Squirt - my Queen has crossed The Bridge

It's ok sweetie, you are in shock still and you cant think. Everything runs together and you keep reliving that last day over and over and you are blaming yourself even though you know there is no blame; we blame ourselves anyway. It is so dang hard, Leslie and I am so sorry about that. It will be almost 3 months since I lost Zoe. I cant sleep still. I wake up at 3am every night and lay there. We all process things in our own way in our own time.

Just talk it out if you can. We are here to listen and to hold you.

HUGS Leslie

love
Sharlene

HUGS from Henry and me too

Oh Leslie,

I am so very sorry that you lost Squirt. My goodness, you did everything you could possibly have done for her and finally her little body just gave out.

Leslie, I do know that the grief is just so deep and it goes on and on. But, you know that you also have to take care of yourself. You have to eat some good food, get outside in the fresh air, try to sleep.

Squirt lived a GREAT life and she knows she was deeply loved all of the time. You take good care of yourself.

Ken and Maddie

Leslie,
grief can be all consuming at first. With everything else going on, mixing up the days isn't unexpected. Hugs.

Hi Leslie,

I can remember how incredible the pain felt. They took Palmer to the back to get the needle inserted and then brought him back to us for us to hold him while the injection was given. Nothing was mentioned about having any difficulty. I too had hoped that Palmer would go to sleep one night, not to wake up the next day. He had already suffered way too much. It was not to be. That decision is no easier to make even if you have had to make it before.

Your wounds are so very raw now. Your pain is acute. Sharing your feelings, I think, is your best medicine. You write beautifully. Your writing provides a way for the emotion to be released a little each time. There is no easy way around this. Know that you are loved and supported by all who correspond with you here and that most, if not all, have experienced what you are going through and understand. Really understand. Be gentle with yourself. You made the best decisions you could all along the way with nothing but love in your heart for Squirt. Squirt was just saying "Ow!" Squirt wasn't placing blame.

I am sorry this is so hard.

Hugs,
Susan

Hi Leslie

I always felt Squirt led by example in this forum, that girl just kept on going, one paw in front of the other and enjoying her days with the gang and you. I hope that when you start emerging on the other side of this terrible grief that you can channel her tenacity and strength into helping you get through this, she was a strong girl as you are a strong Mom and we are all here to hold your hand as you take as much time as you need. Big hugs to you Leslie xxxx

My Sweet Bebe is home once again. I picked her ashes up this afternoon. She came to me again early this morning. I felt the mattress move as if a dog was walking across behind me. Thinking it was Trinket ready to get up, I reached to get her but nothing was there - she was still asleep on the other side. About then I felt the small of my back warming up. When Squirt could still sleep on the bed with us, she would wake up and walk behind me while I was on the computer, laying down, to let me know she was ready to get down and go outside. Today has been a pretty good day all things considered and I believe Squirt helped me with that this morning.

Awww so pleased you have her home where she belongs. I bet you have a special place for her to reside over her Queendom. It sounds like Squirty is not in the box though, she is walking about keeping watch over you and also keeping you warm at night. I like that!! More big hugs being sent your way! xxx

Squirt sounds like she making sure her momma is going to be okay. I bet she is thrilled to be home.

Sending love and hugs your way
Sharlene and Molly muffin