeling the way you do. Hope you feel better. Check on my in loving memory, video I did. My brother has horrible allergies and can get an asthma attack if he doesn't watch it.
Love Sonja

So glad that you are feeling even a little bit better.

Yes absolutely you need to be careful of your asthma, that is nothing to fool around with as you know. They have you on antibiotics too right for any secondary bacterial infections? My friend, myself and my husband all had to take antibiotics before our bronchitis cleared up and my friends kept coming back as I told about that earlier.

hand holding is available anytime!

love ya

Don't think I can take the prednisone again, I have had zero sleep

A good friend who periodically needs pred pulses says that, no matter what the time of year, she always gets spring cleaning taken care of during the spurts :o. Nothing like waxing the floors at midnight...:eek:

Seriously though, so sorry that you cannot rest. That is not good. :(

I haven't had much sleep for a week but now I have had zero sleep.
I'm worried about how worn out I feel and then there is the pressure from work to be there Monday. I almost 63, it is getting harder to do this.

I coughed all night and my ribs and stomach muscles hurt.
I was always told by my original asthma doctor that I should not take a cough suppressant. Every once in a while a doctor will tell me to take it.

Not sure what to do.

Addy--I am so sorry you are having such serious health problems. I know from personal experience how difficult, if not impossible, it is to focus on work when dealing with insomnia. Being a perfectionist, I hated making mistakes (and not even realizing it until someone pointed it out to me). My turning point came when I almost fell asleep when driving to work. Please take care of yourself.

Thanks, I just need to stop this cough and wheezing, if I get 3 or 4 hours sleep I can cope.

I just read about 30 articles on treating bronchitis and in an asthmatic.

I think I see the mistake I made. I should have started the rescue inhaler right away to keep my airways open. I did not realize bronchitis causes mucus in my airways.

I need to find a good doctor to discuss this asthma stuff with.
I feel better emotionally right now. Knowledge always helps:)

I need to get well fast, the painter is coming Tuesday and will be here a week, gosh what will those paint fumes do to me n Koko, we will have to sleep at a hotel, I think.

We are painting the whole house two shades of gray and refreshing the white woodwork. I hope that appeals to the masses!

OH remembered something I learned when I last had so much mucous - fruit helps a lot. Eat as much as you can tolerate, skins when possible like grapes, apples, etc.