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Happy New Year, its been a while since I visited. I felt like my grief was bringing you down but I see it is still hard for you also. I was talking with my sister about this because I'm still missing my Bandit to, I told her I don't know what it was about him but I can't seem to let go. I guess like Lena, Bandit was my baby and I knew something was different about him the first time I saw him. I hope we feel better as this year goes on, I know I am glad 2016 is gone it was such a sad year.
I'm so happy to hear from you! Happy New Year to you, too! No, you were not bringing me down. I can't get over Lena either. Your right about that special one...from the moment I saw her, and she wasn't even supposed to be mine. My husband got her for himself.
I've been thinking also of how I just can't move on...and I really don't care. I don't want to forget her; I don't want to just accept the fact that she's not here anymore. Tomorrow will be 11 months and I've missed her every single day. I don't cry as much, but when I do, I really do...and I don't think there is anything wrong with that. I do find myself smiling sometimes when I think of her and the things she used to do...smiling, crying all rolled into one.
I love the rest of them and Sibbie is a joy! She makes me laugh and does distract me, but it doesn't change how much I loved or miss Lena. I couldn't even celebrate Sibbie's first birthday because it was 10 months to the day that Lena died. I felt terrible, but I just could not do it. I took her shopping and let her pick out some toys, but that was as much as I could do.
I hope that Sammy and Betty are making you happy in whatever way they can. Please visit once in a while so I know you are okay. I wish you a better new year and hope we both find peace with the loss of our darling babies.
Love,
Joan
I will try to come visit more often, it seems to be getting easier to come to this site, as long as I don't read to much about other babies and this horrible disease. I'm with you I don't want to forget and I don't want to move on if that means forgetting my baby.
Betty is getting older and I just took her to get her teeth cleaned, it was very hard to do because that is when I found out Bandit had cushings is when I took him for his teeth cleaning. I was worried until I picked her up but she is fine. Sammy makes me laugh a lot he is just a crazy little dog. I love him and Betty but its just not the same. I'm glad you are doing ok. I will be checking back , its coming up on a year for us both.
I wish I could just skip February.
Same thing with Lee...two weeks after getting her teeth cleaned and some pulled, was when the symptoms just seemed to accelerate to where it wasn't my imagination anymore, and her blood work came back so bad. And she was fine after the procedure. I was so worried about putting her out at her age, but when I got home from work, she was busy eating.
I am dreading the one year anniversary...I've been crying to and from work for weeks now. I still feel like someone has punched me in the stomach when I think about her being gone. I still can't talk about her without crying. I miss her every single day.
Me, too...2016 was definitely one of my worst years...
Everything is still before and after Lena...
I understand that Joan, the before and after. :( 2016 wasn't a fab year for many of us. I think we all would rather just move away from it. Unfortunately emotions don't get board with that when we want them to
You're so right, Sharlene. I wish we could go back...I can't believe I haven't seen or held her in almost a year.
Group hugs, for everyone! I could use a hug right about now...
Here's one from me <HUG>