Molly, 13 yr, shih tzu - lhasa aspo - Molly has passed

When my vet's team mailed a card with all their signatures on it after Bobo's brother passed - I fell apart - it meant so much to know that they cared for Sparkey and me. Knowing that you can share your loss with your neighbors must be such a blessing. I can't tell you the pain will pass quickly, and it is the little things that bring on the tears. But, I can tell you that those same little remembrances will eventually bring a tear and a huge smile remembering your "baby. " We're here for you. Your love will see you through.

I guess I was such a witch at the end, not one of the vets sent me a card. His 9 year vet of course I called her up on wrong testing, so got my money back from her and the vet college, so.... that would be a reason, 2nd vet had to read his book on how to give the acth test, I ended up telling him how to do it and to keep the serum.. so.... that could be a reason, 3rd vet though surprised me that I got nothing when I called to tell them. Only card I got was from Gateway when I picked up "mah boy." - and Oakville only saw him once, so they wouldn't even know. Wonder if there are cards you can buy that say "Thanks" for not sending a card..... nah just kidding. Coming up 17 years since puppers was born and 2 years since he died. Miss him just as much as the day he passed.... I really believe that you can die of a broken heart...wouldn't surprise me at all if I did. You have great strength Sharlene, you've already shown it in you postings to others since Molly left us.... but I know how the other moments are too. They catch you when you least expect it. She was loved and you were the best mommy any pup could have. Hope you take comfort knowing you did everything humanly possible and if only love could keep them young and healthy, we'd have them forever.

Thanks Judi. yea it's those blasted moments. :) They just come out of nowhere and knock you for a loop.
At least I am staying so busy that I don't have too much time to think about it. Maybe why the moments seems almost unexpected when they do hit.

Dear Sharlene,
It hits you out of no where, any time, any thing can set you off. Just let it out. We all miss Molly so much . Beautiful, spunky Molly.
There is no easy way around the feelings. We are here to love, support you through this.
Love Sonja, Apollo

I'm so very sorry for your loss of Molly. I am sorry to say I know how you feel. I hope it gets better for you too. My hurt is fresh as I'm sure yours is also and words are comforting. I wish you happiness when you recall your precious memories of Molly. May they sustain you through your grief.

Janet

Dear Janet, thank you for your kind words. I wish the same for you. I know your pain is just awful right now. Sending you big hugs.

You know when life and things got to me, it was always molly that I turned to. A walk out of the house, meeting up with other dog walkers to share funny stories about our beloved dogs and let them have play time together was just the thing to get me out of my head and relieve the days stresses.

I don't have that now and I wonder if the anger part of grieving is just kicking in late or if I just need something else to get me to relax. I don't know.

It is like you have to learn all new coping mechanisms for life.

I admit that things are getting to me that shouldn't. I need to find a way to let it all roll off my shoulders and just enjoy the important little things. Talking a walk on my own doesn't seem to do the trick, as it gives me more time to think things I don't want to be thinking about and need to in fact get away from. UGH This sucks.

On top of having a house full of people that I am working every day and then coming home to make meals for, clean up daily, shop for, my MIL has told us that she will be here the first part of December. Permanently. My first response was Here? In the house? With all of us? No room!!! Literally no more room.

But no, she is going to move into the retirement village a few streets over from us until she gets an apartment. But she is shipping some furniture that she can't leave behind to our place. NO ROOM!!! but alas will have to find some room.

The cats are still fighting for some awful reason. 10 years those two cats have lived together just fine but come to our house and it is hissing and carrying on every single day.

I seriously just want to give up. The only reason I was able to grab some computer time tonight was because no one is home for once, for the first time in weeks (?) at least weeks. I don't expect it to last much more than a few minutes more, but it is still precious to be able to come here and say hello and shed more than few tears over the passing of dear loved ones.

Hugs to all. What doesn't kill me makes me stronger right?

Hello back to you, Sharlene! I wish I had some words of wisdom but just want you to know that we are always here for you even if you are pulled away (and in so many different directions!). I can't imagine working all day and then coming home only to be expected to take care of a group of people. Hang in there -- this too shall pass! Miss Abbie sends a big ar-o-o-o to you!

Okay Sharlene, you are too nice! Make the freeloaders (Oops, I mean kids ;))help with meals and such. Hang in there!

I don't mind them being here. I don't know. Today is not a good day and everything just adds up sometimes.

Hubby made me a martini tonight. He knows. Lol. This weekend we have a gala charity event coming up. After a day of salsa dancing lessons. I will forget all of this for awhile. nothing stops just because I am grumpy.

I am tired of fast food. So last night I did chicken Caesar salad and tonight salmon with garlic rice and broccoli. The kids had hamburgers and fries from somewhere. So only cooked for hubby and I. Now I have to go clean kitchen. In the morning I will need to clean it again most likely. Then again tomorrow night. But I do have lobster bisque and garlic shrimp and salad for dinner tomorrow night. Will make some cheddar garlic butter biscuits I think too. Whomever is here can eat.

I'll be okay. I always am. Just you know. Sometimes you need to vent and can't Here I can whine and moan and groan.

If Molly where her we would be heading outside and she would have had some salmon with me. She loved fish. Oh. Think this is the first time I made salmon since she been gone. Just thought of that. Sigh