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Feel better soon.
Well I am down to once a day on the pred - YAY! That jittery antsy feeling is going away....but with it's exit the pain of inflammation comes roaring back. :rolleyes: Ah well, at least I can breath better and for that I am very thankful. A few more days on the ABs and that will be over, too.
We got the call day before yesterday that a booth had opened up in the flea market so we will start setting up our little booth hopefully Sun. Most of my things are priced already but I have to decide what to bring first. With four of us sharing space, we won't have room for us all to bring all we have at one time. But by swapping out items we can keep our booth fresh looking and hopefully keep folk interested in checking us out when they come in. Yesterday I determined to complete these little projects I got started under the Pred assault :p and made some good headway. I hope to finish them completely today. I have felt rather silly being "defeated" by Popsicle stick crafts! :D
Being off Facebook is doing me a world of wonders. My mind is opening up and the creative juices are starting to flow more freely. I find myself jotting down ideas for things all day long - something I haven't felt in years. Now I am working on cutting down the TV time, which is iffy since Brick uses those sounds to navigate. But I am working on using the radio and letting him and Trink learn a bit about silence - well what is silence to me anyway. ;)
I was able to walk a couple of my fields this week. There are a couple of plants I have been searching for for some time with no luck. The first day out, I asked Squirt to come with me...and she did. The very first plant I saw was one I have been searching for - St. John's Wort (Hypericum perforatum). This plant is not usable due to its location, by a drainage ditch, but it was proof SJW does grow here and fueled my drive to find more of it. I left that field, thanking Squirt and asking her to stay with me, and went to another one where I found TWO St. John's Worts! Both of these are growing on clean land, too. :cool:
One morning this week I was having a particularly difficult time. I went out to sit on the porch in the cool morning with thoughts, not fit for sharing, flying through my mind. Without going into detail here, I came full circle and at the conclusion, which was not the direction those thoughts had been taking initially, a strong scent of Honeysuckle surrounded me. Honeysuckle is just about done blooming here, with very few blooms on the vines, but the aroma was as intense, if not more so, as when in the fullness of its Spring growth. I knew when that scent wrapped itself around me that was Squirt and Gia giving their approval and affirmation - it was them wrapping me in their love, reminding me we are always together.
It's things like this that let me know my Queen is still by my side even tho my hand falls on empty air when I unconsciously reach down to stroke her back. The loss of that mundane contact continues to be agonizing but that pain is made bearable by times such as these.
Oh Leslie, I am so touched that you are sensing the sweet presence of your loved ones. I have always felt that there will never be a time when Barkis does not come to me at the moment I call out to him to join me. Those moments are fleeting and come less often now. But the connection, although invisible, remains unbroken. Just as I hope and believe it shall always remain so for you and your girls.
Love, Marianne
That sounds absolutely divine Leslie. :) How calming to have the Queen roaming with you through the fields and Gia presence to remind you that you are never alone.
How exacting to get the Flea Market booth! Best of luck! I'm sure that people will be flocking towards it.
hugs
Sharlene and molly muffin
Hi Leslie,
I am so happy you can feel that sweet Bebe is with you. It is such a comfort when we are at such a loss. I think spending time outdoors, even on a porch- just getting back to nature and just "being" rejuvenates us.
I am sorry to hear that the pain comes back without the pred. My arm is still crooked and hurts. So I hope you fare better than I have. Every once in awhile I sneak one of Zoe's prednisone pills and then my arm feels so much better.
The flea market circuit can turn out well and I hope it is successful for you. I just want everything to get better for you.
Much love and hugs
Well, it has been an extremely stressful past 2 weeks culminating in me deciding to leave the flea market venture. One bad apple sort of thing that turned a fun and easy project into a nightmare. But that's ok. I learned a long time ago how to walk away from an abusive, unhealthy situation... and people.
I am continuing with my crafting and hope to have enough things to sell at a little craft event held in my home town each Oct. A friend who sews really cute things and I are going to have a booth. I've posted some pics of some yard art I am learning to do and one of a ceramic piece I painted years ago. The yard art is made from old pieces of glassware found in thrift stores, yard sales, and flea markets. The first pieces I am making are for Squirt's flower garden. There is a bird bath and bird feeder shown in the pics. They aren't glued together yet but I have decide these are what I want in her garden. I plan to make at least one more for her garden that will incorporate a tea pot and be more whimsical looking - hopefully. Here are the links to the pics -
Bird bath -
http://i752.photobucket.com/albums/x...psb7ed1dc7.jpg
Bird feeder -
http://i752.photobucket.com/albums/x...pse2c3f889.jpg
Ceramic piece (chipped in its many moves sadly!) -
http://i752.photobucket.com/albums/x...ps8ec90d70.jpg
And just for fun, a "self portrait" I did years ago, also ceramic, also chipped :( ) -
http://i752.photobucket.com/albums/x...irffie/002.jpg
Oh how sweet those will look in your bebe's garden.
Love the ceramics. Use to do those many years ago myself.
Good luck on your fall project.
Smart of you to know when to walk away and even better to be able to do so
Hugs
Sharlene and Molly muffin
Good for you sweetie, sorry the bad apple ruined your new venture, but glad you could walk away, and a new window has opened for you.
Love the glass pieces, they would be a success, and an exquisite and sweet touch to your Queen's baby's garden.
My heart is filled with joy and tears at the same time when I read that your journey with Squirt's spirit is leading you to wonderful discoveries in nature and that in some way it keeps bringing some solace to your soul.
Love you and your babies to pieces.
Yesterday was a very tough day for some reason. I woke up crying, missing Squirt and Gia so very much. Tears and pain were constant companions throughout the first morning hours then I learned about Robin Williams' suicide. Such a great man who brought so much healing laughter to so many couldn't find one, not one, reason to stay his hand in spite of his family, friends, fame, wealth, and future. I heard about a tweet from the cast of Aladdin in which they posted, "Genie, you're free." And I admit a part of me was envious. Most of my night was spent in tears that have continued this morning. I am missing my beautiful girls in the marrow of my bones.
Oh dear Leslie,
I am so sorry you are having such a hard night and day. Squirt's death triggers all of your emotions of missing Gia and that is so understandable.
Somehow we go on because Robin's solution was such a horrible one and I know we sometimes feel that the pain is too bad to bear but I can't imagine what pain he felt to take his life.
So here I am telling you hugs and kisses and how much we love you and need you and that we have to find the smallest thing each day to be grateful for.
One good thing a day- I set about to cleaning some old wood chairs last night and I actually got ALL the grime off - MISSION ACCOMPLISHED and then it was playtime with Koko:):):)
Try to find one good thing today and come back to tell me what it was:):)