Lena, Teacup Poodle w/ adrenal tumor - Lena is now an angel

yes those are beautiful memories Joan and ones that you will always have. You hold them in our heart and bring them out when you need to, like a heart photo album.

Yesterday was 10 months, my precious baby...such a long time. I miss you so much, Lee. This is Christmas week and it just does not feel the same. I'm trying.

The new tree is up and decorated. I'm making shortbreads. The front of the house is decorated...we used to stand outside and just look, remember? I bought a pretty flag for the front lawn. Father Christmas surrounded by poodles and he's holding a little white one who looks just like you, and he's holding her just the way I used to hold you. When I bid on it from the online auction, I didn't notice that. I liked it because of the poodles, but also there was a red one who looked like Sibbie.

When I opened it, I couldn't believe my eyes..there you were. I know I didn't see you when I bid on it or I would've been frantically waiting for it. Truth is, I almost forgot about it. So now when I come home or leave the house, there you are...watching for me the way you used to.

So I'm at my desk crying...no one is here except for Savitre and she has gotten used to hearing me crying for you. It is going to be a tough week, my sweet, little girl. Mommy misses you all the time...I'm trying, Lee. I love you always and forever, my precious, little angel child.

Thinking of you Joan. Love love love the story about the Christmas flag. Hugs from us.

Thanks, Annie...hugs to you and Whiskey as well!

Sending you a big hug Joan. What a wonderful surprise. Father Christmas holding a sweet white poodle that looks just like your precious Lena. Lena is always with you.

What a special flag that will be and each time you see it, you will think of Lena.

I hope you have a wonderful christmas holiday. It may not be the same, but I still hope its pretty wonderful!

I hope the same for you, Sharlene. I am thinking of all of you and how very much I appreciate having you in my life. I don't know how I would have gotten through these last 10 months without you.

Merry Christmas...

Hugs Joan! I know exactly what you mean

Happy New Year in Heaven, my precious...I can't believe we are beginning a new year without you. It doesn't seem right. Me and Daddy just watched a movie last night and it ended after 12:00. I almost forgot about it being New Year's Eve, but then all the fireworks started. Cooper got hysterical and started shaking, Sibbie started barking and was also afraid, but Gable seemed very calm this year. I had to hug poor Cooper and Sibbie until they calmed down.

The fireworks never bothered you...you were never afraid of anything, Lee, always confident that nothing would hurt you; that you were safe and Mommy and Daddy would take care of and protect you. If only we could have protected you from Cushing's...

I couldn't say Happy New Year to Dad...all I could do was cry. I held it together all day, but leaving 2016 felt like I was leaving you behind.

We are all on the couch this morning, everyone is in their spots. Your spot behind me on the arm of the couch is still empty...none of them have ever taken it. It's like they know that it is off limits. It will always be your space, Lena, by my shoulder where I would lean back and kiss you, listen to you breathe and breathe in your scent.

Josh made avocado rolls at their house last night. You would have loved that. You did love avocado! And fruit...how you loved your fruit! You and your Dad, always trying out these weird, exotic fruits...Lychee was your all-time favorite until Dad discovered Jack fruit a couple of years ago. I think Daddy really misses you when he's eating fruit and you're not at his feet waiting for some, or when he comes home with some new one and you aren't here to taste it with him. He always says that "Lee would've loved this one".

We miss so you so much, Lena...Happy New Year, my precious angel. Mommy loves you always and forever...

Hey Joan, just popping in to say howdy and a Happy New Year.
What beautiful memories of Lena.