My Pug Scoop (Precious Scoop has passed... )

Thanks Patti

I am so very sorry to read that you have lost your precious scoop. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Dodie & molly

Dodie and Molly-thank you.

It has been a week since my sweet Scoop passed away. It feels like an eternity. I still can't believe he is gone. I love and miss him so much my heart hurts.

Vicki:
Sweet Scoop will live on forever in your stories and memories, I miss hearing you post about him, and my heart is very heavy knowing how you are struggling to cope with this. God Bless you
Patti

Patti-Thank you
It has been very difficult.

A Dogs Message from Heaven

I am sending you this message as I can see you are still having struggles with coping each day since my passing.

You may walk in darkness and your heart is broken with my absence. I haven't left you as you hold me in your heart. Please don't be sad as the light will come shinning through for you. For each day of sunshine, think of it as reminder of me beaming down on you. Be happy that I am no longer in pain from sickness or injury. I don't want you grieving for me for long as it makes me sad to see you in so much hurt. Don't dwell on the guilt you feel for making decisions we both know you had to do and I thank you for trying so hard to help me.

Cry if you need to miss me if you must, but don't worry about me, I'm in a place I love.

Yesterday I talked with the Creator and he said you'd come one day. I wanted you to know this. So you see I'm happy and I am free. There's nothing to worry me. Dry your eyes and make plans to see me again. I will look for you and when you get here, you will see what a wonderful place this is.

Let me tell you what it's like here in this wonderful place. There are no clouds or dreary rain…Just lot of blue sky and sunshine casted on us from His most gracious presence. There are miles of green grassy fields and meadows of beautiful flowers.

There are no cruel humans to hurt us, just the keepers who have been specially chosen to care for us...

We all get along here large and small. Some of us had a pretty rough life while others were very spoiled. We run and play tag or chase balls. We can be lazy as we want and take long naps. The Creator checks on us each day.

I have met many of your friend’s fur kids here.

It's been neat to see my brothers and sisters again that came here before me. There is never a sad moment. Just so much to keep busy....We get a lot of new kids arriving daily and is fun to show them the ropes here.

We are here waiting here for you when your purpose on Earth is complete. My wish for you is to be happy for me and not sad. It will be the most happiest of reunions and I will lick away all your tears. There will be nothing but good times for ever and ever.

I will let you feel my presence if you will just have faith and allow it to happen.

When the time is right and it will come, I want you to take in another fur kid to care for just as you cared for me and protected me from all harm and gave me the security that I needed all those years. They deserve the life I had with you. Don't think of it as replacing me but giving another the love you have inside you to bring joy to another. I felt honored to a part of your life and you gave me so much of yourself.... That will always be special.

You were my life and I will always love you for that.

I am not that far away and I will be close to you in spirit and will remain in your heart. That is the bond that connects us. Do not think of me when I was at my worst but all the great memories we shared together. I hate to see you cry. I am happy here so be glad for me.

I want to be remembered for all the silly things I did and things we did together. We had some great times together.... So cherish those memories.

So my best friend, until your task on Earth is finished, take care of yourself and help another less fortunate kid to know the love I shared with you and you will be forever rewarded. You will know when the time is right.

Love you Forever,
Your 4 legged soul-mate.

Author...Kay Faulkner

just wanted you to know that you are the best mom ever vicki and i am so sure scoop would agree hun ...maybe it would make sense for you to try another place since the one you are using will probably be a sad,mad place for you to go...sending you so many xoxox patty(milo)meka xoxox <3

Hi Vicki
Just checking in to see how you are.Was wondering if you went to the support group last night?I just read Leslie's post and am sobbing-how beautiful!!I hope you find it as comforting as I did when I read it.Healing thoughts and big hugs to you today.
Love,
Patty

Stopping by to give you a hug and remind you as everyone else has - you did all you could for your Scoop. Your love knew no bounds when it came to Scoop, you fought so hard for him.

I am so sorry, Vicki, I wish I could make the pain better.

Leslie, Patty, Patty, Addy-Thanks
Yes I went last night. It was the counselor, me and two other people who were together. It makes you feel better when there but then you get home and everything comes rushing back. Last night was one week since Scoop's passing so that made it even harder.

I also talked to the two nurses who were with Scoop his last night. They loved Scoop and tried their best. The one nurse gave him an ear, neck and back rub for about 10 minutes till about 10:50PM. She then took another dog out and the other nurse checked on Scoop and noticed he wasn't breathing. Just then the first nurse was coming in. They told me everyone stopped what they were doing and started CPR. I got the dreaded phone call and dashed over there but there was no hope. He was gone and they couldn't help him. I miss him so very much.

Leslie, That is beautiful. They all are.

Today I had a meeting with Scoop's IMS. I said I wanted to talk to her in person instead of over the phone. I said I would pay but she didn't charge me. She said she believes that what happened to Scoop was he had multiple organ failure from the infection. She said she believes his immune system was compromised and he couldn't fight the infection. She said why his immune system was so bad that she didn't know and she said you can't fix an immune system. She told me she was surprised at what happened. She didn't expect Scoop to pass away. Of course after I'm home and start thinking I have other questions. I guess I'll have to call.

Before I left she said, this is from us. She gave me a book. It's called Dog Heaven. It reminds me of a children's book. There's not a lot of words on each page. Scoop's IMS wrote a note to me inside the front of the book, the other IMS who is also co-owner of the hospital wrote inside the back of the book and others wrote in different spots on the pages inside. I think they are the nurses from the daytime. The daytime Veterinary Referral and the emergency are two separate things. There is plenty of room to write on the pages. That was so special.

This whole thing with Scoop is so hard. I just don't see it getting any easier any time soon. I feel so bad.

Hi Vicki,
What struck me is the Scoop, had a 10 minute back,ear rub before passing quietly in his sleep.
I think that while there is nothing that can make the pain go away, that it is good that he wasn't in distress, he just went quietly after having a relaxing massage.
There may never be a definitive answer. His body was tired, it had fought long and hard for him.
I wish there where answers to every question, but what is important now, is that Scoop had a really wonderful life. He lived well and he played well and he loved well and in return he was loved. There isn't much better that can be said for any life.

hugs,
Sharlene

Oh Vicki - I just can't imagine the thoughts that keep going through your head. Just like all of us here do for our pups, I know you did everything humanly possible for Scoop...it seems that the vets cared a bunch for the two of you as well. Prayers being sent your way as I know this is such a sorrowful time...

xoxox,

Kerry (Millie's Mama)

it is truly a heartbreak losing our babies,believe me i know...vicki know that you did oh so much to keep your scoop comfortable and gave him the most wonderful life and know that he loved you so so much.you take all the time you need to grieve for him because this will eventually bring you to a healing heart.i will always be checking in on you to see how you are...take care patty (milo)meka xoxoxo

Vicki
Not knowing the WHY can be very difficult-sometimes it takes a long time to put all the pieces together and find some sort of closure.How wonderful that Scoop received such loving care by the nurses.He must have been so comforted by a nice backrub.After my Fella passed,I learned my dog walker performed Reiki and gave him massages at night.It was so touching-it was such a comfort to know that my little guy was shown such tenderness and kindness as was your Scoop.So thoughtful that the staff gave you the book with all their signatures-obviously they too loved your Scoop very much and he was in loving caring hands.
Patty

Vicki,
how wonderful (the book with signatures)!
Vets that take the time to do something like this truly care. Scoop's passing was a shock, but it sounds like he crossed peacefully and we can't ask for more than that when the time comes. A massage :) That made me smile.

He was tired sweetie. Nothing we can do about that. One day, we'll be tired too. xoxo

Hey Vicki, thank you for sharing your stories about your precious angel Scoop, I'm so glad he crossed over rainbow bridge so peacefully....thats my hope for Simba too...I loved the part about the book with the signatures, what a sweet gesture...take care hon, sending hugs and prayers as you miss your sweet Scoop..
On a light side whenever I read about Scoop, I always think of those corn chips Scoops, not sure why, cute name....maybe Scoop was little dipper?:)

Poor Scoop had so much going on didn't he, how lovely to hear he had a nice massage and then went to sleep. I think if it was me, I would feel good to hear those nurses took such good care of him, it is lovely they do all those little extras to make our babies feel loved while they are in their care.

That book sounds precious, what a sweet thing for them all to do. I know it is going to take a long time for you to come to terms with this, you spent so long trying to help him and now it is such a big hole in your life with all the spare time to just think if I had only done this, or we could have tried that. Sometimes it is just time no matter what we try and do. So hard. Sending lots of hugs to you xxxxx

Vicki:
I know the deep love, and the connection you and Scoop shared. There is not doubt it is going to be hard to overcome your heartbreak. I am hoping your husband is of some comfort to you when you are feeling so alone and distressed. I am here for you anytime, and I do above all respect and acknowledge how totally someone can love their dog. Tipper and I have had our struggles the last few weeks. I get in a panic if I call her and she doesn't come right away. This disease has taught me so many things. The most important is to spend as much time as I can with Tipper. She was so healthy before all this I just feel robbed. I have no family to turn to, just myself so it can get overwhelming at times. I think I really hit an all time low when Scoop and Buddy passed. It is hard to stay upbeat and positive, but every nite when Tipper and I pray I thank God for another day with my precious girl. I have made so many deals with God to keep my Tipper alive that I have lost track. I prayed to God to please give me a sign of what he wants me to do, and just then a commercial for St. Judes came on the t.v. asking for donations for the children. I thought maybe that is what he wants me to do. The very next day in my mail came a request for money from St. Judes. I had never gotten one previously to my knowledge. I decided then that is what I was supposed to do, give money to the children. Little can I afford it, but I do it anyway. We all need to put our brains together and get some research started on this disease so others after us do not have to be tortured with this. I am praying for you to get some peace of mind. The book you were given is a blessing by people that care. To honor Scoop think of something you can do to make an impact on this disease, that will help heal your heart and honor Scoop at the same time. God Bless You Vicki, and know I think of you all day long.
Patti

Patti-You are such a sweetheart. I hope and pray you and Tipper have many more happy years together.
I wish we could come up with something to do to honor our furbabies and help others who have to walk this path. My Scoop had diabetes for almost 2 years before he started with Cushings. He wasn't having any problems with the diabetes until Cushings came along. Then everything just went downhill. Everything! I hate the day I heard the word Cushings. Cushings is probably what brought Scoop's immune system down and he couldn't fight the infection that took him from us.
I am not very good with organizing or being a leader to do something like that but you have a very good idea. Maybe others might have an idea. Wasn't Mel going to talk to a doctor? The only thing I know about is Dr. Bruyette doing the study on shrinking the tumor. It would be wonderful if someone could come up with a way to prevent it but they have no idea why dogs get Cushings.
Thank you for your prayers. It has been and continues to be very, very hard.
Thank you to you Patti and everyone for caring so much. I wish we could do something to make an impact.
I miss my Scoop so much.

Vicki,
Just checking in to give you hugs. We will all tell you as many times as you need to hear it that you were the best mama ever to precious Scoop. I continue to pray for you and Scoop and I'm sending you big hugs.

Jessica and Doc

Hi Vicki,
I'm just popping in to send you tons of love and strength today. I do understand your struggle. Processing Buddy's loss is difficult for me too. We are here or you always. Xxxxx

hey vicki i am also just checking in on you (the queen worrier) and sending you peaceful fun loving happy energy and blessings.... thinking of scoop with that most beautiful face,remember the wonderful days shared together hun !!! patty (milo)meka xoxox scoop will always be present ...

Hi Vicki
Just checking in and thinking of you and Scoop.Big hugs and lots of love being sent your way.
Love,
Patty

Jessica, Kathy, Patty, Patty-Thanks for checking in. The pain still hasn't eased up. My husband mentioned something about Scoop at supper and I just started crying. Every little thing reminds me that he's not here and it still hurts so much.
Thanks for being here and listening to me. The counselor said to just keep talking about it.
Hugs to all.

talk about your litl man all you want !!! i found that after i put more pics of milo all around to see him and feel his presence helped me feel somewhat better,i am looking at his most precious face right now with happy tears ...it will take some time to process your pain and sorrow so dont rush it my friend...xoxox

There are some things the IMS told me that I don't think I said on here. If I can bring myself to tell them later, I will.

Cried so much already this morning.
Missing my Scoop.

Tomorrow, Friday, should be the day my Scoop comes home.
It will be a tough day.

Oh, but it will be nice to have him home where he belongs. I would give anything just about to have my daughter's ashes here with me.

I know Scoop is watching over you with all the tenderness he has, waiting for that day when you will smile through your tears at the memories.

Hugs,
Leslie and the gang

Vicki, glad you will have Scoop in your home. We have Lulu in the family room with a nice framed picture of her taken about four or five years ago. Also, her paw print we had done. It was winter when Lulu passed, so cremation seemed like a great idea, and you know I do like the idea, whether it's people or pets.

You know you mentioned remembering our pets, and I am planning on doing that for our Lulu. For example my photo album, which you can see of Lulu holds the images I will choose from. I also plan on using some short video clips, (thank goodness for the cellphone cameras) though the early years, back in the early 2000s, the quality isn't the best.

My theme will revolve around the Christmas' as I believe there will be pictures from everyone of them, with some video. I have done this for my dad when he passed away, 25 minute story of his life and just recently did one for the village of Romeo, Michigan, a 60 minute story of it's first 175 years, as the town celebrates that this year.

BUT, I am waiting on the word, that I can say, and that word is 'hired'. I enjoy doing this, but it takes time, and I don't want (can't) afford to spend more time on this activity.

Just a thought on what you can do, it's fun and you can use free software, such as Windows Movie Maker (adequate for free, though there is better software but $$$ ...)

Take care, and when I do have the video, slide show done, I will post a link to it.

Oh, Vicki...my heart breaks for you! I can truly empathize since I just lost my Rudy early yesterday morning...we were supposed to go get him Friday also to bring him home for recovery from his surgery. Instead we will go pick him up to bring him home for his burial...it will take a long time for both of us to heal but with God's help it will happen! Cry out to Him when you feel that overwhelming pain and despair...He loves you!!! Everywhere I turn I am reminded of my sweet precious Rudy but I am trying to focus on and be thankful for the ten years of love that we shared. I have one of his favorite stuffed toys beside me right now and I will sleep with it next to my heart for a long time I'm sure! Your Scoop was absolutely adorable and I know he knew how much you loved him even though you could not be there when he passed away. I was not with Rudy and I am praying so hard that he was too sedated to know it...God knows what is best and what we can bear...I am thankful that my last memory of him was happy and full of love as I gave him his last hugs and kisses. I will be praying for you!!! Thank you for your sweet comment about Rudy's pictures...

Oh Vicki...here is a big ((((((((((HUG)))))))))) for you. I know exactly how you feel. I so dreaded the day we picked Lulu up after her creamation, but I must tell you bringing her home was so healing. She was back where she belonged, with loving parents and loving cats. Our Nellie Cat went over to Lulus ashes and began to sniff the box and rub against it...she knew her best friend was in that box. It was heart breaking. But it was also healing. I am sure you will feel the same way I did. It was so nice to be able to go to her box and talk to her. It takes sooooo long to feel better. It has been 5 months for Lulu and I still cry everyday for her. We have a foster dog, Stanley...Pit Bull, who I just love, but he is not Lulu. He does however take the edge off the pain. I can hold him and cry now, instead of just crying alone, and he comforts me.

I wish you the very best honey. I think of you often, and wonder how you are coping. My love and prayers are with you honey and I'll be thinking of you when you pick up Scoop tomorrow.
Love,
Moo

Hugs and love , Vicki, always thinking about you, none of us will ever forget Scoop.

Lots of hugs Vicki.
Talking helps me to get through the tough times, so talk away sweetie...we're listening.

When you're up to sharing more details from the IMS, please know that you might be helping others on this site by sharing, as painful as it is.

Bringing Scoop home will be a very mixed emotional day, but Scoop will be home to be with his loving family and I do hope that gives you a little peace.

(((HUGS)))

Vicki:
Thinking of you and Scoop at this most trying time. Praying you can get thru this. God Bless you and precious Scoop.
Patti

Vicki: I am sorry for your loss. I know exactly how you feel because I had to put down my Cocker a year ago. While painful, it is of comfort that we did everything we could for our babies, and when it was time to go we allow them to go with dignity and love-- which is exactly what they gave to us. Remember your baby with all your heart especially the things that made you laugh and smile (that helped me a lot). And I completely understand how hard it is picking up the ashes. I started bawling at the vet when I picked them up, and I still have them with me. Sending a big, big hug and plenty of pup kisses (from Rummer :)

Maria

Vicki
Just thinking about you today as you bring Scoop home-right where he belongs.It was a blessing when I finally had my Fella's ashes home with me even though it was quite a shock to find them in the mail!:eek::eek:.I do hope you find some comfort in bringing him home and feel his presence.Thoughts and prayers are with you.
Patty