Mira, 7yr old Husky - Cushings ruled out; liver cancer (Mira has passed)

Life is a series of dogs...

George Carlin said that... "Hey doc that was great can I have another one?"

Not selfish? I don't know... Mira didn't like sharing me too much. She'd whine until Kira got out of HER spot. Then Mira would go get a drink and Kira took over again. Mira would just flop down and wait. If I petted or hugged both dogs at the same time Mira would growl.

As long as I keep believing Kira will be alright I'm alright. As long as Kira grows old I'll be alright. And even if she does neither of these things I'll still be alright. But I reserve the right to let my emotions fly in every way, shape, manner or form. Whatever needs to come screaming out. I scare the hell out of my mom too. I bet every one here has felt like they wanted to die how could you not. It's how I get past it. And then I go on to do it all over again just like the rest of you. If they didn't make us so damn happy they'd never upset us so badly when they go. And I have to tell you my dogs will get a blood test once a year from now. I didn't even have a chance to save her. But I had one month, it could have been just days, it could have been no days at all. It could have been worse. I'm glad we had that time together. I'm glad she let me touch her and cry. I'm glad I can look at those 350 pictures I took the last 13 days. I have a video of her chest as it pounded and her breaths fast and shallow. I'm going to post it on you tube so anyone can see what I was seeing. Her heart being pressed against her ribs. Her heart rate never faltered it staid steady and strong. She was otherwize a healthy young girl. Anyway.

Janis -

Don't think I ever posted to you but I have followed your journey with Kira and Mira. Such beautiful girls. I am so sorry about Mira. You were a great mom to her. It is normal to want to blame yourself and think that you let her go too soon. But given her diagnosis and condition, I do not believe that for a moment. When they have such serious problems, as Mira did, I truly believe it is better to err on the side of caution and choose sooner rather than later -- because the thought of them suffering and being unable to tell us would be far worse. I think you absolutely made the right choice for Mira. Hug Kira close and continue to trust in your instincts with her. Sue

Hug Kira close and continue to trust in your instincts with her

That's exactly what I'm going to do this morning ... Hug Kira close and continue to trust in my instincts with her.

I'm going to stop all meds and wait and see what this last test says. She seems terrible to me. I want to see if this helps.

Oh Mira, only five days gone and I'm already talking about getting another dog. I'm so sorry. Your brother Tiger and Poppy had puppies about five weeks ago. There is one called Auntie Em. You would have been her aunt.

And another three year old female called topaz. That Sherri kept that she said I could have. She is your cousin.

Kira will have an operation. What if I lose her too? She wants a friend, she tries to play with other dogs we pass by.

Nobody follows me anymore. No bed buddy, no welcoming committee. Kira just sleeps. She wont even come when i call her. Mira I miss you. I can't believe you are gone. Your eyes were so bright and your face so young. Tell me what to do.

I am so sorry for your untimely loss of Mira. My heartfelt sympathy for your loss. Godspeed precious Mira.

Don't feel guilty about thinking about another pup, especially a family member. Mira would want you and your family to be happy. You can never replace her. You are just giving another fluffer a wonderful new home.

God bless your family,
Heidi and the bichons

Hi Janis,

Thinking of you and Mira today...

Hugs,
Leslie and the girls - always

I am sure that Kira would enjoy having a new friend. Although it has been just a short time since Mira has passed, you have a nice opportunity to bring in a new family member...who is literally related to your Mira and Kira. I think that is very nice:o

It's tough to consider getting a new furball when you have not let go of the last one...I was out this weekend looking at pups and had these feelings of guilt/betrayal. It's a bit ridiculous, I know, but you can't help it. It just is. But, I'd like to think that even if my Mandy were alive, she'd welcome a new friend into the house...:rolleyes:

Jeff & Angel Mandy

You know Leslie said that you go through a lot of firsts. I never thought of it before but it sure is true. The first time you open the door they aren't there. The first time you wake up and they aren't there. The first time you walk your dog and her mate is not there. Had she died of old age she would still be there. For another maybe even harder part is when you wash away all evidence of them. I had tipped the coffe table up on it's side and moved it against the wall. She had yipped twice crawling out from under it. I was afraid shed rupture her liver so I moved it. Every time I looked at it I cried I couldn't move back into place. I'd never see her under it again. Vacuuming the carpet was a killer. Sucking up all her fur and throwing it away. One of the last times I brushed her I saved some. Washing the floors she slept on. The nose prints off the windows. And my Jeep that had carried her to the vets so many times those last three weeks. I had gone out to the garage and furiously polished it one night. I wanted the car that would carry her to her death to sparkle for her. In the process i had walked by the door leading into the house and i wondered would she be there on the other side ?? She was. I invited her out in the garage with me. And i told her what i was doing. I was so upset and angery.

Then there was putting away the second set of leashes I had made specail for her. I didn't put her bowl away until Neka came. And the multitude of pills for her that never got used. She didn't live as long as we had hoped. I only just cleared them from the counter a few days ago. Washing away all the evidence that she ever existed. And the rain that came and washed away every place she had so carefully marked those last days. All gone. Washed away. Was she ever really here? Or did I just imagine her?

Dear Janis,

She was always there, and she will always be with you in your heart and memories. Her spirit will always live on and at times you will be staring into space and you will see her in your minds eye with that special look that she would give you and you will feel lucky that you had each other to share that time of your lives.

(((Hugs)))

Maybe this needs to be said. At least from my point of view. They say that's it's wrong to get another dog right away. I don't agree with that. It sure felt that way when I first started looking though but now it feels just fine. I look at Neka and I smile. She's so cute I can't help it. How can that be wrong? I look at pictures of Mira, or even just think about her and I cry so easy. How can that be wrong? In those last days I let myself get so close to her. I think if I hadn't done that this would have been a lot easier. But I just couldn't not show her how I felt about her and how much I apprecated her constant attention. It ment so much to me. And if your thinking that I was looking for a dog just like Mira hoping she would be just like Mira... well I wondered that myself. Afterall I picked the one that looked the most like Mira and cloestly related. But it's not that way at all. Neka is her own little girl and I think that's just wonderful. And if she grows to look very much like Mira that's wonderful too. If I look at her and see Mira's essence then I couldn't have asked for more. I think it's a great tribute to Mira to want that. This is out 6th Siberain Husky in 30 years. They all were so differant, this one will be too.