Jasper (12 yr old Mini Schnauzer) is now at peace

Hi Tina,

It appears that Addy is ever so nicely hinting for me to back off a little and give you space to post when you're ready. So, I am going to try to do that. The operative word is try.;) xxxooo

Bumping up!! Thinking of you and our sweet Jasper.

Checking in....Thinking of you both.

Hi Tina, Just checking on you before I head off to sleep. I'll be back tomorrow. ;) xxxxoooo

Back as promised.;) I'm going to keep returning. You are not alone. We are here to walk beside you. Know that.;)

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Hi Tina,
It's been 13 days without a word. Needless to say, I am worried and hope that you are OK. :o:o:o:o I REALLY have tried to be patient and give you some space, but that's not in my nature. :o

I have posted 14 times! I'm teetering on being a stalker!!!!! :eek::eek::eek:

Hugs to all,
Kathy

Dearest Friends,

Thank you all so much for checking in and the ongoing continuous support. (((huge hugs))). Kathy, a special thanks to you. No, I don't feel like you are stalking. I appreciate your vigilance so much.

I have been struggling to manage everything with Jasper, and have had so much negative sh*t going on, especially with my job ending and all that involves. I have not intended to be absent here, I just haven't been able to post. You all are a huge support, and I think I need it more than ever now.

There has been a new development with Jasper this morning related to the lump on his head. I was trying to wait to take him to the vet until tomorrow when my vet is working. The staff think I need to bring him today so we will have to see another vet, not our own. Please keep us in your prayers, I am not sure what the outcome of this appt will be. I am so scared and so torn with what is best for him at the moment. Our appt is at 4 cst. Please please keep us in your prayers. xo

You got it, Tina...prayers rising and healing, comforting energies flying yours and Jasper's way. Let us know what you learn when you can, sweetie.

Hugs,
Leslie and the gang

Thinking of you and sending the best of thoughts!

Hugs, Shana

Oh goodness, Tina, so grateful I saw your note because it should just now be 4:00 your time. Holding both you and Jasper in my heart.

Were here Tina. Thanks for checking in.

Rosie and I are dog/house sitting for about a week, but I will be checking in often. Tons of love, support and healing energy surround you and our precious Jasper. You will do what's right for him because you always have. I don't doubt that for a second.

PAWS UP JASPER BOY!!!
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Sending healing thoughts and prayers to you and Jasper!

Keeping you both in my thoughts and prayers, too.

Same from me!

Thank you all so much. Well, my boy came home with me today, which I was not sure would happen. I am grateful beyond words. The back up vet was awesome and told me she read his whole chart covering the past few months so she would know all that has been going on with him.

I will try to fill in the blanks a bit since my last post without bawling. These words have been so hard to say. Even though the pathology report did not show any cancer cells, my vet feels that it is likely cancer that is causing the fluid filled lump on his head.

After the lump got larger and thicker, I took him back in for follow up, that was on July 6. My vet drained quite a bit of fluid from the lump, and it deflated almost completely but filled right back up, which is not a good sign. She also got a few additional xrays that we could get without anesthesia. They showed a mass or fluid completely filling his right frontal sinus, where the left side was completely clear. They also revealed that the bone over the right frontal sinus was clearly not a solid intact line like on the left, so that is where the fluid was leaking through due to loss of bone integrity. :( I was just devastated to see that. Based on these xrays, she said she was very worried that it was cancer. The only treatment is radiation, which is grueling, and Jasper is not a good candidate due to all of his other health issues. She said the goal now would be to keep him comfortable and that it would be palliative care. :(

He has been doing pretty well overall since then, although the lump has continued to gradually get larger as my vet said it would. He has not seemed to be uncomfortable or in pain. We started him on Tramadol 25 mg every 8-12 hrs on July 12 to manage any pain he may have. I have been giving it consistently every 12 hrs.

This morning after we got up, I noticed he was snorting a little and sneezed a couple of times, and noticed that there seemed to be some drainage from his nose, which he has not had before. When I wiped it, it was reddish brown. A little later it looked more reddish. At first I panicked, but then it seemed to stop for a bit. I knew my vet was not working today, so I watched him for a couple of hours, and then called to see about getting an appt with my vet for tomorrow. The staff felt I should bring him in today but I was reluctant to see a vet that was not familiar with him.

I went ahead and took him in and like I said, the back up vet was awesome. She feels that since the fluid is coming through his nose now that this indicates that further bone deterioration has occurred in his sinuses due to the tumor. :( :mad: This of course was my fear. The bleeding/fluid had stopped for a couple hours before I took him in, and was very minimal during the time he was at his appt. She felt he was doing pretty good today overall, and likely would do ok tomorrow also as long as the bleeding continued to be minimal and intermittent and we were able to get it to stop. So it is truly one day at a time at this point. I know our time is very short and am just sick of course. I am shattered with this latest development as he had been doing so well as of last night. It is devastating. I am working to stop the worrying and to enjoy every minute with him, which as you all know is so incredibly hard. My job hunting is on hold a bit right now for obvious reasons. I am in no shape to even think about that currently. I'm angry beyond words that this is happening to him. He has endured so much already. As if he hasn't been through enough. So please continue to keep us in your prayers.

Thank you all so much, I know that each and every one of you understand, and it means so much.

With love and hugs,

Tina and my beautiful precious Jasper xo

Thank you so much for coming back and updating for us. I know how incredibly hard that was to do.

Yes, I most certainly understand the difficulty of pushing worry aside and enjoying every minute together. I so wish that I would have done better in that regard. Jasper is blessed to have you at his side. He is loved beyond words and knows it. That's all he really wants or needs. His mama.

You are not alone my dear. You have us by your side every moment. I'll check back in the morning.

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Hey, checking in to see if you were about. Not the news your or us were wanting. But pleased to hear our boy is still holding his own and is comfortable, long may it continue. Big hugs xxxxx

Tina, I am here, too. Right by your side. You are being strong for Jasper, and we are being strong for you. Any time you need us, just close your eyes and let us lift you up. Please give Jasper an enormous hug for all his family here. We love you both dearly!

I'm so sorry, Tina...my prayers are with you and Jasper. Sometimes life is just not fair.

Dear Tina,

First, many hugs to you and belly rubs to Jasper. I know how terrifying and devastating a cancer diagnosis is to all connected.

From now on, live in the moment, doing your best not to look at the next minute, day, week, or month. Just right now is all that matters....right now is all any of us are promised. Do the things you and Jasper love most, give him the foods he loves most, talk to him constantly always letting him know how grateful you are for this moment with him. Hug him, hold him, carry him, touch him as much as possible, spoil him rotten every minute of the day. Be positive and upbeat for both of your sakes - even if you have to fake it, which you will.

When those times come in which you are simply over-come and cannot pretend one second longer, find your quiet, safe space and fall apart. Cry, sob, scream, barter, bargain, beat your fists on the wall, break something - whatever it takes so that you can return to Jasper with a smile and hug. Where ever that quiet, safe place is you tape a note to the wall that says, "I am not alone" - and know deep in your Soul that is a truth no one and nothing can take from you.

More hugs and belly rubs,
Leslie and the gang

I do all my crying and screaming in the car...of course it works better at night when no one can see you...it's a little embarrassing in the morning when people stare at me.

Oh Tina, I'm sorry to hear this news... but thank you for having the courage and strength to come and share it with us. Now we know how to pray and can stand with you and Jasper, holding you both close. Many hugs for both of you. Group hugs are the best.

Shana

My heart goes out to you and Jasper -- it is so hard to be strong under these circumstances but we know you can be that person for Jasper. Hold him close and please give him a hug from us!

Tina {{{{HUGS}}}} crap and crap again. Anger is natural. It is so unfair after you have both survived so much.
Every day and minute counts for so much. I know you will enjoy every single moment with him.

Tina, life deals some unfair turns and I understand how unfair this is for Jasper.

We will always be here for you and Jasper. We hold you both close to our hearts.

I have no wise words, just that I care.

Yes, we care sooooo much Tina. (((((((Hugs)))))))

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Thinking of you both.

Hugs and loving hugs from me too.

Thinking of you, Tina. ((hugs))

It's just me hanging around Tina.;)

Guess who???

Good morning Tina! Still me!!!! :cool:

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Still me!! Because I care so very much. ;)

I lit a candle for you and Jasper on our candle lighting page.

Thinking of you both. xxxooo

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