My Pug Scoop (Precious Scoop has passed... )

Thanks Valerie.
I tried my hardest to help Scoop. It hurts just thinking about the what-ifs. It's just so sad it had to end like it did. I miss him so much. My heart still aches.

Valerie:
I could fill up a book about my could have's , should haves, if only, maybes, probablys etc. on the things I have second guessed with Tipper's life. My main if only is that I would not have given her prednisone for allergies, and we would not be where we are. I know this keeps playing over and over in your head. At times it is impossible to shut it off, I know from experience. I am instead trying to think of all the things done, accomplished, tried, prayed for, researched, and any little victories we have had. I try to get the others out of my head. If I keep feeling I caused this on My Tipper I will just crumble. I need to go on for her sake. This morning I am having Lupus symptoms and just would like to lay down and rest. Well that is not happening, as Tipper is up and wants to walk, and that she shall. Please try, cause I know it is not easy, to fill your heart with all these things you did to help your baby. I know you would have gone to Mars to help him. After all look, you took him for radiation, because you thought that you would leave no stone unturned. I would have followed your path also. You were going to the nth degree for this baby, as I would. You left it all out there Vicki on this one shot to help him. Please don't blame yourself, even though that is easy for me to say and I do it myself. It is easy for anyone to realize the depth of love you have for Scoop, and how you went to the ends of the earth to help him. He knows you did Vicki, he knows you did not let him down. He knows you pushed and shoved to get him whatever he needed. He knows you never wanted to be without him. He would not want to see you so unhappy. He knew you were the best mom in the world and you stuck by him thru it all. I get a knot in my stomach when I think of how things turned out for you both, as I have told you many times, Tipper and I will walk in your shoes, it is inevitable. I am tied so deeply to her that I don't know if I could survive her leaving me. You will in your own way come to terms with this in time. Do what you must to get thru it, and hang onto your other baby as he needs you now and probably is sensing your sadness. Blessings
Patti

Patti, Thank you. You are a sweetheart.

Vicki,
I have my share of what if's that play on a continuous reel in my mind. I think it's all part of the grieving process. What matters most is that our boys know without a doubt that they are loved. Loved every second or every day, forever.:p Yes, I still feel really sad and cry clutching Buddy's blanket and stuffed frog. Waves of sadness wash over me like the tide rushing in. There are other times when I'm able to function pretty well. I think it all takes time to feel what we need to before we can continue on and find a new normal. Sending you loving thoughts and prayers. You will make it Vicki. We both will.
Big hugs,

Hey Vicki, sending hugs and prayers, my what ifs get to me too, but I have to keep telling myself that I did the best I could for my Simba, just as you did for your precious Scoop...somewhere I heard that the ones who come onto your life for a little while makes the most impact, I truly believe that...Simba taught me so much and I miss him every day, just as your precious Scoop taught you things...hang on to seeing him again someday, and those precious visits that only they can do, and take one day at a time, here for you!!!

Kathy and Letti, I can't thank you enough for watching out for me. It helps to know how you feel since we lost our boys so close together. There are times (lots of times) when I have this horrible knot in my stomach and my chest feels like it wants to explode. It just overwhelms me and I start crying. It's still just so hard to believe this has happened and Scoop isn't here. Love and miss my sweet boy Scoop so much.
Thank you again my friends.
Hugs to all.

Vicki:
I was in a hurry and unknowingly put a message on Letti's thread for you. Blessings
Patti

Thanks Patti, I saw it.

Vicki:
Dr. Bruyette just answered me and said he is doing studies on pathogenesis of Cushings in dogs and in humans. He said they can always use funds for research. There was a link with a tour of their new hospital, it is fabulous. The people there are lucky to have a facility like this. I bet it is very expensive though. So what do we do from here? Blessings
Patti

Patti, So Dr. Bruyette's hospital is actually doing a study on the cause of Cushing's? I know they are doing the study on shrinking the tumor. So they are studying the cause also? Did he tell you anything about how to donate? I wish I was a millionaire. I don't know what to say. Maybe others might have some suggestions. It would be nice if we could send him a big, fat check from all of our babies.