Flynn 11 y/o Foxie Cross - Right adrenalectomy- Good Bye Flynny We will miss you

Hey Trish and Mel, game face on for work, come back here after, let it out, stinks really, but no other way.

Anger normal,

Slow slimmer rage sometimes.

Wish we were all Peter Pan.

I remember when I was desperately trying to find a cool mat locally for Buddy because he was miserable. About a week after her flew my local outlet store had dozens of them. I was FURIOUS!!! :mad::mad: I bought one anyway. Rosie won't touch it, so I use myself when it gets hot. Put it under a sheet. It does work..

Anger - normal stage of grief;)

Hope you got on ok today

I am about to leave would rather not but have to pay bills. Will come back later xxxx

Oh drats I missed you, just got in. Today was not too bad for first part. Was working in a clinic I only visit once a month so they didn't know and I didn't tell them. So all was fine till I got back to my main workplace about 2ish, then there were hugs and a few tears. One of the other girls had her elderly cat put down last week so she was a mess when she saw me. So sad. They had left me cards too, was lovely they cared. My boss rang me to see how I was, I took the 4 days off after Flynny died. She said that's not to be annual leave or sick leave, she gave me Special leave which is at managers discretion, so nice to have Flynny recognised as special because he sure as heck was! So all in all wasn't too traumatic. Called in to Mum and Dads for tea to keep some our routines going, they doing ok. Hope your day is not to hideous xx

How wonderful your boss gave you Special leave. :)

Oh Trish I haven't been on the forum in ages and just saw you lost Flynn on the 6th. I lost Amanda the 7th. Similar situation, sudden but steady decline and she told me she was ready. She had developed fluid in her belly and. We were removing it every 10 days. Found medication to improve the right sided heart failure but it over loaded left side so fluid was building up in her lungs too. We could not balance the heart failure. Amanda always loved her Vetmedin chewable and she suddenly refused it. Kept spitting it out no matter what I did. We were at the vet for X-rays and to tap, her belly and she started licking and kissing me like crazy. X-rays were bad. I talked to her and we went outside and she was very wobbly and I knew she was telling me to let her go. She settled on my chest, her favorite spot and gave me some more kisses and then tucked her little face into my shoulder. In two seconds she was gone, peacefully slipped away. I think Amanda like Flynn, hung on for us, waiting until we could let them go away to fly away free and healthy again. It's very lonely and I miss her every moment as I know you do Flynn. I am so sorry for your loss. You did so much for him, gave him such a happy life for a very long time. What a beautiful love story! I will hold you close in my heart Trish! our kids are at peace and they were so so loved! Hugs always, Claire

Hi all ... oh Claire doesn't it just suck. Amanda was such a gorgeous girl and a fighter too, I am glad it was fast for you all... i really think it is better that way with no suffering for them. People always said I would realise when the time came and I sure did and it sounds similar for you. Your dogs have all been lucky to have your as their Mama but I agree, the house is very silent right now.

I thought I was doing good today, then I got home and checked the letterbox. Only one letter today, Flynn's dog registration paperwork for the new year... telling me all the places I could walk him on or off leash around town :(:(:( god that was bad timing to receive on his one week anniversary today... stink! But life trundles on eh and we just have to deal with these nasty reminders when they pop up ... x

I hope today goes better, no surprises that are upsetting.

Mel, too, I hope you have an easier day.

It all just stinks, of course, trying to put the brave face on when you really just want to mourn.

Just wanted to send hugs and bump Flynn's thread up to the top.
Like seeing it there in honor of him.

Hi Trish,

Came to check in on you, so glad to see that your return to work went ok. How nice of your manager to allow that special leave and you were able to have a few days off. I only have a moment before heading to work, but wanted to let you know that I am thinking about you and Flynn. Sending love and big hugs. xo

Work is so busy after my week off which is good thing for me to keep busy, no more nasty surprises but expecting his final bill any day. Would keep paying vet bills for life if it meant he was here happy and healthy but he wasn't so he's in the best place ever now playing, eating everything he loved, bacon and chicken for breakfast lunch and dinner and snacks! Xx

Bacon, why I am getting such a kick picturing Flynny eating bacon, I don't know, bacon, who knew:D

Yeah, they are all probably enjoying not having to sit to say please and just running and playing and having fun.

I like to think that that K9 family pups all live together in their own special place, hanging out together.

Zoe will show Flynny the ropes though Apollo might get jealous. She will probably introduce Flynn to Mary Beth's Alivia. She's a looker with beautiful black brimmed eyes. Flynn will be instantly gaga over her.

Well who doesn't love Bacon! Molly certainly stands up and takes notice when bacon is getting cooked. LOL I can see Flynn just going bonkers for it too.

lol

What a wonderful picture you paint Addy. All the furkids from k9cushings playing together and having a grand time. Such personalities they are.

Glad to hear that you are keeping busy. I miss him too
Trish. :o
xxxxoooo
Kathy

PS - HOT YEAST MAPLE BAR DONUTS Sprinkled with crunchy bacon on top!! Heaven!!!!! Now that's talking bacon!!!:p

Trish, thanks so much for stopping by my thread. It helps me so much to have you beckoning me onward, as it were. It was so sweet reading about about you wrapping up in Flynn's blanky. Maybe I can think of some sort of talisman that will help me, too. I have been so exhausted that I have fallen off to sleep OK, but then I keep awakening throughout the night and remembering and maybe it would help if I could find something to grab ahold of then.

Really, the craziest things can become very dear. On Saturday when Peg was still able to make it to the yard, she mainly just sat and lounged in one spot. But I picked out a couple of nice sticks for her to gnaw on, which she always loved to do. Of course, we just left them behind when we went back inside. Yesterday afternoon our lawn crew came to mow and I looked out the window and realized they were just going to plow right over her sticks and grind them up. I went flying out and flagged the guys down and grabbed the sticks, and I could tell they thought I was crazy. But those sticks are now precious to me. Who'da thought...! But I can't sleep with sticks, so maybe I can think of something else. :o

Anyway, thanks so much for sharing your journey with me. It really does help, so much.

Dear Sonja sent me a necklace, it had a spot to put a bit of ashes in. I wore it for a long time and would reach up and hold the pendant in my hand every time I would think of Zoe or have a hard time.

Later hubby bought me a tiny silver locket with Zoe's name engraved on it. I wear it every day but when it is a holiday or another hard time, I go back to Sonja's necklace.

I remember Susan slept with Palmers stuffed duck for a very long time.

What a lovely gift about the locket. I always said that's what I would do with Lena's ashes...I haven't done it yet, I open the tin and then close it...too soon.

Dear Trisha
I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet Flynn. He will always be in your heart and soul.
Love Sonja,Apollo

Hey all, thanks for your lovely messages they really perk me up. Can't believe it's only 12 days since Flynn left us, feels like an eternity :( now we have Dad having more health issues, he is just like Flynny getting older and everything starting to catch up with him. Still last night we had a lovely family dinner with my brother and SIL staying with them. Be nice to have everyone well for a while eh, sometimes life just sucks :(

So sorry to hear about your dad.:o It would be lovely if everyone stayed well for a while.

Thinking of you and our spunky Flynny boy. He captured my heart. I miss him.

xxxxoooo

Thinking about you and Flynny. I know it does feel like an eternity for you, that feeling is just the worst. :( I hope things aren't too serious with your Dad. It is so hard as they age, I am having some of that with my Mom as well. Heck, I am having it with myself!!

Well, I am missing your boy, but get a smile thinking about him eating bacon and chicken night and day. The vision of doggy heaven. :) xo

Thinking of you and Flynn. You know we all loved reading about him.
He holds a special place in our hearts.

What is the saying, getting old is not for the faint of heart?

I hope Dad's health issues get sorted out. All we can do is take all that is thrown at us the best we can. Sometimes it seems never ending.

Hoping your work week keeps you busy and the kittens entertain and make you smile.

Thanks girls, dunno if you remember couple years back dad had that nasty infection in his hip joint replacement. Looks like it is back in his other hip :( but worse his leg has swollen up and there is a clot in vein in groin most likely caused by the pressure from the infection which measured 10 cm on CT scan on Thursday. So he started anticoagulants to deal with that. God knows how we going to deal with the infection as that would involve surgery of some kind which is obviously not good with bleeding risk on the blood thinners :( trying to tee up ortho consult this week. Poor Dad, so worried about him :( No Flynny to console us either :(

Oh Trish so sorry to hear about this. The infection is bad enough without complications from the necessary anticoagulants. And all this right on top of the loss of your precious boy. I'm praying for you. I know there is such a hole in your heart now. Flynn is watching over you, I know he is! Hugs!!

Trish, sending tons of healing thoughts flying your dad's way. Such a load of worry on all your minds, and as you say, without the comfort of Flynn to help you all through. Not fair!! :( :(

Please let us know how things are going, and try to take good care of yourself, too, in the midst of so much stress. I know it's hard to do when you are the one needing to take charge and guide the action. Just remember we are always here whenever you may need us!

Hoping for some alternatives for your Dad. Embracing you and your family with lots of love and positive thoughts.

This is a hard time for you and I know your parents are mourning Flynn as well. We will all be there for you, Trish.

Yes I do remember that nasty infection that your dad had before. It took a while, a long while, but finally cleared. Hoping this one will too.

Thinking of you and sending positive, healing thoughts your way. Please keep us posted. xxxxoooo

Kathy

Oh Trish, I do remember that awful infection. I am so sorry he is having to deal with it again. I know how worried you must be. Were you able to get an ortho appt? I am praying that there are alternatives to treat the infection without surgery right now.

Sending lots of love and positive thoughts to you and your family. So much for you to deal with now. We are here for you. xo

Thanks girls, yes I spoke to the ortho surgeon yesterday and will get an appointment for tomorrow. Dad feeling ok in himself, wants to go to his usual weekly snooker game with his buddies today :) I hope we get some good news tomorrow xx

Heres to hope of good news:):):)


((())))

Thinking of you and Dad,
Toast to our Flynn, too.

Just wanted him at the top:o

Yes Addy, he should definitely be at the top.:D

Love and miss our beach loving, chat chasing, hole digging, muck rolling, man about town. Our "All Blacks" team mascot. Flynny boy!!!

I think the rainbow bridge needs a new system. It should be like a fabulous spa with all the pampering and amenities. They should be able to stay for a couple of days drinking the elixir of life and rejuvenating, then sent back to their families here on earth for many more joyous and healthy years together. It should be their choice to stay or return.

Big hugs Trish. Pleae let us know what's happening with your dad,
oooxxx
Kathy

Thanks girls, always cheers me up reading your notes. Well it is not infection, ortho specialist thinks that's a red herring. He thinks it was a bleed perhaps caused by changing his anticoagulants to clopidogrel. So that's good news,but it would be nice to know what is caused it worries me that if it was a bleed we have him on more heavy duty anticoagulants now because of the clot which perhaps could cause further bleeding, but we have appointment soon to see vascular surgeon where hopefully we will get more info and some answers but for now he seems stable. It was Mum and Das 58th wedding anniversary today, they took themselves out to a fancy lunch at a winery, so how lucky am I to have parents in their 80s still able to do that! Very lucky indeed :)

We are trucking along, life at work has been busy and I had to go out of town for a meeting last weekend and my niece came with me which was lovely. But everything still has a feeling of being all wrong, especially when I get home at night, you have left a big big hole Flynnikin, missing him heaps xx xxx

I would say having parents in their 80s dining at a winery for their 58th anniversary is a pretty awesome thing. It sounds like your dad has a bit better diagnosis and hopefully the vascular surgeon will help.

You have had so much thrown at you, Trish, losing Flynn and then going straight to worried sick about your dad with no Flynny boy for moral support.

I wish I could fly to visit you, we could spend the week, looking at pictures, downing girly drinks and remembering when.

Ah, big sigh

It is totally awesome! I hope that means your dad is feeling better too.

I'd fly with you Addy. LOL Girly drinks and girl talk, sound like just the thing!

Me too, me too, me too!!!!!!! :D

Ah, sounds like a great party would be in store for us all! :) :)

Trish, very glad to hear that infection has been ruled out for your dad but I know you're still anxious to track down the actual cause. Hoping for the best for him, and for many more fancy lunches and anniversary celebrations for your parents.

Thank you for stopping off on my thread once again. Everything you said there was so true and so meaningful for me, too. We are kind of doing the same -- carrying on with life, but sort of at an odd tilt. As you said above, so much just feels wrong. I just gave Luna her first bath since we lost Peg, and things felt both the same and different all at the same time. Luna gets so excited jumping out of the tub and running down the stairs to head outside to shake off that we were having to be very careful about keeping Peg out of the way so that she wouldn't get knocked down and hurt in the process. Well, there was no worry about that happening today, but I certainly would have wished the worry back if only I could. :o :o

I know we'll all keep mucking along. But it helps so much to have everybody here right alongside us. Thinking of you and the kittens every day!

Marianne

Dear Trish....just now learning about our oh-so-special Flynny Boy. :( What a trooper he was! Such an inspiration for so many over the years. He will be missed here by all who ever had the chance to meet him and I have no doubt that is true everywhere he ever went.

I hope your heart is starting to heal and the precious memories you hold are able to bring a smile to your face at times in spite of the tears. Flynn is in some great company these days and I am quite sure the Rainbow Fields have really come alive since he arrived. So many precious babies to welcome him and help keep him busy til your time here is done and you are together again. And we will all be with our babies again - of this I am positive! Til then, we live our lives, always honoring these precious ones who touched our Souls so very deeply.

Our deepest sympathies,
Leslie, Trinket, Brick, Sophie, Fox, and all our angels

Dogs Never Die
Ernest Montague

"Some of you, particularly those who think they have recently lost a dog to ‘death’, don’t really understand this. I’ve had no desire to explain, but won’t be around forever and must.

Dogs never die. They don’t know how to. They get tired, and very old, and their bones hurt. Of course they don’t die. If they did they would not want to always go for a walk, even long after their old bones say: ‘No, no, not a good idea. Let’s not go for a walk.’ Nope, dogs always want to go for a walk. They might get one step before their aging tendons collapse them into a heap on the floor, but that’s what dogs are. They walk.

It’s not that they dislike your company. On the contrary, a walk with you is all there is. Their boss, and the cacophonic symphony of odor that the world is. Cat poop, another dog’s mark, a rotting chicken bone (exultation), and you. That’s what makes their world perfect, and in a perfect world death has no place.

However, dogs get very very sleepy. That’s the thing, you see. They don’t teach you that at the fancy university where they explain about quarks, gluons, and Keynesian economics. They know so much they forget that dogs never die. It’s a shame, really. Dogs have so much to offer and people just talk a lot.

When you think your dog has died, it has just fallen asleep in your heart. And by the way, it is wagging its tail madly, you see, and that’s why your chest hurts so much and you cry all the time. Who would not cry with a happy dog wagging its tail in their chest. Ouch! Wap wap wap wap wap, that hurts. But they only wag when they wake up. That’s when they say: ‘Thanks Boss! Thanks for a warm place to sleep and always next to your heart, the best place.’

When they first fall asleep, they wake up all the time, and that’s why, of course, you cry all the time. Wap, wap, wap. After a while they sleep more. (remember, a dog while is not a human while. You take your dog for walk, it’s a day full of adventure in an hour. Then you come home and it’s a week, well one of your days, but a week, really, before the dog gets another walk. No WONDER they love walks.)

Anyway, like I was saying, they fall asleep in your heart, and when they wake up, they wag their tail. After a few dog years, they sleep for longer naps, and you would too. They were a GOOD DOG all their life, and you both know it. It gets tiring being a good dog all the time, particularly when you get old and your bones hurt and you fall on your face and don’t want to go outside to pee when it is raining but do anyway, because you are a good dog. So understand, after they have been sleeping in your heart, they will sleep longer and longer.

But don’t get fooled. They are not ‘dead.’ There’s no such thing, really. They are sleeping in your heart, and they will wake up, usually when you’re not expecting it. It’s just who they are.

I feel sorry for people who don’t have dogs sleeping in their heart. You’ve missed so much. Excuse me, I have to go cry now.”

Oh thank goodness, thought I was having palpitations! But is just Flynny's swippy tail brushing my heart :) I like that. Thanks Leslie, hope all good with you x

You all don't want to come visit now, it's freezing! Middle of winter, frosty, snow on mountains but lovely sunny clear blue sky days this weekend. But I got good heating and spare rooms so come on down you all welcome! I'm doing ok, had a work party on Friday night so had a few girly drinks too many and got home feeling very sad Flynny was not here to greet me :( so mental note, no alcohol when feeling like this as makes it tons worse!

i think that is the worst thing of all sometimes. The silence when you come home and they aren't there to greet you. To want their dinner or a walk. It's an empty hole that is just overwhelming to your emotions.

Hmm. I think the best time to visit you is during our winter and your summer! How jealous I am to hear of your lovely warm weather when here in Canada we are freezing our tushes off. Lol.