Mira, 7yr old Husky - Cushings ruled out; liver cancer (Mira has passed)

New years eve:
It was a hard night. A whole new year. It just makes her feel that much farther away. I better not say more Bud is right here and it will just get me crying more.

On a happy note ... Wiggly bite bite bite Neeka got all sleepy right after midnight, I picked her up and got to hold her and brush her for about a half hour while she slept. Mira's little niece. So small, so soft.

I am so glad little Neeka is helping to ease your pain over Mira. I hope each day is easier and easier to face.

Hugs,
Leslie and the girls - always

I am so very sorry. My tears are with you. We just lost our little Schnauzer Fritz this morning. He was the love of our lives. Although we have nine other dogs and 5 cats, Fritz was the sweet baby that stood out. Just remember Mira is no longer in pain nor is Fritz and we will all meet on the Rainbow Bridge. I know it exists.

Although I am not with you I am holding your hand.

Carole

The things you don't think about. Every year I make up my own calendar. If your like me you can't even remember how old you are. I could careless about my age but the dogs is important. I alway note how old they will be each year. I sat down today and started making my yearly calendar and suddenly realized I wouldn't be putting Miras birthday on the calendar. We didn't even make it to eight. And when the city asks me to pay for Miras dog license I'll have to tell them she died. I keep remembering those last few nights. We couldn't go for walks anymore it was too dangerous. Shed go outside and lay just on the other side of the window from me. I'd get up and go out there in the freezing cold and sit with her. Laid down with her one night. Oh Mira. I keep remembering sending her off with the girl at ACC knowing soon she'd be dead. Its ok Mira go on. Oh Mira. This year I added her to the bottom of the calendar where I list the dates the dogs died.

Sigh 9-6-78 to 9-30-91 (13 yrs)
Sasha 9-10-84 to 2-9-00 (15 yrs)
Kodi 9-16-91 to 3-7-03 (11 yrs)
Mira 2-27-03 to 11-27-10 (7 yrs)

That's a pretty wide range huh?

Oh my heart breaks for you. I'm so sorry.

Lynne, Clyde & Bailey

Ah, Janis,

Another first. :(

Today, Mira is running for all she is worth. Chasing butterflys, deer and geese through the sunny fields across The Bridge. She carries you with her in her heart every step, knowing this is just a temporary phase. She still feels the warmth of your body as you lay beside her in the cold and she knows the source of that remembered warmth is your love, never ending.

Hugs sweet friend,
Leslie and the girls - always

Tribute to Mira

From the day we met we stuck like glue her and I. It was hard on both of us to be separated. But after five or so years we began to work it out. She didn't freak out anymore when I had to leave her. She was such a doll and I was so proud of her. It was at the same time that she became so beautiful. I saw her daddy walking her and I raced for the camera and caught her lopping beside him. Later I asked Bud why he had walked her and he said it was because she looked so beautiful. He had seen it too.
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For the next year and a half we lived the life I had always dreamed of. My beautiful doggies. My beautiful Kira and Mira. Then when she was seven they told me she had cancer and only had thirty days to live and my world came crashing down. I didn't even know she was sick. She would be with me in the same room all the time and I didn't know. We went for walks every night and I didn't know! And for the last twenty two days of her short life I watched her being eaten alive by this horrible thing. There was nothing I could do, it was too late! What a crewel way to take her from me. My pretty Mira. I never saw her grow old. Her eyes were always bright.

I remember on Thanksgiving, I was in the kitchen cleaning up the dinner mess. The dinner I had shared with her. Bud hollered... "I let Mira out". But I already knew, because I just saw her go by the window. Oh god, she's heading toward the planter. No running, jumping, or playing. Her liver could rupture. I fought down the want to run after her. Jumping up in the planter and investigating the bushes was her favorite thing to do. Well if she should hurt herself and die, at least she died doing something she loved. So I kept cleaning up, thinking about what I'd feel if I saw her out there struggling. Oh God. I moved toward the sink to rinse off more dishes and this is what I saw when I looked out the window.
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My sweet Mira laying on the cool cement, peering in the kitchen window… watching for me. I was more important then the bushes. Watching me was more important. A day and a half later she was gone. She was only 7 years old. I can’t believe she’s gone. The rules for grieving are all different when they die young.

I loved you Mira…
Mommy
(Janis)

Tears is all I can give you Janis. Its a sad story and so unfair. But Mira was loved. And she knew it. I'm sorry this happened. Hang in there and hug your other furry critters. Kim

It's been a very tearful couple days. I just about finished Miras photo album and the tribute is written. I printed all the pages here and added them to her records. And i had to wash away more evidence of her. I'm feeling pretty raw. I'm so mad about Mira. But it fired up some anger and determination to do better. I've made some progress with Neeka "maybe" found somethings that work. Shes making this cute little sound when she has to potty. Its worked all day today anyway. And Kira had a little spring in her step today too. And she let me brush her teeth a little too. I hope I can stick with it. Next week Kira and Neeka should be able to start hanging out together. They have been separated since Kiras surgery. I hope they will let me help them to get along and maybe learn to share like Kira and Mira did. I lost so much when Mira went away.

So nice to hear about Neka Janis. I am sure she is a sweet pup.

But, no, you won't ever forget your Mira. I have had similar feelings and experiences over the last few weeks....I totally adore my new little friend, Pebbles, but Mandy is not far from my mind, or my heart. I am still gradually cleaning out her "stuff" (last week it was her meds and vitamins). But even if the "stuff" is gone, the memories are not. But, I took two of her stuffed toys from way back, cleaned them up and gave them to the puppy. She loves them and it's a pleasant reminder of my Mandy, rather than a sad one.:o

Jeff, Angel Mandy & Chi-Chi Pebbles