Nikki may need re-load (update: I had to let Nikki go)

Hi Sharon,

I'm sorry Nikki has this tumor. I hope the meds continue to help. Along with the others, I agree with your thinking of putting Cushing's on the back burner and focusing on keeping her comfortable. You're a great mom!

-Susy

Hi Sharon,

I am so sad to hear of Nikki's tumor but I am glad you know what it is and that the meds are giving her some relief. I hope she is happier and that they will give her some more time with you.

As for treating the Cushing's, I don't know that I would either. It is the quality of life that matters, not the quantity. Nikki has a wonderful life with you and I know you will continue to make every day count for you both.

Hugs,
Leslie and the girls

Hi Sharron,
I am so sorry that you and Nikki are going thru this. We are keeping positive thoughts and saying a prayer for you and Nikki. We completely understand how much you love her.

Thanks so much for your kind thoughts for Nikki. She is doing quite well right now and I am just trying to do all I can to give her whatever makes her happy. The meds have made her breathing much easier. She apparently had an irritation of some sort that caused the mass to inflame and make breathing difficult. I spoke to her IMS yesterday about Nikki's situation, and she said to just continue with the 4 time a week lysodren.She said Nikki could live several months and letting the cortisol rise would only make her feel worse.She is really enjoing her homecooked meals and is still having a little of her birthday cake every now and then, which she loves.She has to breathe through her mouth, but it doesn't seem to bother her.When she goes outside I can tell the heat really does bother her, so we don't stay any longer than we have to.I have a truly wonderful vet who makes housecalls for euthanasia, so at least Nikki will not have to go to the vet when the time comes. And John, I was out of town when you lost your precious Roxee and I am so sorry. I just found out when I went to photos.You loved her well. I so appreciate everyone's concern and will keep you posted of any changes. Sharon

Hi Sharon,

So glad to hear that Nikki is feeling better and the meds are doing their job at making her breathe more comfortably.

Homecooked meals and cake...yumyum.

Thanks so much for the update...and take care of yourself.

Love and hugs to you and Nikki.
Lori

Today I had to let Nikki go. This is very hard to write because I am feeling so much pain right now, but maybe this will help me. For the past couple of weeks, Nikki has not been able to eat. She would try, but it just wasn't working. I'm sure that whatever mass was in her throat had grown to the point of obstruction. I have been giving her filet mignon, cut into tiny pieces, which she could eat a little of. Because my vet said she would come to my house when the time came, I called Thursday, before the holiday, and today was the first day she would be able to come. I had all weekend to think about it, and decided to make her final days as good as possible.She has been eating M &Ms and brownies as best she could. My vet is truly wonderful and helped me give Nikki a wonderful death. She was in her bed, very comfortable, and I was feeding her Ghirradeli chocolate when she had her injection. Her passing was very peaceful, but I'm a wreck.I already miss her so much I can hardly stand it. This is my third dog to be put down, but the first where I was present.Nikki was such a special dog, so loving and devoted,I have to believe I will see her again. Anyway, thank you all for your help with her cushings this past year, because it was pretty much under control.I will continue to peek in from time to time, and if I can help I will. You are doing a great service, and I appreciate all the help you have given me. Sharon

Dear Sharon,

I am so very, very sorry for your loss of Nikki. Someone once wrote me to the effect that loving them is taking the pain and suffering away from them and making it yours. I am truly sorry that you had to make that decision. I am sure Nikki knows how much she was and is loved and is watching over you.

Dear Sharon,

My tears are falling with yours in the passing of your dear, sweet Nikki. You have worked so diligently and steadfastly to help her and remained strong through it all, to the very end. I am so glad you were with her today to ease her crossing to The Bridge where she was met by our babies that have gone before, and where there is much chocolate, steak, and sunshine. Tho I know the pain is incredible for you, Nikki is watching over you now with the same love and devotion you gave to her. She no longer suffers but is once again whole.

Our deepest sympathies,
Leslie, Squirt, Ruby, Goldie and Crystal


If It Should Be

If it should be that I grow weak,
And pain should keep me from my sleep,
Then you must do what must be done,
For this last battle cannot be won.

You will be sad, I understand,
Don't let your grief then stay your hand,
For this day more than all the rest,
Your love for me must stand the test.

We've had so many happy years,
What is to come can hold no fears,
You'd not want me to suffer so,
The time has come, please let me go.

Take me where my need they'll tend,
And please stay with me until the end,
I know in time that you will see,
The kindness that you did for me.
Although my tail its last has waved,
From pain and suffering I've been saved.

Please do not grieve, it must be you
Who had this painful thing to do,
We've been so close, we two, these years,
Don't let your heart hold back its tears.

Author unknown

Sharon,

I was saddened to read about the loss of your precious little Nikki today. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Peace be with you sweet Nikki.

With sympathy,
Louise

In honor of Nikki -

http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/...m?l=eng&gi=K9C