11 year old Doxie with tumor on Adrenal - Bondo has crossed the rainbow bridge

Sending you lots of love. Your sister is right all the first suck. Seconds aren't great either, thirds can still break your heart. Even hundredth can bring a sharp heart pain of love and remembrance. Only love can last so long

Hugs
Sharlene and Molly muffin

Hi Trese
Sorry the days and the firsts are so hard for you right now, I hope your trip away brings some happy new memories but I am sure Bondo will be close to your heart. Take Care xx

Good Evening everyone.....
This is our first trip without our little Bondo. AND yep, I have cried everyday but adjusting the best I can. I have very, very supportive friends and they have helped me thru these dark days.
I do not miss the 4:00 AM "let's go outside, Mom" wake ups but I would do it gladly if Bondo was with us still. It has been snowing very hard all day and Bondo LOVED the snow. He would spend hours just walking along in it. Not sure why he liked it but, maybe, new smells.
Each day I have different emotions and I watch the videos I made of him on my IPAD which does help. One day at a time.
Kiss your puppies and hold them tight until they wiggle out of your arms.
Night to all

Trese,
I know just how you are feeling. My Brin passed away yesterday and for the first time in months I didn't have to get up 2 or 3 times in the night or sleep on the sofa but to me that is normal and it doesn't feel right that I didn't have to do it. I would gladly do it all again if he could be here still. Take care.
Linda

Hi Trese,
It is so good to have supportive friends to help you through a tough time like this. I'm glad you do. It is still hard and the first are the hardest. First anything is just rough.
Sending lots of hugs and strength
sharlene and molly muffin

Hi, Trese.

I never "met" you as the past year I have only been here sporadically. I read your post about Bondo tried to get into very small spaces and my heart broke for you. My Alivia was doing the same thing about a week before I had to let her go on February 14th. She was desperate to get in little spaces - behind the television, anywhere. She had to be watched every minute as I was terrified she would hurt herself. It was so heart wrenching. I cried reading your poem. I understand your pain and what you said about the "firsts" is so true. I hope Bondo and Alivia have met and are now free and whole once again.

Sharing your pain.

Dear Linda. You just lost your little Brin....I know how you must be feeling. Your life goes on but inside you are hurting so bad. You do your best to be normal but after Bondo was gone I just wandered around my house feeling lost. I know what you mean about getting up all hours of the night and I agree I would do it all over again in a heartbeat. I will say a special prayer for you this evening.

Dear Mary Beth and Alivia. It would be nice of Alivia and Bondo have met each other and are running and playing. Why do you think they wanted to get into those very tight places? Bondo would get behind something and it seemed he did not have reverse and only wanted to go forward to get out of where he was. Who knew I could move a dryer and the TV that sits on top of a cabinet by myself. You should have seen our house...pillows, blankets, trash cans, cardboard to block any spot he could squeeze into. How old was Alivia? Bondo would of been 13 years old in August. You know, I would read this forum and when someone lost their little doggies...I thought if that happened to me how would I ever cope. Now, I have to and it is just killing me but I know I will survive as you will but when will the tears stop? Thank you for your post to me.

For dear Sharlene and Molly Muffin....you the glue that hold this forum together. Thank you for always listening and all of your kind words.
Good night to all and sweet dreams.

I sleep with one of Bondo's favorite stuffed animals. Her name is Katrina and she is a cat with her nose missing and somewhat floppy looking. Bondo used to drag her around, toss her in the air and then fall fast asleep on her. I bet she misses him, too. You know, they say your heart hurts so much because your little guy/girl is in there wagging their tail very hard because they love and miss you, too

Good Evening to everyone.
Well, it has been almost 7 weeks without my little Bondo. I sure do miss him. I miss him most at night, I think. I can't believe he is not with us anymore. I, still, cry but not as often as I did the first week.

I want to post some pictures of him so he is not forgotten. How do you think they become so much a part of our lives? Hope all is well with everyone.

They give us unconditional love, regardless of our faults. Hugs.

I am so sorry you are missing your baby. These Cushing's dogs are very special, taking all of our waking time to care for their every need. There is a giant void left when they are gone, and all this time left on our hands that was previously used to care for them. My heart goes out to you. Blessings
Patti