Confused and Overwhelmed-Diagnosed Anal Sac Carcinoma (Woody has passed)

I am just like you and prefer to process it on my own initially, so fully understand that. I feel sick with you :o

Tracy, I have to go take Flynn to the vet and then to work but I will be checking in during the day. Talk soon xxxxx

Tracy:
I am waiting with you, and praying. Blessings
Patti

Hoping you are hanging in there Tracy, can't imagine how you must be feeling trying to take this all in

I really hope that phone rings for you soon

Bug hug, Paws up Woody Boy

Mel
Xxxxx

Checking in real quick and waiting with you here too. I know that sick feeling all to well Tracy and feel it along with you. I hope you get the call soon. Love and prayers to you and Woody. Big hugs. xo

Ian has called he said how sorry he was of what they found today. He has been down to the ward and saw Woody just before he rang me and he said he was comfortable and sleepy but he did lick his hand when he sat with him. Ian hasn,t saw the US from today yet, but will view it with Laura in the morning, but he has read all the notes from all the tests today. He explained about where the tumours were and where they had spread to something we,ve spoken about last week about. Sadly in his option which I do value surgery is not an option for Woody, they could take the tumour out the liver out but as its so aggressive (its 6 weeks since his last scan which was all clear)then he expects that it has already went to another organ as in 6 weeks the cancer has invaded the gut and the liver. He said Woody would be just recovered from one surgery when another tumour could pop up else where in his body, his exact words were "you will be forever chasing the next tumour." and I can,t do that to him :( He has assured me that Woody hasn,t been in pain daily as to him he looked really good last week when we saw him. He has said that they could offer Woody the Pallida drug but this is not guaranteed to work and with the side effects he,s not sure. I,ve to think about it overnight. So in a nutshell it looks like Terry is going to win, they have offered me palliative care for him and have said they will support me and woody to the end. :mad:

It is the news no one should ever have to hear. Tracy, I am so sorry.

Not what we wanted to hear at all, none of us. My heart is just breaking for you both, honey. Woody has always been a fighter so he may well surprise us all yet again. I'm sure it is a relief to hear that he has not been in pain all this time. Please know we remain by your side every step of the way.

May hugs and belly rubs,
Leslie and the gang

Tracy:
I am just sick inside hearing this. I have been crying since reading it. I am so sorry this is happening to your boy. I will support what ever decision you make and be with you all the way. I wish I had that magic wand that alludes everyone on here. I truly know how you must feel. There is no easy decision here and for that I am truly sorry. Please know I will continue to pray for you and Woody. Blessings
Patti

i hope your woody will surprise us all....... enjoy his company. hope they can keep him painfree.

Thanks everyone I,ve called the hospital and its Emma that,s on again tonight. We had a good long chat about things and if I,m honest when he collapsed on Monday something looked very different in him so I had slightly prepared myself for bad news, not this bad though maybe surgery. I love Woody more than words can say but I won,t see him suffer, so I,ve made a decision no more poking and proding, needles, stress nothing he,s done with all that so I going to bring him home tomorrow and love him for however long he feels he can stay with me cause we all know everything is Woodys way or the highway.:D

I had to tell my niece tonight and she is in pieces, but she understands so she will come stay the weekend with us. So everyone when you look across the room and you,re furbaby is lying there or curled up on its bed give it a little extra hug cause although there not all healthy there still all here cause that's what I will be doing with woody tomorrow when he comes home I will hug him and not let go.

Theres been a lot of sadness on the board this week and it doesn,t seem fair but I,m sure these pups come into our lives for a reason whether its to make us better people, happier people whatever the reason its still so darn hard to let them go

Thinking of you and Woody...so sorry that you got this news. It touched me when you mentioned Woody licked the Dr.'s hand. What a sweet and amazing dog, I haven't met him in person but I love him!

Barbara

This is one of my favorite quotes from one of my favorite authors -

From The Darkest Evening of the Year
By Dean Koontz

“Because God is never cruel, there is a reason for all things. We must know the pain of loss; because if we never knew it, we would have no compassion for others, and we would become monsters of self-regard, creatures of unalloyed self-interest. The terrible pain of loss teaches humility to our prideful kind, has the power to soften uncaring hearts, to make a better person of a good one.”

“Dog’s lives are short, too short, but you know that going in. You know the pain is coming, you’re going to lose a dog, and there’s going to be great anguish, so you live fully in the moment with (them), never fail to share (their) joy or delight in (their) innocence, because you can’t support the illusion that a dog can be your lifelong companion. There’s such beauty in the hard honesty of that, in accepting and giving love while always aware it comes with an unbearable price. Maybe loving dogs is a way we do penance for all the other illusions we allow ourselves and for the mistakes we make because of those illusions.”

Big hugs, have to post later bugger :(

Tracy, I'm truly sorry you are going through this today but bringing Woody home and love him and hug him to the max would be the exact same thing I would do, too if he were mine. He was lucky to have you as his mom as much as you were lucky to have him as your furbaby. Lots of hugs for Woody and his mommy.

My heart hurts with yours to read your post, I wish we had more than words at this time, I so hoped that there were more options available to you

I am having trouble sleeping too so I wanted you to know you weren't on your own if you want to talk

Sending you a massive hug
Mel
Xxxx

Thanks Mel sleep is so over rated. I keep forgetting your on the same time zone as me. Hope your all right and can get some sleep. I've given up trying lol

Luckily you have us 'yanks' to talk to a bit longer. I followed your journey today and never quit praying. I know without a doubt you are doing what Woody would want you to do. Bless you and know that both of you have become family to us all and when you hurt we hurt. And we are all hurting right now. Give him hugs and kisses from us all. Strength my friend - sending you gobs of it. Kim

I am always around odd hours sometimes through work and sometimes cause I can't sleep!

I am sure your mind is in overdrive as it's so much to take in and sleeping is hard when you have so much on your mind.

That wind is whipping up outside, would appear we are lucky to have power, hope it's not too bad with you.

Thanks Kim for saying that's what Woody would want me to do I think that's what he would want too. I'm strangely calm now, I just want to see him, maybe he,ll not want to see me after leaving him for 2 days ha

There's no way he won't want to, your his ticket out of there. You may get the stink eye and ignored when he gets home :eek:

Tia would take herself to bed for the afternoon after getting back fro her tests and Boyce after surgeries wouldn't even sit with me!

They are so funny at times aren't they. Not too bad up here but was heavy rain and real high winds most of today but has died down now thankfully it hasn't been too cold either

Tracy x

Yes such characters, your little woody especially. I did laugh when he was back chatting you at the fridge, I showed my other half (which I never do as I don't really discuss the forum as it is my place) because of his cheek!

The wind seems to have quietened down since I have been posting so hope the worst is over.

Can't believe it's already nearly 2am. I don't feel tired but have to be up for work at 9.

Are you doing ok?

I'm hanging in there I have my moments but I'm ok. I'm up in 3 hrs to take my friend to airport for 6.30 am flight didn't think that one thru did I ha. We,ll both be like zombies later today but I,ll have a sleep when Woody comes home in the afternoon

It is expensive to get cabs to the airport so your being a great mate! Might be better not to sleep now in case you don't wake up :eek:

That is something to look forward to snuggles later x

Good idea i doubt I will sleep got to much going in inside my head but you should try and catch some sleep for work, I don't work so ok on that front

Thank you for keeping me company in the wee dark hours x

I will try now, I have set 3 alarms to ensure I wake up! I have 2 reports that have to be completed tomorrow. Finance ones to, my fav not!!

I will check back in later to see how you both are. Everyone else will be coming online now, that's the great thing about this forum, someone is usually around so you don't have to feel alone.

Sending you the biggest hug Tracy, speak to you later

Mel
Xxxx

Oh Tracy. :( Not at all what we hoped to hear today or any day really.
Woody is such a trooper. Strong as an ox and yet this horrible tumor just seems to keep prodding at him.

You have done everything possible to give him every chance and I don't think anyone could have done more for him. I am sure he knows that this is all for him, and while he might have to let you know he wasn't happy about staying over, he is thrilled to be home.

He's had a good run and it's not over yet. It might not be for as long as any of us hoped going forward, but he's still got some oomph in him and I'm sure he'll show you whats what.
Is there anything they can give you for him, when he does show pain? Or perhaps a pain med he can go on daily?

Gads, don't like to think of you driving after sleepless, worrisome nights. You be careful!

hugs,
Sharlene and Molly Muffin

Hi Tracy

Are you back from the airport? Hope you managed to get a little sleep but I think would have been hard with all that news whirling.

So pleased your niece is coming to stay, that girl sounds like a real treasure. My niece Jade is lovely like that too, I remember when Flynny did that initial collapse and I had him home overnight on IV fluids she came and stayed with me too.... so kind of them to care for their Aunties and pets like they do :) once when Flynn was still a pup she stayed with him overnight while I was away and he bit her hair dryer, phone charger and ate one shoe... she was not that keen on him after that :D:D:D she soon learnt not to leave anything around a chewy puppy!

So what's the plan for today? When are you going to pick up our boy!! He needs some major spoiling and fun after those couple of days of tests. xxxx

Morning Trish I made it and am now back in bed. The plan for today catch an hours kip then go get the boy yay. I have to wait till they ring me as they are waiting on some tests coming back as they did a FNA of the liver yesterday and chest x rays which are due back this morning, so won't probably get him till this afternoon, I'm itching to see him

I bet you are, as he will be wanting to know where the heck you have been. But it sounds like he has been taken great care of there. Made me tear up when you wrote Ian had been to check on him before calling you and Woody licked his hand. What a sweet boy AND a lovely caring vet. Hope you get a bit of shut eye, I am here for an hour or so yet. I have to take something to work for a shared brekky at our 7.30am meeting. I am going to do mini herb muffins topped with cream cheese and smoked salmon. Just deciding if I should make them tonight or do them early tomorrow so they are real fresh!! I am so not a "morning" person so doubt I will feel like baking then!

That sound delish best maybe do them tonight if not a morning person or it could all go wrong ha. Ian and his team have been very good with Woody and the part that gets me is they do really care about the animals and not all about the money which is good to hear.

Yes it makes all the difference doesn't it, I don't know what I would without Mike and all the specialists we have had. They have all been great and I really cannot complain about the care we receive. I am sure Mike must groan when they see my emails pop into their inbox but I don't know how I would manage without their support. My specialists in Auckland wanted to be paid on the day, but I usually just leave Mike's without paying, they know I pay it all quickly so they are very relaxed about it... they say just get that boy home and pay whenever! I have been there 3x since his surgery and not paid yet :eek: But I will when I pick up his meds on the weekend and drop in their Christmas pressie!

I took your advice, muffins are in the oven! Hope they turn out as used the last of the flour and not much time left to make something else!! Sounds like my cooking skills are right up with yours haha... send your sister over!

Hi all

Tracy has received more news today on Woody while we have been chatting, this blardy tumour looks like it has invaded his lungs as shadows were seen on his chest xray this morning. They think the cause of his collapse is bleeding into his abdomen from the liver, but it may have stopped for now. This is all new from 6 weeks ago when none of this was seen on his imaging. Cannot believe how nasty this tumour is.

He has not had a very comfy night and is on IV pain relief. She has been told he most likely only has a few days. :(:(:(

She is just waiting for her sister to pick her up to go to Woody, she wants to spend the afternoon with him and speak further with the vets before making any decisions. She wanted me to post for her as she is understandably very upset and I am so pleased her sister is going with her.

Sorry for this news as there are loads of us who hold a special place in our hearts for this spunky little dog and his Mum.... Tracy my thoughts are with you today and I will be sending all my strength to you. Woody is such a special little man so please give him a cuddle from all of us xxxxxxxx

Thanks Trish for updating us all. Please let her know we all send love and are here for her. How terribly sad. Praying for dear Woody too. Kim

Thank you for posting the update Trish. It is all so very sad.:( xxxx

How very unfair and cruel life can be. I am so so sorry Tracy, I was holding out for a miracle for you both. I know you didn't want him in pain, I am so sorry to read he has been uncomfortable.

I have asked my Angel to watch over him for you.

Mel
Xxxx

I can find no words, only tears.

Thanks Trish. My gawd, so aggressive. The tears just won't stop this morning.
Sharlene and Molly Muffin