Buttercup (Calcinosis cutis) - Buttercup is now in heaven

OMG, she just did something I haven't seen in so long. After taking her out back to go pottie she actually made a dash for the steps and practically leaped over them. My god its good to see such a mass improvement in such a short time.:D

Happy Dancing for Buttercup:D:D:D:D:D

What a wonderful thing to read this morning! :cool::):cool: I can imagine how happy that made you feel! When Squirt first started the Lyso, she grabbed a toy and played for the first time in years - I don't think I'll ever forget that nor how it made me feel to see it so I can understand a little bit just how special this is for you.

YAY, Buttercup! We are all so proud of you!

Dawn:
I know that made your heart so happy to see Butters do that, and it made mine happy to hear about how she is improving. Keep up the good work Butters! Blessings
Patti

Day 21, some days are good others not so good. I know the pain meds are making her sleepy and weak . She holds her water pretty good during the day and nights are hit and miss, some times a few hours other times only 2 hours. Still working from home most of the time so that I can monitor her. Its getting harder to hide her pain pill , now I hide it in peanut butter on a small piece of tortilla, then I nibble on it while she watches me and then I offer it to her and she takes it , not sure how long that trick will last.
Her skin is so bad haven't seen any more new lesions popping up in the last week or so. Old stuff is slowly shluffing off in small chunks with tufts of hair. Really feel bad that she has it on the inner part of her rear legs also, just watching her try to find a comfortable position to lay in almost makes me cry.
Still getting a good response from the left eye which is good.
I'm dealing as best a possible but it starts to be more then I think I can handle emotionally , trying to hold it in and not cry, but its so hard to at times, I love her with all my being and do not want to fail her. I really hate this ! Why her why my sweet baby why god why, this is slowly killing me inside. I hate this Cushings , someone needs to find the gene or protien or what ever it is that causes these tumors so we can test for it and then be better equipped to treat/remove them and or reverse them . So that these blessed creatures won't suffer so much nor will their families.
I've told daddy we are not doing christmas this year at our house, no lights , no tree no nothing, its just to depressing ,all gifts for the family are being scaled way back to the minimum. This whole Cushing's situation has cost me over 11k, still waiting to see what her insurance will and will not cover.
I told him that she is my gift and that I do not want anything else. I wish on the shooting stars that I have seen in the wee hours of the morning that the tumor dies. Feeling so sad and tired :(

So sorry to read you are feeling low, it's so hard to watch them have issues and I know first hand how difficult it is to see their skin the way it gets with the cc

You have both been through so much recently it's no wonder you feel emotional, it's been a roller coaster, you have in no way failed her, you have done all you can to help her with this disease.

I hope she has a better day tomorrow

Big hug
Mel
Xxxxx

Awwww Dawn. Mel is right, you have been through so much recently, that you must be on a roller coaster emotionally. The cc, does get worse before it gets better, especially to look at. However, the old scuffing off is a good thing, and should leave some pinkish skin underneath. This is all a part of the healing process with cc and a good sign really, as it means the cortisol is reducing to more normalized levels. The eye continuing to improve is a good sign that the tumor is shrinking. Does it appear to be improving or maintaining in that eye?

I think that you have done excellent in regards to Butter. She is lucky to have a mum like you to take care of her.

We all wish they would find a cure or better test (there are some possibilities with a hair test from the University of Vienna). The radiation treatment that Butter had wasn't even available a few years ago. It is those kind of advances that give me hope that people are still trying to figure this out, that cushings dogs are Not being given up on and that hopefully one day, this disease will not be what it is today.

Christmas is a wonderful opportunity for celebrating that Butter is still here and doing better than she was even a couple months ago. I know it is hard when it's eating one up financially, but the spirit is what is important in the long run and we are here to help get you over the rough patches. Today is a rough patch. Tomorrow hopefully will be better. Baby steps sweetie. Butters is going to get better, we'll just hold on that that thought and hold it tight to our hearts.

Hugs! You're doing really awesome! This isn't an easy journey, nor a short one, but you can do it!
Sharlene and Molly Muffin

Aw, sweetheart. You have been through just as much as sweet Butters has - yours is just all emotional and mental instead of physical but that makes it no less difficult. In fact, that is often harder to deal with. You have every right to feel tired and sad and to cry, begging the Stars that Buttercup be healed.

I once went through a very trying time with my daughter and a friend told me things were going to get much worse before they got better, and even then things would never be the same. He was right. Things did get worse, then better, and nothing was the same after - except the love between my child and I. That never faded, never lessened, but only grew stronger through that struggle. And it was that bond that matter, only that bond, not the struggle. The same is true for you and Buttercup - the bond between you is growing stronger by the day through this struggle you now face.

Don't forget to take care of you during this. Do something you enjoy, that allows you to lay this burden down for just a short while and re-energize your Soul. And know you are never alone, Dawn. We are here anytime you need to talk.

Hugs,
Leslie and the gang

Dawn:
You said a lot of what I have been feeling. Everything you said came from your heart. Someone somewhere needs to do some hard core research on this disease and find a cure. After talking to so many people and reading so many stories this is like an epidemic in the dog world. I am not so sure all these vaccinations don't come into the picture somewhere, but I know steroids do. The things this disease dies to our babies is criminal. These dogs are so loyal and should not have to go thru this ordeal. It is equally as hard on the families that don't want to let go, but see their precious dog deteriorating before their eyes. I hate the day that Cushings came into our lives as it has impacted my in most horrible of ways. God Bless you and Butters Dawn, I know you have struggled and worked really hard to help your baby. I am like you, there will be no Christmas stuff here, all I care about is being with Tipper. This has just about bankrupted me too and I have about another 1000.00 I need to come up with by January. This has been the hardest struggle of my life. Blessings
Patti

I felt that was a few years ago when Zoe was so sick. So we pushed overselves to do something different. we bouhgt an artifical tree with different colored lights, something we never had. Hubby would go every day shopping the sales and bring home beautiful birds to decorate the tree which we named Zoe's tree. Over the years we added birds and the birds represented Zoe and all the beautiful pups we lost here on the forum. It took on its own meaning.

My point is, find a different way to celebrate these holidays, find a way to help you honor your pup and celebrate. It may just give you that emotional boost you need.

You have worked so hard. You are emotionally exhuasted.

Please remember, Butters is here today. So just think about what you need to to do today.

love and hugs and special prayers