Confused and Overwhelmed-Diagnosed Anal Sac Carcinoma (Woody has passed)

Is so annoying when your physically tired but your brain won't switch off. Hopefully it will right itself soon, it did take me a fair few months.

Maybe just play your games for a while tonight rather than forcing yourself. Reading does actually make me sleepy at night time so hopefully you can get to the library and maybe try that.

I am going to head off now and try for some sleep myself, if I can't I will come back

Catch you soon

Night night

Mel
Xxxxx

Night Night Have a good Friday xx

Ugh I just got a reminder email from my dentist that I have an appointment for a cleaning in a couple weeks. *sigh*

I do not like not being able to sleep grrrrrrrr I have to admit that I love my sleep time, LOL, and get really aggravated at myself if I can't sleep. Usually that only happens if I am very upset about something, then I have a horrid time sleeping.

Yay, Friday night with your mate will be fun, even if you are getting the taking care of yourself inquisition. :) They care :)

hugs,
Sharlene and Molly Muffin

I am a right grump if I do not have a good sleep, so feel for you there. I am looking forward to a bit of a lie in tomorrow morning :D How's your Mums eye doing? Hope she is feeling OK.

I think I would fit right into your Friday night drinks with your mate being the food police and all! Have a good day and catch up on the weekend sometime xxx

Tracy:
Sorry you got your sleep messed with. I hope you feel better from your dental appointment. It is good though that you are taking care of yourself now. Blessings
Patti

Hi Tracy

You have a good night last night with your mates? Hope the teeth are not giving you any trouble. Quiet morning here so far, still in my drinking green tea and getting the laundry done mode :) x

Hi Trish

Thought you might be around. Tooth isn,t too bad, but my gum is sore where I got the injections, , got to go back next Tuesday for another filing yuk !

Good night last night, my mate had her grand kids staying so I ended up getting beat on the playstation at some game and watching the Smurf movie which I have to say I rather enjoyed lol

Did you manage to get Flynn in to see your dad today x

Oh no, one dentist visit is enough, but two *shudder* , get some of that baby teething gel if it keeps up sore, might help numb it. But that sounds like a fun evening Tracy, nothing like kids to get your attention! I am not surprised the whupped your butt at the playstation :D:D I am hopeless at that kind of thing. Candy Crush is my guilty pleasure though!

Yes, we took him to the hospital yesterday. Wheeled Dad down to the café which has an outside area. So nice to see them together. We have weird weather at the moment, yesterday was so hot and so windy. Walked Flynn up the beach last night and the sea was rough and coming in sideways, had so much spray in the air I could hardly see out my sunnies, Flynn was nearly going backwards :D

That,s good they got to see each other. I,ve given up on Candy Crush am no onto Pet Rescue Saga lol

Weird weather, least you can still wear sunnies, we have had hail, wind and heavy rain for 2 days now, so the village has flooded again, I couldn,t get out to get to the supermarket luckily we have a small village shop.

I take it Flynn is still doing well ?

I nearly gave up on candy crush too, some levels are just too hard :mad: Then all of a sudden you get it, more good luck that good playing I think! I have been ignoring all the pet saga rescue requests, jeepers I do not need to start another one!!

Yes, Flynny is good... perhaps a little quieter last couple of days. I have been trying to find out if I can get cheaper meds. The three I get from the vet cost me $313, I did not quite realise just how much they were as he usually has other procedures or blood testing etc at the same time. But this month it is pills only!! Yesterday I took the benzapril out the packet and there were only 13 instead of the 35 meant to be in there :eek: when they cost over $4 a pill I want to make sure I get them all :) I rang the surgery to speak to the nurse but for some reason Mike answered, so he must be on call for weekend. He was a little cranky that had happened so hope I have not some poor nurse in trouble but the rest will be there for me to collect. The liver supplement I am giving is Samilyn and that is like $145 per month too :eek: I cannot find it online here either. I don't mind paying, but if I can get it cheaper it would be great. The amlodipine is cheap as chips so it is only the other two breaking the bank!

Gads Trish that is expensive, I thought our prices here were high, but compared to some on the forum the Uk are pretty reasonable. I was lucky Woody only took the heart tablet and that was £60 per month, although Craig never charged me for consultations which should have been £25 every time, but I don,t think he charged me any off them ;)

I got Woody,s final invoice in the other day, so I decided to tally up all of them from the hospital whoa it was a lot but luckily the insurance paid most of it.

Mike is the same, he does not charge me for some checkups either, and never for the many phone calls he makes just to check up on us. Some of these vets are worth their weight in gold... literally!

I am too scared to tally everything up for Flynn, I think it would equal the deposit for a small house! Yep I am paying more for Flynn's monthly meds, than power, internet, phone and cable TV combined!

Sh1t, thank god I had insurance. Bruno my old dog was the same it cost me £10k over his last 2 years with me, with surgery and his many meds and he wasn,t insured. I learned my lesson with him and so Woody was insured as will any other furry friend I have, its a godsend specially for surgery and specialist.

When is your dad expected out of hospital. I had mum at the eye clinic on Friday, goodness her surgeon is easy on the eye lol They have discovered that one of the dissolving stitches on the underside of the lid hasn,t properly dissolved and this is causing her the pain and problems as its rubbing on the eye, she has a bandage lens in to help but may need another little op to get it out. Always something

Wish I had insurance, it did not even enter my mind until it was too late. I have learned my lesson too and any future pets will have it.

Oh ouch, a rubbing stitch on your eye would hurt like heck! Scratch the cornea too I would imagine. Hope she is OK Tracy and does not need more surgery.

Once this last load of washing is through I am heading over to the hospital with Mum, Flynn will stay behind today. I really wish the anaemia could be addressed, it is not low enough for transfusion but it is making him a little dizzy at times.. but he does have menieres too so hard to say what is causing it. Plus he is a teeny bit breathless, maybe I will get the registrar to come talk to me today if he is on call. I cannot see the Drs in the morning as I am working a 2 hr drive north of here tomorrow. So we will see how he is today. Generally doing pretty good, I set him up in the dayroom before I left yesterday so he could watch the horseracing on tv which is a favourite pastime of his!

Speaking to the register would be a good idea Trish, not to keen on the breathlessness. Hospitals are so boring when your a patient, our hospitals have done away with most of the day rooms now and have installed TV units over the beds which can be watched with headphones but you have to pay for them. When mum was in it cost me £10 per night for her to watch 3 hrs of TV its a rip off.

Anyway best wishes to your dad and hope he is home soon, I,m heading to bed see if I can sleep. Good to catch up

xx

Have a good sleep Tracy, glad your getting there a bit earlier. Sweet dreams! x

Hey you

Hope your ok? How's things going?

Did you hear back yet re the job?

Mel
Xxxxxx

Hey Mel

Things not to bad, not heard back from job yet :(

How have you been, how was work ?

Typical, hopefully you will hear in the next couple of days...

Not great. That's why I have been absent, things keep cropping up!

How you been doing? Have you been cooking for yourself?

I thought that,s why you had been absent, you just have to keep plodding on.

I,ve been not bad, suffering a lot of headaches, so went to doctor today and its as I thought tension headaches, she has given me a relaxing cd to listen to at bedtime to help me relax. She reckon my not getting much sleep is my body has forgotten how to sleep, so I have to teach myself how to sleep again lol :) Suppose it makes sense as I,ve not slept properly since April last year.

Not been really cooking much, haven,t really felt up to it, but have been eating :)

Sorry to hear that, you have been through a lot recently though. Never heard of GP's giving out CD's. What sounds does it play? I always think water is a great one. My house was right next to a stream when I was growing up so I always opened the window to fall asleep to that sound.

How us your mum doing now! Is it feeling any better?

I,ve not listened to it yet lol. Mum is better had her back at hospital on Friday and it appears one of her dissolving stitches isn,t dissolving properly and this is what is rubbing on her eye causing pain, the eye doctor put in a bandage lens bit like a contact lens to stop it rubbing on her eye until it dissolves so she is feeling better.

Yeah I was a bit surprised when the doc gave me a cd today, she was very nice about it all, she kept saying grief is a powerful thing, but I do have to look after myself which I knew, I just wanted to make sure my headaches were nothing more than the stress/anxiety. I,ve to go and get my bloods taken tomorrow just to check everything. So we will see if her cd works lol x

Hate needles. A lot. Always go squiffy when they take blood, my veins disappear :eek: Best to check to be sure, you mentioned your thyroid before so I know that can do all sorts if it's out of whack!

Poor mum, must feel funny for her having that in her eye all the time.

So you haven't been able to get to sleep any earlier then?

No not really, I,ve been going to bed earlier around 11/11.30 instead of my usual 2 am and although I have been shattered, I,ve not slept more than 3 hours at a time. When the light goes off, my brain kicks in and everything runs through it, no matter how hard I try and empty my mind I can,t sleep, so in theory the cd should help me relax, switch off my brain and sleep, but we,ll see if it works lol

I used to be afraid of needles and would pass out at blood samples, but I,ve had so many of them over the years of my thyroid and other medical issues I have that I got used to them, so they don,t bother me at all now. Yes my thyroid can throw my whole body out of whack when its not controlled properly so best get it checked, I usually can tell when its not controlled as my hair starts to fall out, but its ok at the moment.

I have little Mac coming to stay this weekend, looking forward to it ;)

I will be curious to know what it plays and if it helps. I do hope it does. Maybe by forcing yourself to hear it you will relax.

Good it doesn't bother you now, I guess you would get used to it in the end!

Awesome you will have a little pal for a few days. Am sure you will spoil him rotten :D. Hopefully the weather will clear up so you guys can get out and about.

We have had rain and more rain the last few days and a couple of hail stone storms. Is freezing tonight mind! Have you had the same?

Yip pretty much the same, the river burst its banks on Saturday again and flooded the village, I couldn,t drive through it to get out, as it was over the wheels of the car, so had to stay in. My garden is like puddle city, as the ground is so wet it has nowhere to go. I just wonder when it will stop :eek:

The cd has a website on it, www.stepsforstress.org It says steps to deal with stress and simple ways to stress less and enjoy life more. I,ll give it a bash, I,m at the stage I,ll try anything, as I,m struggling to function properly during the day with no sleep, and I don,t do well with little sleep I get really cranky :eek:

Sorry Boyce got back up and decided he did want his quick walk tonight. He did go to bed but must have woke him up. He has now gone back to bed!!

It just seems like it will never end. There is no where for anymore water to go. Not good you get stuck like that and can't use your car!

It does definitely affect the temperament after a while, it is vicious circle, good they didn't just palm you off with sleeping pills as they can only be a temporary solution. Might be worth you trying something like nytol to go with the CD.

Mmm might give the nytol a go, she offered me sleeping tablets but I said no. At least Boyce is all settled now back in his bed tucked up for the night :)

It's natural. I am not a fan of tablets either but might be worth giving it a shot.

He has a cheek, make me go out then bugger off again! Can hear the cheeky monkey snoring now!

Did you make it to the library yet?

He,s not daft that Boyce one is he :p Staffies do snore rather loudly don,t they, well any that I,ve known have :D

Not made it to library yet but will go tomorrow, we don,t have a library in the village so will need to go over to the town to join one. Between reading, and my relaxing cd I should be sleeping like a baby once more :D

Do you think work will be a shocker again this week.

No, he proper knows how to play me!

I hope you enjoy it, as it will be something else you can do to fill your time.

Probably, tomorrow is reporting day so have that fun to look forward too

I think they all know how to play their owners, I know Woody knew how to play me lol

Blargh to reporting day tomorrow keep your chin up its got to get better soon (fingers crossed)

I,m off to try my relaxation cd, see what it has to offer me lol Hopefully I will sleep. I,ll let you know how i get on.

Take care

xxx

Good luck, hopefully it's relaxing :D

Speak soon

Mel
Xxxx

Well, now isn't that cool about the cd. I hope it helps to put you into relaxation mode and able to get some much needed sleep. The world always looks better with proper sleep I think. It might not be, but it looks like it is. LOL

Wow, that is a lot of water you all have. I hope you get some nice dry weather coming your way. :)

Mel I do hope that you get a break soon, and no so many work issues cropping up.

hugs,
Sharlene and Molly Muffin

Wow hope the CD helps, good on your GP and you going for non-drug interventions, hope it works!! Sometimes with the sleepers you just need a couple of nights though, just to break the habit and give you a decent nights sleep then hopefully your body will click back into normal routine. Still hard when your mind is thinking thinking when you're trying to fall asleep.

I had a taped one many years ago to help stop smoking, the trouble was they guy doing the talking had a really strong European accent and I could not relax while listening to it! One thing I do use now to help me sleep is an app, it has the sound of rain on the roof... or a tent.... or against windows, all sorts of rain situations! Soft, medium, loud :D Sometimes it just make me want to pee :eek::eek::D:D Plus you have had so much rain lately you hardly need it raining from your phone!

Hope it lulled you off to sleep and you had a good night. Cold here the last couple of days, even had the heater on last night, crazy for January! A group of my friends went out to celebrate one of their birthdays tonight, so have had a lovely evening with tasty food.... garlic and chili prawn noodles with salad... yum yum!! Need bed, it is nearly midnight... I sprung Dad out of hospital this arvo for a night at home in his bed, have to have him back there for the ward round at 8am, so best I get to bed soon. Hope your Mum's eye is OK and not paining her too much. xxx

Omg Trish!
I had to laugh at the pee comment.
You sound like me.

Daisy just has to look at me and I'm done for. Over the years I have developed a resistance to her charms though. lol

Hi Tracy:
I am hoping you will hear about the job. That will be nice to have your friends dog over to watch and hear the pitter patter of little feet again. Hope your CD for relaxation works. Blessings
Patti

Hi Everyone

Well the cd didn,t work, but it says it will take a few days, so will stick with it.

I had to go to the dentist this morning, I have an infected tooth and needed ABs before he can fix it, maybe that's why I,ve been feeling yukie the last few days with the infection. Since Woody left I appear to be falling to pieces :eek: I think now that I don,t have to be on form to look after him my body has went into meltdown :D

Good to hear you sprung your dad out of the hospital Trish, even if it was only for the one night, you can,t beat your own bed ;) I hope he can come home soon for good.

So if I am not around later, please keep the noise down as I will be fast asleep .......hopefully :p

Well I hope you do get to fall asleep and get some good rest. Yep, stick with it and see what happens. Give it a week at least, minimum.

Oh yea, an infected tooth will make you feel horrible! Worn out, worn down and in general, crappy.

Take the AB's and get rest! Don' t make me tell Woody on you!! :) :)

hugs,
Sharlene and Molly Muffin

Well my cd must have worked as I slept a very peacefully 9 hours, :eek: the most I,ve slept ever I think. I think between the AB,s and the cd I almost feel alive today. Woke up feeling refreshed and able to face the day ahead :) Long may it continue

Been today and got my eyes tested, need new reading glasses so can pick them up next week, so I,ve been to doctors, dentist, opticians this week could I actually be starting to look after myself now. Not heard from the job so can assume I didn,t get it but not worried as there will be others