Confused and Overwhelmed-Diagnosed Anal Sac Carcinoma (Woody has passed)

Gads, I watched the video again. That boy could just go and go and go and go some more. I laughed and laughed at him. Can't believe that just just a few days ago too. I hate cancer... would like to just give it all a big kick in the you know what and send it on it's way, never to bother us again. hmmmppphhhhh

I fully believe that Woody is over that rainbow bridge, letting all the others know about Terry and giving a good ole "what for" about to everyone. (that would be a putting it in it's place) :)

Hope you ate and got some rest Tracy. I'm kind of craving bacon sammie now. One of my fav comfort foods. Thanks gang! (eyeing frig door)

hugs,
Sharlene and Molly Muffin

Hello there

Just posting to see how you are? Did you get that bath and sarnie?

Mel
Xxxx

Yeah had a bacon sarnie and a glass of milk, I,m so adventurous lol. I,m exhausted but can,t sleep if you know what I mean, I opted not to have a bath incase I fell asleep in it. I,m so bored I,ve got no one mithering me for food or to play or staring at me telling me its bedtime. I really don,t like this new normal it sucks!!!

How,s your weather Mel, ours is really heavy winds and rain all day and its still blowing a gale out there.

I know it sucks babe, sleep will come through sheer exhaustion at some point. It's hard not to run through it all I am sure.

Same, blowing a proper gale and it's freezing cold. Any sign of that snow they predicted for you?

No snow here yet, they do have some up north towards the Highlands which is a lovely part of Scotland, but its cold up there, we just have the stupid rain going on, not that I,ve been outside today just watching it from the window :p

I,m heading to see if I can sleep, I hope you have a great weekend and I,ll speak to you soon

xxxx

Ok, I will be around on and off if you feel like a chat xxx

Thanks Mel - no doubt I,ll be around at some point if I can,t sleep.

Hopefully you will be able to get some hours.

Trish will be back a bit later and no doubt some of our other members will be around, so you never have to be alone if you don't want to be xxxx

Oh I do hope you can get some rest Tracy. Woody loved his sleepy time. Just imagine that he is right there where he always sleep, rolled over on his back, saying mom, come on, lets get some shut eye. I know that he is watching over you to make sure you're doing all the things he thinks you Should be doing!

hugs,
Sharlene and Molly Muffin

Hi Tracy - I am home and not going out tonight so Good Morning. Hope you managed to get some sleep. I had a Nana nap this afternoon too. Got most of the shopping done, having lunch with a friend for last bits and pieces tomorrow. Dad got his shorts, so pleased that is done! Just going to make some dinner, easy tonight... spaghetti on toast :D

Hey Tracy

Just popping in to see how you are, I hope you managed a few hours rest

Off to the farm shop for a bit but will be back later so will pop in then

Thinking of you
Big hug

Mel
Xxxx

Morning and its a miserable morning here. I managed some sleep about 4 hours so that's a start, the wind and rain kept waking me up as he was really blowing out there and still is. I need to try and find some motivation today as its Saturday and I always take mum shopping, so I will go get her and brave the supermarkets as they will be busy. I,ll be back later.:)

Mel - I love farm shops and can you believe although I live surrounded by farms in the country there no farm shops :confused:

Yay, you slept... little bit anyway so pleased to hear that!!

Oh supermarkets on a cold, rainy day does not sound too much fun. What's the plan for Christmas, at your Mums?

I can believe that, typical uk logic :D

I thought I would be gone be now but the parents are late :eek: it's also still blowing a gale here and pouring sideways rain, doesn't really make you feel like going out!

I'm glad you were able to get a little bit of sleep and that you have a routine calling today. I hope spending time with your mom will help heal you both. And get some good food for yourself while you're out - something you don't usually allow yourself to have but really love. ;)

Hello there

Back from the shop, nearly got blinking blown over, it's that nasty sideways rain too which gets you full in the face!

Did you get to the supermarket with your mum?

You doing ok this afternoon?

Big hug

Mel
Xxxxx

Yowser, sounds like you guys all have a heck of a rain storm there.

I braved ice to get the muffin head out to the vet this morning. All is well, but that weather out there is not fun! Now I remember why we all head south in the winter. LOL Need a nice vacation somewhere warm in the new year. :)

Hope your shopping expedition went well Tracy!

hugs,
Sharlene and Molly Muffin

Hi Tracy

How has your day gone, did you get out to do the shopping? I just got up, lazy bones I am, its 9.25am Sunday here :D So much for my up and at em today!! Hope your doing OK and enjoyed spending some time with your Mum yesterday, she will be very sad about Woody too, she was such a good Nana to him

Your weather sounds evil Mel, sideways rain :eek: :eek:, think I am the only one posting from the sun and warmth, so your all welcome down here :)... cloudy today but no rain yet xxx

Evening - Shopping went well, it wasn't as busy as I thought it would be for this time of the year. I,ve been to a friends for dinner tonight as she was worried I wasn,t eating, it was nice to get out for a little while as the walls where closing in on me.

I,ve managed to avoid everyone in the village as I,ve not been out walking (obviously) so still dreading meeting people and them asking after Woody :(

Mel how,s the weather we had your sideways rain most of the afternoon and its still raining, the wind has died down thankfully.

Trish - Christmas is at my sisters as it always is, well she is the best cook :p The whole family go for lunch, mum, me, my two brothers and their kids and off course Woodydog was always there. My older brother called me today to see if I would mind if Murphy his llapsa could go this year which I don,t have a problem with as he is gorgeous. Can you tell Woody was the favourite of the family :)

ugh, that nasty ole wind can make the rain seem so horrid to be out in. :( Our rain is currently freezing, so pretty yucky out there.

Awww, your brother is very nice to ask if you would be okay with Murphy coming.

hugs,
sharlene and molly muffin

Sorry I haven't stopped in earlier. Thinking of you and hoping your memories of Woody carry you through this difficult time. Take care.
Nikki and Kaibo

Hey Tracy

Was pleased to read you went to you mates, change of scene was probably good for you.

The wind went and is now back again, whipping and whistling not nice out there at all. We did manage to get the bits for dinner so am all set.

I would go to your sisters too as she is the chef! Bless your brother for checking about Murphy, of course Woody was favourite makes perfect sense to me!

How you holding up today? Hoping you managed a few hours.

Big hug

Mel
Xxxxx

Yep, it is a good mate that will drag you out for dinner even when you don't feel like it!

Your brother is very thoughtful ringing you to ask about Murphy, lovely to hear they are taking your feelings into account. Sounds a good move going to the best cook!!

We are going to have to work out something for you to say when the villagers ask after Woody, so you can have it ready and not be taken off guard. People mean well but sometimes all it takes is a kind person to set you off again.

Hope your asleep, Mel is up at the crack of dawn!!! Today is the longest day of the year here in NZ... so that means you are heading towards Spring girls :D:D

Yay heading towards Spring, what does that mean for us, more rain, and wind no doubt lol, just like our Summers.

I think I may have a plan for the villagers, I will find the biggest gossip in the village tell them and I can be sure they will tell everyone else, save me the trouble.

Tracy:
So glad to hear you went out with a friend for a while. I am glad you are getting out of the house for Christmas too. You are just wonder woman taking your dear mom shopping, and her too for going right after her operation. We have nothing but wind and rain, it poured all nite here. Hope you are feeling ok, and resting as this has been a long hard journey. Blessings
Patti

hahaha, good plan re the village gossip. Save you the trouble and heartbreak from having to answer all the time.

hugs,
Sharlene and Molly Muffin

Yes that is an excellent plan, that news will run around the village in no time. Smart girl! Hope your day has gone OK Tracy, I am heading to work soon BOOOO, but only two days then 5 off! Maybe see you tonight x

I went to the village shop today and told the lady that serves there, so I have no doubt it will spread like wildfire and hopefully save me some awkward moments.

Today was a hard day, but tomorrow will hopefully be better.

Tracy:
I think you are positively amazing! You are smart telling that blabber mouth so that everyone will know now. It will save a lot of awkward moments. I am making some candy for the elderly neighbors, trying to keep busy and keep my mind off things. Tipper's leg is still not doing so hot. Blessings
Patti

Tracy, I don't know if I have posted to you before, but you have my heartfelt sympathies on your loss. I have so enjoyed the antics of Woody that you have graciously shared with all of us, and the great way you have with words. Thank you for allowing me to get to know him.

Tracy,

Perfect plan for the villagers. You made me laugh :-)

A change of scenary and a good friend's company are much needed distractions at times like this. I'm so glad that you want.

A very good thought to let the town big mouth spread the word. Hope you are managing to get some rest.

Barbara

Hi Tracy
Just checking in before bed.... hope you had a good sleep and are feeling up to another day. I bet they are hard for you right now so I will send you a big hug to get the morning off to a good start :) **HUGS** xx

Morning Trish thanks for the hugs. How's Flynny doing ?

Hi Tracy :)

He is good thanks!! Took him for a run tonight and he ran the fastest I have seen in a long time, still got tired pretty quick though. But I cannot complain, he is hungry and its 11pm so just defrosting him a bit of lamb for a snack, he had lost a wee bit more weight last week so feeding him up a bit :D

You got much on today,?I think Mel is leaving today, or was it tomorrow? think it was today!

I need a sleeping and eating report from you!!??!! Hope your getting enough of both x

Oh its the food police. I,m sleeping a little can,t seem to fall asleep till after 2am guess my body got used to staying awake till then, as that's when the wee guy would stop asking to get out for the toilet and settle for the night.

I,m eating little but often usually just something light gawd that sounds like how to fed a dog little and often ha but I,m not hungry as I feel sick most of the time but I am forcing myself as the last thing I need is to get sick :D

Do I pass officer Trish :p

Hmmmm I think a 7/10!! :D

I think you might catch up on the food on Christmas Day at your sister's as I am sure she will be making lots of yummy treats, do you have to take anything?

No as its a standing joke with the family at how bad a cook I am, so I get away with it :cool::cool:. She makes me my favourite Black Forest Gateaux every year and as no one else in the family eats it I get it all to myself :eek:

Well that's about a weeks worth of calories right there, so I am going to stop worrying about you not eating!!! Bed time for me Tracy, hopefully catch you tomorrow. Try do something nice today and let us know what it was!! Talk soon xxxx

Tracy:
Oh my favorite chocolate cake with goodies, eat a piece for me too!What kind of fruit does your sister use? Hope getting away for Christmas and eating some good food gets you back on track. We were having spring weather and now it is to get in the teens again. I would love a holiday where someone cooked for me, so take advantage of that generosity and enjoy some good food. Blessings
Patti