Buddy, The Mighty Lizard Hunter - Suspected Pituitary Macro Tumor

You are funny, and very dear Sharlene. I am afraid to go to sleep. :eek: Buddy is unstable. It is my job to keep him stabilized. I'm worried that his blood sugar will drop and I won't be awake to help him. I'm terrified that I am going to wake up and find him dead. So, I sit up and watch him to make sure that he is breathing. I know that this is completely insane and it can't go on forever, but it is the only way that I can relax at all. My family members are of no help, after all he's just a dog. We agree to disagree, so I'm on my own. They don't understand the expense, the emotion, the heartache, or any of it. So I continue to remain on auto-pilot in zombie land. Yes, I am still working through it all. The guys with the white coats are on their way.

Hugs,
Kathy

OK so I'm going to sing you and Buddy a lullaby ok? Go lie down and cuddle next to each other with a soft blankie and here we go:

Lullaby, and good night,
With pink roses bedight,
With lilies o'erspread,
Is my baby's sweet head.
Lay you down now, and rest,
May your slumber be blessed!
Lay you down now, and rest,
May thy slumber be blessed!

Lullaby, and good night,
You're your mother's delight,
Shining angels beside
My darling abide.
Soft and warm is your bed,
Close your eyes and rest your head.
Soft and warm is your bed,
Close your eyes and rest your head.

Sleepyhead, close your eyes.
Mother's right here beside you.
I'll protect you from harm,
You will wake in my arms.
Guardian angels are near,
So sleep on, with no fear.
Guardian angels are near,
So sleep on, with no fear.

Lullaby, and sleep tight.
Hush! My darling is sleeping,
On his sheets white as cream,
With his head full of dreams.
When the sky's bright with dawn,
He will wake in the morning.
When noontide warms the world,
He will frolic in the sun.

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Kim,
Thank you for the lullaby:D

Hugs,
Kathy

Wow, Kim does good lullaby. Hidden talents there! :)

Sharlene and Molly Muffin

Kathy:
I am so sorry you are having such a hard time lately. I know what you mean about staying awake, and watching them. I often stay awake and watch my Tipper because of her struggle to breathe, I am also afraid of finding her dead. I am so glad you will be out of school soon. Poor Buddy he has really been through a lot lately also. I pray that you make it thru your school trip and get to summer break. It will be a God send to you and Buddy to have you at home. God Bless your heart I don't know how you are functioning with all this going on. Tipper is sending Buddy hugs and kisses, and she said to tell Buddy she would love to hunt some lizards with him! I feel helpless that I am unable to do anything but support you at this time. God Bless you both.
Patti

Good morning angels:)
My posts have been way to sad and grim lately.:( They are bumming everyone out!!!!!!!!!!! :eek: I have decided not to post on my thread until I have something positive or happy to report. I will continue to support all of you on your threads. I will still be here watching out for you and your precious babies.;)

Marianne,
I know that you want all the gory details and your input and knowledge is invaluable. Please PM me with all your burning questions and I will try to answer them. The rest of you lovely angels are also welcome to send me a PM if you desire. I am trying to eliminate some of the negativity and bad news on my thread. :p

Always,
Kathy

Aw Kathy, you do not need to limit or edit anything you write on your thread! If you want to take a break because that's the best thing for YOU, then it is A-OK. But don't hold back out of fear of writing bad news for the rest of us to read. We are here to read everything and anything -- the good, the bad, and the ugly. :) :( :eek:

So do not censor or hold back on our accounts. And that's an order!!!!

But honestly, I don't have any other questions right now. I'm waiting alongside you to hear what the neurosurgeon has to say. So I hope you'll pass on whatever additional info your vet finds out. And then we'll all move forward -- together!!

Marianne

Dear Kathy,

What Marianne said goes double from me. We are here to help and although we can't always help, we can always listen.

Kathy:
I am so upset that you would not post about Buddy. Thru all of his pictures, and antics I have grown fond of hearing about him.That means good and bad!!! Please don't ever feel you cannot post because you think it is negative, or bad news. I have poured my heart out on here, and so have others. After all, it is about Cushings, and that is nothing good about Cushings. I personally never feel you are negative, you just tell things like they are. I think that is all anyone on here expects, is to be told things how they are no matter how good or bad. There are just a lot of nasty things that happen to these babies from this disease so writing about it at times may seem negative, but it is something we need to hear, as it may help someone else. I always want to hear it all, as it may provide me with information I need for Tipper. Sometimes when you are down, or want to get things off you chest, you need to come here to do it. I know not everyone has family members that support them in this struggle, in fact some family members oppose what we try to do, and think we are crazy. It is important that all of us remain compassionate and understanding, especially in light of many new members coming on here for support. I have no one and no family left. My only help is this forum. I would be lost without the support of the wonderful people I have leaned on in scary situations I have had to deal with. At times some members babies are doing well and they have nothing bad to report, so it can seem like they are upbeat and all you post is bad, but that is just how things are going for you that day. I don't think anyone on here can sit in judgment of others. Every situation is different and some people never experience problems when treating their babies. Others have a multitude of problems and struggle. So let's all agree that no matter what anyone writes concerning their baby , that it is their personal journey and they have a right to express it! Blessings
Patti

hey there,

If posting about our mighty lizard hunter is hard for you and bringing you down and upsetting you, then we understand, don't post. If you think it is bad news and you should not post because of others then we all stand beside you saying, not true, we are all in it together, good news, bad news, no news, does not matter.

Melt downs are also allowed on our threads, so if you need to have one, have one.;);)

But really, you need to keep some sleep somehow. I know how bad insomnia can get, trust me I have gone to work for weeks on end with little to no sleep. At some point though, it takes its toll and I worry about you. Buddy needs a rested mommy too.:):)