Apollo,missing you,1 year, 5 months

I've still got both tasha and tipsy original medical records. They passed many many years ago. Every time I think I really need to get rid of these, I just can't do it. Maybe this year I'll be able to. We'll see. I am not overly worried about it, I don't look through them or anything, they are just there. Weird eh.

So don't sweat it, old paperwork is small stuff, life is the big stuff, how you live and get through the days, the joy of Ariel, those are more important that whats in the cupboard box. :)

hugs Sonja

I think sometimes we are pushed too much to move on from the loss of a beloved fur baby. In my opinion, the problem isn't with the people that are grieving. It is with the people who are pushing. There is no rush. No timetable. Do as much as you feel comfortable with and let the rest go for now. That's what I do.;)

I have tommy and tammys ashes in a spare bedroom with their favourite blanket and tommy has his rabbit - the only toy he played with the last 6 years of his life. I have their records and other bits and pieces that I also don't look at but will never get rid of. I miss both of them every day but boy am I glad they were with me for 14 and 12 years. Two amazing little creatures... Everyone grieves in their own way and there is no wrong or right way and no time limits

Dear Sharlene,Robert,Kathy,thank you for sharing with me. Like you all said,I was pleased to have my boy for 14 years. I will always miss him and the grief just pops up every once and awhile. I have a lot of Apollo's things. I kept trying to throw away an old worsen out bed,but I just can't. My husband is very supportive and says don't do it if you can't. The imprint this fur ball has on me is deep.
Love you all
Sonja,Apollo, little Ariel.
This forum has helped,supported me,kept me from falling apart so many times.

My sweet Apollo. Today your baby sister, Karma died,at 1p.m. in Daddy's arms. She was 16 years old. She was the last hold we had on you. You both grew up together. Take good care of her. Daddy and I are heartbroken.
Love Mommy

They are already together dear Sonja. Apollo knew that Karma was on her way and was waiting at the gate with the others to welcome her.

Fly free sweet Karma, fly free!

I am so sorry for you loss. Surrounding you and hubby with much love and tight hugs.

Kathy

Oh Sonja. I am so sorry. I know you are heart broken. :(. My sincerest condolences on your loss.

Oh Sonja, I am so sorry, too. My heart aches for you doubly -- for losing precious Karma and also for losing that last connection with Apollo. I do believe I understand, at least a little bit. I know that when my sweet Peg goes to Rainbow Bridge, I will feel as though a final connection with Barkis will be lost to me, as well. So the pain will cut twice as deeply and be just that much harder to bear.

I hope it may give you some comfort to know that Karma is now honored on our special memorial thread here, too. She has been a part of our family all these years, alongside Apollo and alongside you. So for sure, she is an honorary Cushpup, too :o. Also, it will be our privilege to add a photo link to her name. You can just let me know about that whenever your wish.

I know this first new day without Karma will be especially hard. Please know that your family here is grieving right alongside you.

I send you so many hugs across the miles, Sonja. I so wish that I could do more.
Marianne

So sorry for your loss. Karma and Apollo are now reunited and pain free....

Sonja, I am so sorry to hear about Karma. I know she and Apollo are running together in the Rainbow Fields, happy to be together again. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your hubby in the weeks ahead.

Hugs,
Leslie

FRIEND

I lost a treasured friend today
The little dog who used to lay
Her gentle head upon my knee
And shared her silent thoughts with me.

She’ll come no longer to my call
Retrieve no more her favourite ball
A voice far greater than my own
Has called her to his golden throne.

Although my eyes are filled with tears
I am thankful for the happy years
She spent down here with me
And for her love and loyalty.

When it is time for me to go
And join her there, this much I know
I shall not fear the transient dark
For she will greet me with a bark.

~Author Unknown

Dear Leslie and all thank you for kind words. I will copy into Karma's memorial album.
Sonja,Apollo,Karma and little Ariel

Dearest Sister, I was stunned to hear this devastating news and am so sorry i was not here for you.

Oh Sonja, how hard things have been lately for us both. We are still sisters in battle, just fighting a different battle.

Know that I care, I have Shingles now and just finished saying goodbye to our house today.

Fly free dear Karma, run to Apollo and Zoe who are waiting with open arms.

Love
Addy

My dear sister in arm. Thank you. You are also under a lot of stress. Our armor is getting rusty.
Sonja, Apollo,Karma ,and little Ariel

Today ,my little boy, my little Angel, Apollo ,September 9,2012, 3 years since you passed. Baby, I miss you every day. You were my one and only. Didn't think I'd be crying today. But here I am again. You brought me so much joy,love,companionship,acceptance,support,laughter . I am so grateful to have shared 14 years with you. Never will be enough. You are a part of my heart and soul. Losing Karma, July 16,2015, was the last piece of you I had. Take good care of your sister. Like Zoe you both were brave and courageous to fight for so long. I love you all.
Your Mom
Sonja
I light a candle for you today.

Remembering and celebrating dear Apollo with you. I can't believe it has been this long. :(

Remembering yours and all the bubs that have passed. Time goes so strangely - Tommy will have been gone two years September 26 - sometimes it is like he was here yesterday and other times it's like 20 years. Only thing in common with both feelings is missing them"......

Oh Sonja, I was stunned to think it has been 3 years since our beautiful, proud boy left us. Robert is right about how strange time is.

Losing Karma is still so new, so painful. I think it makes the 3 year mark harder.

However, Karma was not the last piece of Apollo for he did lead you to Ariel. They too are connected, just in a different way.

Sweet sister, big hugs and much love. I hope you can get away even for a night. I had forgotten how that feels and the wonder of it all, the surprise. I let it go on too long and now realize it was not good for me.

Koko and Ariel will be here in the now for us. I know it is not the same but maybe that is good for us too, in the long run.

A friend of mine , who lost her dog suddenly wrote this:

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Now that I am gone I have a letter for you.

You were with me until the end. And even after I was already gone, you kept me a while. I saw you cry. I would like tell you, that I understood everything. You did this last decision just for me. And you were wise. It was time for me to go. Thank you for your understanding. No one will take my place. But those who come after me, need the love and affection that I had . You always think of me. These are moments where you're so infinitely sad. Please, do not think back full of grief. Think about how happy we were. And if you must let go of the next companion forever, then I will wait at the Rainbow Bridge for them. I will thank them, that they also made you happy. And I'll watch over them - for you! I thank you that you loved me , took care of me and had the courage to let me go with dignity. Your faithful companion

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I needed to read this. Think about you a lot my baby boy, Apollo
with love always.

Dearest Sonya,

Thinking of you and your sweet and precious little boy. I know how much you miss that baby, but we feel sooo Blessed they were in our lives and enriched every single day.

Thank you for that letter. It was beautifully written. Our babies will always love us.

Tight hugs Sonya!
OOJeanette

Thinking of you today, Sonja. I know September was such a hard month and now withou Karma as well. I send much love and hugs

The days are getting shorter and colder and my thoughts keep turning to all of you and of course Zoe.

I hope Ariel is well. Koko is just being Koko and that is fine for me though the townhouse is just as quiet as Knollwood was without Zoe.

How many years dear sister in arms have we now been blessed to know each other? I remember back to those early days, the laughter and the tears.

Know that I care and I am sorry I have not been here much. I feel badly I was missing when we lost Karma.

Always with me, Sonja.

Hugs forever

Dear Addy,
You and our babies are always with me. I have felt this wariness of late. I miss so much reading about Zoe's adventures, her courage. I will always feel Apollo in my heart and soul. Last night I couldn't sleep, so I played the music box, Apollo so loved, watched Apollo's and Karma's video and saw the joy ,laughter, love, and sorrow near the end. Could not stop crying. 3 months since Karma past, missing my babies.
Sonja, Apollo, Karma, Ariel
P.s.Doug missed Karma so much he adopted a little, mini pincher/dachshund mix. We named her Kristin( in memory of Karma,her middle name) but they both were our one and onlys.

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Originally Posted by apollo6

A friend of mine , who lost her dog suddenly wrote this: I needed to read this. Think about you a lot my baby boy, Apollo with love always.

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This is so beautiful. Thank you for sharing. I lost my boy nearly a year ago very suddenly. Then I lost my girl barely three months ago after some serious highs and lows from her cushings. I am struggling every day. This letter really touched me. Thank you again

Today is your birthday Oct 12, 1998-Sept 9,2012.
I sang Happy Birthday and lite a candle for you today. You are my one and only as Karma is Doug's one and only.
Everyone said how special you were. Regal, proud, and strong. When I was down or cried, you'd lick my tears. You so loved it when we would rest on the couch, you on my stomach just looking at me a letting out a sigh of happiness to be with me. So many memories, joy, laughter(crawling into the sleeve of my housecoat, stuck with only your head out) Trying to make sure I could not leave the house without you, sneaking you in to places you were not allowed to. Flying with you in the plane, you were such a good boy. Only once did you make a growl sound when a mean stewardess walked by the aisle,and secretly everyone was glad you did. I could go on.
Take care of your sister Karma( she was always trying to get you to chase her) and watch over our Zoe(your girlfriend, but knowing Zoe, she has many Suitors) Have a great birthday with Buddy, Squirt and the others.
My sweet Angel. Mommies little Angel
Sonja

Remembering our brave Apollo on this his special day.

Happy birthday Apollo hope it's a great one with all your friends

Thinking of you and Apollo. I think he and Zoe probably lit up heaven celebrating, don't you think?

Zoe probably ate too much birthday cake and Apollo probably had fun chasing her around the beautiful fields.

Oh Sonja, they are always in our hearts and on our minds, those two specials pups of ours. Maybe fifteen years from now it won't hurt so.
Sometimes time stands still when it comes to heartache.

Happy belated birthday Apollo. May you celebrate with Zoe for a whole week!

Happy Birthday, Apollo! Watch out for Squirt...she will steal your cake and chase all your balloons! :p

Dear Sonja, what a beautiful life you and Apollo had together. .On his special day ,thank you for sharing details of his life with us. They made me smile. You and I and Kiki and Apollo are so much alike. Love Dawn & Kiki

Mommy's little angel, Apollo.
It is over three years since you past, and 5 months since your sister Karma past. I miss you both so much. I wish every one a blessed Thanksgiving. I am thankful for the 14 years I had with you and 16 years with your sister.
My little brave man, you fought so hard the last two years of your life. I used to say we are going to fight Cushing and for awhile we did. I will always miss you,love you. Even now people remember how special you are. My boy.
Love always
To all the cushing babies gone and still here. You are our angels and hero's always in our hearts.

Happy Thanksgiving, dear sister. It is hard this time of year so I send huge hugs and lots of smooches too!

Send them back to me as I Surely need them, can't get our pups off my mind and hold back the tears

Know you will always mean the world to me, gentle friend.

Dear Addy, right back at you, love and hughs. You never get over what we and our babies endured. You just learn to live with it, realize what a profound imprint these fur balls had on us, Apollo, Zoe, and what brave little soldiers they and we were. And when it hits,the tears mean how much we loved and will always love them.
Sonja,Apollo, Karma, Ariel

Sonja, sending you lots of hugs.

Reading these beautiful post makes me so sad. I have been away from the forum for quite some time. I unfortunately came back to let you all know about the passing of my sweet little guy Alex. I recognize some of your names from 2011. Just heartbreaking to see that you have also lost your babies. I just want to thank you all again for being there for Alex and me. I hope all your precious babies are there to greet Alex so he won't be lonely.💔
Fondly,
Cindy

Christmas is not the same without you. You would tear through your presents and any other one near you. I think you were visiting me today. We went out for dinner and they played the song I put on your memorial video. The tears just started flowing on my face. We went to the place overlooking the Pacific Ocean,where we had Karma's memorial ceremony and one little humming bird was flying in the bushes. My sweet little soul mate, miss you every day and your sister Karma. Always in my heart. Love Mommy
Sonja
To all the cushpups here and gone,you are loved and remembered now and forever . The forum has gotten me through the trials, challenges, joy, sadness and losses. I am a better person because of all your love and support.

I joined after you lost Apollo. He sounds like quite the character! You're right that we just learn to live with the loss of our fur friends. Hugs! May you have a blessed 2016.

"Sometimes it is like he was here yesterday and other times it's like 20 years. Only thing in common with both feelings is missing them" Such a true statement!

Cindy, hi.

I'm sorry for your loss of Alex. Hugs!

My sweet little angel,
You come to my heart at night often. I am so blessed to have had you in my life. Because I love you so, I have my Apollo moments and the tears just flow. Some day,you will be waiting to greet me in heaven. Until then I will always carry you in my heart and soul.
Love my sweet little boy.
Sonja

Hi Sonja,

I have recently joined this forum as the dog of my heart has been diagnosed with Cushing's. My precious Lena will be 15 in March and I am so afraid of the day I will have to let her go. My heart hurts for you. As I read your posts, I feel your pain and sorrow and I pray that you will find peace.

It's so hard to know whether we are doing the right thing for our precious ones. We love them so much that we will try anything if we think it will make them better so they can stay with us longer.

But then we question ourselves...are we doing the right thing? When is it time to stop trying? How much is too much? Are we making them better or worse?

I have only just begun this journey with Lee, even though the symptoms must've started a couple of years ago, so subtle that they didn't register as "red alert", even after bringing her to the vet because of them. I will always blame myself for that. But now, with this site, I am learning more and will have more knowledge, so that I can advocate for her with the vet instead of just blindly doing what they say.

She is having a good day, so far. But we have an ACHT test scheduled at 11:00, which will upset her. I will stay with her the 2 hours to make her feel better. I will read while she naps in my lap, or on the bench next to me. We get a cheeseburger on the way home and park by the ocean and share it...this way she has something to look forward to. I will do anything for my baby, as you did for yours...and they know it.

Thinking of you,
Joan

Hi Sis,

Missing Apollo right along with you, hugs and love and hopes for a visit from our boy, Zoe too to dry our tears. Maybe a hummingbird or some other sign is always so heartfelt welcoming.

Trying not to remember this month, pretending it is not February but had to get your necklace out to wear and hold.

Never to be forgotten, forever remembered, always loved and held so dear.

Apollo, go find Zoe and both of you frolic with cream on your noses, bark and wrestle and just have the best time ever. I can close my eyes and see you chasing each other, jump the rainbows and bark, bark, woof!

Love you, Sonja

Dear Addy
It warms my heart picturing ou babies like you said. Apollo's sister , Karma may be jealous of Zoe taking her brother.:
Sonja, Apollo

Thinking of you and Apollo and Karma. I hope Ariel is well.
Days are flying by, where does the time go?

So many memories here, so many are good ones and make me smile. Easier to forget the painful ones now. Must be healing.

Love you