Squirt - my Queen has crossed The Bridge

Hope is a beautiful thing............to what you said......yes hope is a beautiful thing to have. Amen.
huge smile, and felt complete warm smile and love just flush all over reading about the last couple of days. I am so happy for all of this.

Squirt was HUNGRY this morning! :) She actually danced around, patted my feet walking down the hall, and whined for her food. Exciting, yes? and no.

She hasn't had any Lyso since last Mon. and that was only 62.5 mg. I don't know if the appetite increase is due to the cortisol going up or because she is finally starting to get over the seizure and Proin. She is displaying no other cush signs - no excess drinking or peeing, still resting well day and night, not seeking cool places, not hiding, not shedding, and still no leaking. I am torn completely in half - I do NOT want to do anything that will diminish the appetite again causing her to go off her feed but nor do I want to let the cortisol start raging possibly putting her in need of a load. An ACTH is flat out of the question unless I sell a LOT of stuff - which ain't been happening tho I have sold some things...enough to pay for this recent ordeal anyway. So for now, I'm tiptoeing around watching her like a hawk and am going to withhold the Lyso for a bit longer....I think. :rolleyes:

It's tough feeling so happy to see her acting more like her usual self yet worrying about the reason for it. I think for today I will just be happy to see her feeling better. :)

Leslie:
Glad to hear Squirt is wanting her food now. I am right there with you about the cause. It's a shame the cush mom seldom if ever gets a worry free day. God Bless
Patti

Maybe, right now, Squirts needs her cortisol to run a bit higher, so I believe holding off on the Lyso will do her more good than harm.

Sending you both tons of loving hugs, Lori

Reasons for the hunger aside, she was happy and dancing around your feet. That is enough reason for celebration anyway! :D And as Lori said, it may pay to have her run a little higher at the moment anyway. Surely holding off a little longer wont let it get away from you.

Happy, hungry and dancing at your feet! :D YAY!!!!!!!!!!:D
For the moment, just enjoy!:)

Hugs,
Kathy and Buddy:cool:

We are all dancing at your feet too, great news.

I cant advise about the Lyso dose. I know you dont want to have to do a load and I dont blame you.

(((((((hugs))))))))))))))))

Everything seems to vary, day by day doesn't it. :) A happy Squirt though, is a happy momma :)

hugs,
Sharlene and Molly Muffin

Hi dear Leslie,

Yes, you are seeing correctly. It's me, the Princess's mommy. lol...I just read up on your Squirt, and I am very happy to see she has eaten for you. Gosh, I think by far, that is our biggest concern with these babies. When they don't eat, we certainly panic. I know I do. I think you also, any of us. So I hope she keeps this up for you and her so you can continue your path on loving each other up, not that you don't do that anyway.

Always thinking of many here on the forum, so many, specially you, Squirt and the whole gang.

Tight ones..

xo Jeanette

Hi Leslie
I can never thank you enough for all the kindess,love and support you and all the members have shown me since I lost my Fella.The shock has somewhat lessened and I'm just starting to read thru the threads that are posted here.So much love found on this board!!If only all dogs could have such wonderful moms!Glad to hear your little Squirt is eating!I hope in the next few weeks I'm able to go thru each and every thread and get to know and love your babies as much as you all have loved my Fella!Finding all of you was Fella's gift to me.I've never felt alone for one single minute because of all of you and just wanted to say thanks!Love and hugs to you and your "gang"!
Love,
Patty

Leslie,
take the positive things and run with them!
Eating is good:) Happy dancing too!

Yay Squirt, way to go, make your Mamma happy!!!

Hi Ya'll,

I cannot believe how much better Squirt is doing. Her appetite is still good most of the time, sometimes off in the mornings but for the most part, very good. Not the cush appetite either even tho she hasn't had any Lyso since 3 weeks ago yesterday. She is displaying no cush signs whatsoever in fact! :confused: But still not complaining! :p She is back on her home cooked and enjoying it once again, thankfully! Tho she refuses to eat the salmon. :rolleyes:

She's had a couple of morning tummy upsets, vomiting bile after waking up, but I've started giving her some treats after we go to bed and that seems to be helping as she hasn't had this happen since the nighttime treats. I hope it's just that her tummy gets too empty over night. ;)

I was watching her sleep last nite and was overcome with gratitude at how well she rests now. She no longer pops up as if in pain, doesn't feel the need to get up and reposition constantly, her breathing is vastly improved as is the panting, and the lip smacking/air licking has all but stopped. She has had very few leaking incidents still as well.

Her shoulder seems to be healing finally and her limping is much less than it was. She is stronger, falling rarely. She knows when she needs help and when she doesn't. If she needs help, she will stand there until I pick her up; if she doesn't need help and I act like I am going to pick her up, she takes off, grinning like it's a new game! :p She often pats my feet while I'm walking like she always has and has initiated Piggies a few times recently!

I want to share with you one of the gifts this time has brought to Squirt and me. Squirt has never been one that wanted to be held or coddled - she is fiercely independent. When I would try to hold her and love on her, she would typically give me a quick kiss then squirm to get down and on about her business of the moment, plainly saying, "that's enough of that nonsense, Mom!" :D She has always enjoyed being held in my arms and looking at things from a new perspective, tho - she just didn't want to stay there in my arms very long. Now I hold her on the porch, which is about 6' off the ground and looks out into the woods by our house, and she is relaxed against my chest, not wanting down. I can feel her body tense as she sees, smells, or hears something out in the woods; I watch her little ears prick forward, her nose twitch and lift to scent the air; I see her eyes widen and light up with interest, and she will occasionally look at me as if to ask if I saw that, too. We stand on the porch, my Queen and I, and just absorb what Mother Nature is offering. There is an intense feeling of oneness and healing during these times, a blessing of such depth I cannot find the words to explain but wanted to share as best I can with our loving family here. Squirt has always been my teacher and she is now teaching me how to face her December Days. What an amazing gift this gigantic little Soul is to me.

Hugs,
Leslie and her Queen

Wow Leslie!!!
What a heartwarming cuddle story. It makes me think of Little House on the Prairie.:) I am thrilled that Squirt is doing so well and is able to continue to run her kingdom. :D It's all due to you!
Hugs and love to all,
Kathy and Buddy:cool:

Lelsie:
It would seem that Squirt the Queen is finally getting the miracle she deserves. I am so happy for you both. Isn't it amazing the things that we learn from our babies? The time spent with them is worth a million dollars to me. I am a cleaning fanatic, but this year I have not touched the house for spring cleaning. I usually have mine done in March. I just don't care about it as Tipper is my priority from now on. I don't know if we have a month a year or longer, but I want to be with her as much as I can. I do little things here and there when she is in a room napping with me, but that is it. I never want to think I wasted some of the time she has left doing stuff that is unimportant in the grand scheme of things. I am happy Leslie that you and your precious Squirt are enjoying some of the nice days out on the porch. I keep taking Tipper out, she is still afraid of noise because her cortisol is still low I guess. She stayed out for about a half and hour yesterday. I am aclimating her to it little by little. She used to love the outdoors and I could never get her in. Now every noise has her on edge, except for when she is walking she is ok then. I guess her mind is busy and she doesn't think about the noise as much. I just got done soaking her foot again, she has been leaving it alone for the most part. I am going to do it 3 times a day as it seem to be helping her from chewing and licking it, until my Vet gets in. He's out more than he's in. Great news on the eating also. That always makes you feel better when your baby is eating right. I hope the happiness and joy you feel continues forever as you are a wonderful mom to Squirt and you deserve some happy time. Blessings
Patti

awe.. love it. so glad you two are getting this time together & she is feeling good.

That is wonderful Leslie :) I can totally understand where you are coming from. Just the last few months, Rozee also one that never liked to be held, has been the same way. She now is feeling very comforted laying in my arms and falling asleep on my chest, which in turn give us a good feeling that we can provide that safety and comfort.

Enjoy all those wonderful moments that you share with sweet little Squirt.

Hi Leslie,

So glad Squirt is doing better. Years ago, my Molly was throwing up each morning just before it was time to get up. When I told my Vet, he suggested giving her a small amount of plain chicken & broth baby food before bed and it worked. He said she has acid reflux. He also recommends 1/4 tablet of regular strength pepcid A/C when necessary.

Dodie & molly

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Now I hold her on the porch, which is about 6' off the ground and looks out into the woods by our house, and she is relaxed against my chest, not wanting down. I can feel her body tense as she sees, smells, or hears something out in the woods; I watch her little ears prick forward, her nose twitch and lift to scent the air; I see her eyes widen and light up with interest, and she will occasionally look at me as if to ask if I saw that, too. We stand on the porch, my Queen and I, and just absorb what Mother Nature is offering. There is an intense feeling of oneness and healing during these times, a blessing of such depth I cannot find the words to explain but wanted to share as best I can with our loving family here.

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With your wonderful decripition I can see you two so vividly. Such a beautiful and loving bond you and Squirt share.

Love and hugs, Lori

Leslie,
Thanks for another wonderful post. It is so beautifully written, and so thoughtful and heartfelt. I am so happy to hear how well Squirt is doing, and I'm so glad you've found something to enjoy at this stage of her life. :)

Julie & Hannah

I see it from your view in my minds eye as I read it. You have a very descriptive way with words..

So chuffed she has perked up and that she isnt having too many issues from coming off all the pills

Long may Queen Squirt reign :)

Big hug, kisses for all your babies

Mel
Xxx

Leslie, that is so wonderful. You do paint a vivid picture of the two of you. I'm so glad that Squirt is getting better and really enjoying everything around her. You definitely put a smile on my face today!

hugs,
Sharlene and Molly Muffin

Hi Leslie
Loved hearing the tender moments you share with Squirt.Definitely moments to treasure.As stressful as Fella's last week was with all the vet appts and then the surgery,we had so many memorable moments that last week.He loved car rides and usually spent them jumping from the front seat to the back,hollering at the dogs out the window or at the big trucks.:).That whole week,he would just stare at me with those big brown eyes and jump over into my lap and curl against me as I was driving.He loved our private time,just him and I.I talked to him and told him everything I ever felt in my heart and it was as if he heard and understood every word I said.One of my favorite memories was on our way home after he recieved an acupunture treatment.Instead of being his usual restless self in the car,he jumped onto the floor of the backseat and curled himself in the center and fell fast asleep for the entire 3hr ride.He looked so peaceful,with his whole face pointed upwards towards the roof of the car,sound asleep.:).It's a beautiful feeling to connect to our babies as we do.It truly is a feeling that is very hard to put into words but warms the heart and soul.So glad you and Squirt are enjoying this time together!I am so grateful to have shared that with my little one as I know you are as well.

Leslie, I had a lovely feeling of peace when I read your story, love to you all xx

I hope there are many more porch days to come, dearest Leslie. I am so glad Squirt is feeling better.

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Hi Leslie
Just wanted to say thanks for that info on the doxy.I put it on my post but what a disgrace that a medication that used to be fairly inexpensive has now gone up 20x the amount just because the demand has become higher!It makes me so mad.I'm so fortunate this time around because I took out that loan but the cost can be a dealbreaker for so many,and would have been for me as well at many other times in my life.They don't make it easy!

On a better note,I hope Squirt is having a good day and you are enjoying every second of it!:).Have said it a thousand times,but am so grateful I found all of you!Thanks again!

I love those snuggle times with Daisy too!
She often curls her neck around mine as if to hug me :)

I once asked my father why it was so easy to relax and fall asleep with a dog next to you. He replied "you feel their love". It's so true and absolutely priceless!

Hey Leslie

Just checking in on you and queen Squirt, hope you are both having a good day

Big hug

Mel
Xxxxx

Your dad knows a thing or two it sounds like Valerie. :)
Nothing like sleeping next to a animal to make you feel relaxed and that all is right with the world.

Hope you are in major snuggle mode Leslie

hugs,
Sharlene and Molly Muffin

if a person could ever speak/write what love is, what it looks like, what it feels like..........it would be you. if ever a person could express in words the power of prayer, of near feeling hands upon you lifting you up in prayer, you express that so well, with out looking at directly at someone yet them feel your caring eyes, yes dear friend it is you. if ever you should write a book...or short stories, and have it reach out to the world...i believe you would surpass winning the lotto. your love is of true pure beauty to all you share it with, furbabies and pet parents everywhere i am sure thank you so much.

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if a person could ever speak/write what love is, what it looks like, what it feels like..........it would be you. if ever a person could express in words the power of prayer, of near feeling hands upon you lifting you up in prayer, you express that so well, with out looking at directly at someone yet them feel your caring eyes, yes dear friend it is you. if ever you should write a book...or short stories, and have it reach out to the world...i believe you would surpass winning the lotto. your love is of true pure beauty to all you share it with, furbabies and pet parents everywhere i am sure thank you so much.

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I agree 100%. Our Leslie is the best! :D

Have always been in awe of Leslie's way with words. I don't know another soul who can paint a living picture in my mind like her. You rock, Les.

Leslie:
God Bless you for your way with words. You have a wonderful gift. I hope this finds you and Squirt doing well. I guess you still haven't given any Lysodren?? Hope Squirt continues to improve. Blessings
Patti

Thanks ya'll. :o

This past week I reintroduced the Nettle (dry herb), the Get Up and Go, and the SAMe (liquid) and she has continued to eat her food with joy! Today I started the L-PhenyPet. Still no Lyso, no lignans, no melatonin - and still no signs. Maybe she's been cured! ;) She has had zero leakage as well - perhaps the Nettle is helping with that. She's had some discomfort but that is much less than it was and most of her day is spent asleep. At night after supper she wants in the bed just like she used to and stays all night, sleeping soundly.

My youngest grandson spent the weekend with me and we have had some great laughs together. This morning he gave me a box of Whitman chocolates for Mother's Day so we piled up in the bed and ate bonbons for breakfast, watching funny videos on YouTube. A wonderful, wonderful Mother's Day gift!

Then another gift from my Sweet Bebe just a few minute ago - something I wasn't sure I would ever see again. Watch this! (pardon the movement, I'm not too steady this morning! :D)

http://s752.photobucket.com/user/gir...1215f.mp4.html

What a GREAT Mother's Day at my house! I hope each of you celebrating this occasion, regardless of the skin your child wears, have a day as wonderful as mine.

Awe....so precious! Little Squirt looked so happy rolling around and then trotting back up to her momma! Between seeing that, knowing that Squirt is doing so well, and your sweet grandson, it sounds like you're having a wonderful Mother's day weekend! I'm so happy Squirt is doing well and is so happy. Seeing them happy is sometimes all we need for a little reassurance that we're doing the right thing, isn't it? Thanks for sharing, Leslie!

Julie & Hannah

Leslie,
I love the video!:) I can feel the joy along with Squirt. The best part was seeing the joy on her face! It helps us to remember to slow down and take time to appreciate the little things and not take life quite so seriously. We learn so much from our fur babies.;) thanks for sharing.:)

Love and hugs to you and the gang,
Kathyvand Buddy:cool:

Leslie:
I love the video, I put Tipper on my lap and showed her too. This is the very best Mothers Day present ever!!. It gave me such pleasure to see Squirt in a moment of splendor, of sheer doggy joy!! May she do this every day,and make her mothers heart filled with happiness!! Blessings
Patti

Oh Leslie!! Super big Hugs! I just had a few tears of happiness watching that video. It's so good to see Squirt being, well Squirt again. What a wonderful Mothers Day you've had!!

hugs,
Sharlene and Molly Muffin

Hi to both of you....what a lovely picture you've painted of you and Squirt on the porch....I can feel the peacefullness that you're experiencing.....
(((HUGS)))
Jo-Ann

Hi Leslie
Happy Belated Mother's Day!!Sounds like you had a wonderful one!I loved loved the video of Squirt!Thanks for sharing.I love seeing them rolling in the grass like that-they seem so happy.Grace does that every morning and she always makes me laugh!:)

Glad you had a great day and Squirt did too from the looks of it!Thanks for all that you do and the love you share.And yes,I agree with the others,you have a wonderful way with words.:).

And I did check with the vet about the "human" doxy dose and it is the same but thanks for bringing that to my attention.
Hope you and Squirt and your gang are all in good spirits and many more good days ahead for all of you!
Patty