Lena, Teacup Poodle w/ adrenal tumor - Lena is now an angel

Not nuts at all joan. I clipped some of Mollys before we left and the vet clipped and braided some hair too and tied with a ribbon then into a blue silk bag. It is now in a silver box.

Awww, I wish I had thought of braiding...I didn't want to cut too much, I don't know why as it wouldn't have mattered.

Hi,

I am not on the forum much these days but wanted to stop by and offer a hug. I lost my little girl over two years ago, something has been missing in my life ever since.

There really aren't any wise words I can offer, we all seem to live through the loss and we all react differently.

The one thing I know for sure, without a doubt, is that everyone here understands and will offer support.

Thanks for all the support you have given to Sharlene too and all the others.

I admit to rambling a bit but really just wanted you to know that although we don't know each other, I do cares out your loss.

And I care about yours, too...and I don't think you're rambling. Sometimes we just need to spill it all out...and this is the place to go.

Two years, such a long time. I'm so sorry. I can't imagine my being without Lee for two years. It's only been seven months this coming Monday and it feels like forever to me.

This is the place to come and I think it's because of two major bonds here. One is that we who come here KNOW what it means to really and truly love an animal, to see our babies as part of our family and as our children. Two we can comprehend the depth of pain and agony when we lose a baby in a way most people never could; they aren't capable but we are because we are the blessed. In spite of that pain we will all face one day, we are the blessed.

Hugs,
Leslie and the gang

Absolutely, Leslie! And am so glad and feel so blessed to have found this forum...

My precious, Lee...seven months today. I avoided this all day, but here I am. I miss you all day, every single day. I may get busy doing other things, but you are always in my mind, always in my heart, and I am constantly looking for signs. I love you, Lena, always and forever. It's been so long, and I miss you so much.

I miss it all...the belly farts, dancing to the radio, sitting on the stoop watching the world go by, our trips to PA to visit Marie and Pop, waking me up in the morning licking my face and if I didn't move (even though I was awake) sticking your tongue up my nose, which you knew would do it! Wherever I was, knowing you were watching me. Looking back at pictures, if I was outside you were always at the door keeping your eyes on me.

I loved every second of having you in my life, my sweet little girl, every single second. And I miss you just as much, my precious angel child.

Love, Mommy

Missing you terribly today, Lee. I knocked a bottle off the counter the other night and it landed on my toe and smashed it. It's not broken, but looks disgusting...and I just lost it that night. I cried and screamed into my pillow for hours before I finally fell asleep...I think it has been building up in me for weeks and the pain in my toe just gave me permission to let it all out.

So the next day, not only did my toe hurt, but I had a splitting headache as well. I don't care, it felt good to scream and cry because in my head that's what I'm doing all the time anyway.

It's 32 weeks today and I have missed you every day, all day. You are my angel, my precious angel, and will always be. Mommy loves you, darling girl...and always will, my little Lena. I passed Safe Haven signs on my way to work this morning (I do every morning), but today I really noticed them. And it made me realize that you are in God's hands...that's what the picture on the sign is...a little baby's head resting in a hand...I think it was a sign from you to me, I hope it was.

Oh Joan, ouch. It's surprising sometimes what sets us off down that path of grief and pain. It's okay though, it's all normal.
I do just fine for quite a few days and then bham something will hit me in the heart and that is it till I get through it.
The good thing is that we have other wonderful things in our lives so that when those painful moments do hit us, we can get through them and focus once again on all the good things around us.
It sure does seem to come at the most unexpected times though.

I know...I had felt it coming, but just kept telling myself "not now".

Yesterday the grandsons were over and we started decorating for Halloween, that brought on tears. Lena loved Halloween! I have so many pictures of her in her Halloween t-shirt and posed in front of, or in the decorations. She would have been so happy to be outside with the boys, watching...so I did do some smiling.

But they had fun and I have bought Sibbie a couple of costumes. She does not like some of our decorations, though. My Josh is a ghoul and the scarier, the bloodier, the better...and she wound up barking at everything that she saw...I fear she will not like sitting on the stoop helping me hand out candy like Lena did!

I am glad you are keeping busy...it really does help. I hope Daniel is doing good, too~