My baby doll Scoop

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop. You left us July 1, 2013 around 11:00PM-11:10PM.
My heart is breaking. I miss you so, so much.
I didn't want to leave there. I wanted to stay with you and just hold you and give you kisses forever. I can still feel you in my arms. Your soft ears in my hands. My lips kissing your head.

I don't know how I am going to get through the days and nights without you here with us. You are so special. You were such a good boy. There will never be another one like you. I am so proud to be your mom.

I want to hold you again and I can't. I miss those soft ears and those big beautiful eyes.

I am so sorry you got sick and I couldn't help you. I'm sorry I wasn't there to hold you as you crossed the bridge. It breaks my heart we weren't there with you.

I can't believe your gone. My heart feels like it has been stomped on and it will never heal.

I hope you know how very much we love you, forever and ever.
I love you, I love you, I love you my big boy, baby doll Scoop!
You are my sweetheart.

Love and hugs and kisses forever.

Mom

[mytil]

Dearest Vicki,

I am so very sorry for your loss. I know your little man will always be with you.

We are all here for you.
In Memory of your sweetie pie Scoop.
(((hugs)))
Terry

[Fellasmom]

Vicki,
I'm so sorry to hear about your baby Scoop.My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Love,
Patty

[milosmom]

aww vicki i can't tell you how deeply sorry i am for your broken heart,it is so hard to lose our babies.vicki know that you gave your baby scoop the best life ever and he will always have that special place in your heart.i am sending you great big hugs and send you prayers for healing.patty(milo)meka xoxox

[scoora]

Hi Scoop, my sweetheart.
I miss you so much. Words can't even express how much.
I feel so lost without you. I think about you every minute.
I love you!!
Hugs and kisses,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
I want you to know I think about you constantly. I can not believe you are not here with us. The days are so empty without you. You are my sweetheart. I love you very much.
Love, hugs and kisses
from Mom

[scoora]

Scoop, I couldn't sleep much. I keep thinking about you. I miss you so much. I hope you know how much you are loved and missed every second of every day.

Hugs, kisses and ear rubs.
I love you.
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweet Scoop,
I am so sorry for all that has happened. I hope you can forgive me.
I don't think I will ever be able to forgive myself.
I love you and miss you so much it hurts, baby doll.
I wish I was with you right now giving you an ear rub and lots of kisses on your sweet little head.
I am hurting so bad right now.
I hope you can forgive me and you still love me as much as I love you.
Hugs, kisses, ear rubs and lots of love to you forever.
Mom

[scoora]

Hi baby doll, my big boy Scoop,
I miss you more than you'll ever know.
I want to tell you how much I am sorry for what happened.
I love you with all my heart and would never have done anything on purpose to hurt you much less cause you to not be here with us.
This is so hard for me. I wanted to help you to get better and for you to be with us for a long time and this hurts so much. What happened, baby?
Please forgive me my sweetheart.
I wish I was giving you kisses and ear rubs right now.
Love you Scoop.
Mom

[scoora]

Sweet Scoop,
Today has been really tough. One week ago was the last day you spent here at home with us. It's been so hard. You did not seem like you were getting sick. I wish I knew what happened.
I have been looking through some old pictures and they make me smile seeing you younger and enjoying so many things.
Tonight is going to be really hard. I might come back and talk again later.
Love you forever, Scoop
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweet boy Scoop,
One week ago you spent your last night at home with us.
I miss you so much. Why did you have to go?
My heart aches so much to hold you and give you kisses.
Love you forever.
Hugs , kisses and ear rubs
Love you,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweet baby doll Scoop,
One week ago you left home to go to the hospital and that was the last time you were in your home. I wish you didn't have to go.
I am so sorry for what happened. We all miss you so much. I know Molly and daddy miss you just like I do. I think Raleigh does too. He always liked being with you. Why did you have to leave us?
It is very hot and humid here. Raleigh has been minding it very much. He was just sitting here aside of me and some bears came on TV. You know Raleigh. He had to jump off the couch and bark at them. That's Raleigh!
I keep thinking if I would have done things differently would you still be here with us?
I know you had a lot of problems but I didn't expect this to happen.
I will be back later.
I miss you and love you forever my sweetheart.
I want to hold you again and kiss your sweet head and it hurts because I can't.
Love you,
Mom

[scoora]

Oh Scoop,
Tomorrow is going to be such a sad day. It is going to be tough. It will be one week that you are not here with us. It feels like it has been an eternity since we were together and I was able to hold you and kiss your sweet head and rub your ears.

My mind doesn't stop thinking of you and what happened. I feel this need to know what caused you to leave us. I keep thinking should I have had an autopsy done? This is going to eat at me the rest of my life, not knowing.
I wish I could let it go and accept what happened but you know your mom, I'm not that kind of person. I can't let things go. Just like I kept thinking I just had to be able to get you better and look what happened there.

If you could help me out and let me know somehow what caused you to pass on, it would make me feel a bit better. I'm having a hard time not only because I miss and love you so much but also because I wasn't with you at the end and now not knowing what happened to you is so, so hard.

I love you my sweet Scoop.
Till tomorrow-hugs and kisses
Love,
Mom

[scoora]

Morning my baby doll, Scoop,
I can't stop thinking about you and missing you so very much. I am having such a hard time. All I want to do is be with you and hold you, my sweet boy.
I will be back later, not sure when. I might be going to meet with a group tonight to talk about you.
I wish I would get a sign from you. I had one short nightmare about you last week. It startled me awake. I keep looking at your pictures. I miss you so very much.
I hope you have lots of friends to play with.
I miss you and love you forever and ever my sweet Scoop.
Love, hugs, kisses and ear rubs,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweet Scoop,
One week ago tonight you left us. It has been a tough week without you here.
We all miss you so very much and wish you didn't have go.
We love you more than words can say.
Love forever, Mom

[scoora]

Hi Scoop,
I was at the hospital tonight. I saw Chrissy and Carole. I showed them some of your pictures that I had with me. I got to meet Chrissy's boy Carter. He is a sweet boy just like you. Chrissy told me several times that you reminded her of Carter. He was giving Chrissy the paw just like you did when you wanted more ear rub. Carole said that you seemed to enjoy the ear rub she gave you before you passed away. I so need to know that you were content before you passed and were not in any pain. They told me they tried their hardest to bring you back but they couldn't. I'm sorry you had to leave us. You are missed so very much. We love you forever baby doll. Good night my sweet angel.
Love Mom

[scoora]

Oh my Scoop,
I miss you so, so very much. I want to hold you again. It hurts.
I wish I would have a wonderful dream about you. You are always in my thoughts and in my heart.
I will be talking to Dr. Carter in a couple of hours. I don't hold out much hope on her telling me anything that might be of help to me but I have to see.

I am thinking about talking to a medium. Hope you would be up for that.
I wish I would have checked into talking to an animal communicator before you passed to see if she could find out what was going on with you but I never thought we were going to lose you last Monday night. Even though I know you were sick I wasn't prepared for what happened.

I will be back later. I can't stay away. I feel the need to at least come and tell you how much I love you and miss you my sweet boy.
Love, Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
I talked to Dr. Carter today. She is pretty sure about what happened to you. It made me sad to hear that she thinks the infection was too much for your organs. I'm sorry my sweet boy that you had to go through that. I hope you weren't in pain. They seem to think you weren't. That you went to sleep and didn't wake up. I'm still sorry that you had to leave us. We miss you so very much. Know that we love you with all our hearts. We didn't want you to go.
Lots of love, hugs and ear rubs.
Love forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my Scoop,
I came to say goodnight to you and tell you that I think about you all the time.
I still can't believe you aren't here with us anymore. That makes me so sad.
I thought of a few more questions to ask Dr. Carter. I just feel bad about bothering her again.
I hope you have lots of friends to play with and have lots of good treats.
You are such a special boy. I love you with all my heart and miss you so much.
Lots of love, hugs and ear rubs.
Love forever,
Mom

[scoora]

My sweet boy Scoop,
I took Raleigh out this morning and I thought about you not being here for me to take you out. I started crying and haven't stopped. I miss you so, so much.
My heart aches to see you and be with you and hold you and give you kisses and ear rubs but I know I can't and it hurts.
Love you forever my baby doll.
Mom

[scoora]

My Scoop,
Wanted to say I love you, I miss you.
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweet boy Scoop,
Today I cried so much because I miss you. I picked up some pictures that I had done and they were recent photos of you. Molly and I looked at them tonight and it made us both so sad that you aren't here with us. We all love you. We all miss you. I wish you wouldn't have had to leave us. I want you to be here with us. I am so sorry you had to get sick. I wish I would have known what was going on with you. I tried my best but it wasn't good enough. I am so very sorry. It just breaks my heart so much I can't stand it.
I will say good night. You are loved and missed so, so much.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll, Scoop,
I haven't heard from the hospital yet unless they tried to call while I was talking to grandma. She called thinking you were supposed to be here with us yesterday. I said I was waiting to hear. I'm so nervous. I wanted you to come home to us healthy so we could all give you hugs and kisses. I miss you my sweet big boy. I'll be back later.
Hugs, kisses, ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweet Scoop,
We are glad you are home with us. It is not the way we wanted you to come home but I'm sorry there is nothing I can do to change that. I wish I could. I got some more pictures printed and picked them up today. They are from years ago. Do you remember the year you put your head in the garbage bag with the Christmas wrapping paper in it? I got pictures of you with your butt sticking out. Too cute. You were something else. Also got a couple pictures of you sitting on Molly's belly. You loved sitting on her belly and her back and when you were little you would like to chew on her hair while sitting on her back.

I wrote Dr. Carter a letter and asked her some questions. We'll see if she answers them.

I miss you so much my sweet boy.
Hugs, kisses, ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

My Sweet Scoop,
I can not get you off my mind. I think and think about what happened to you. It is driving me crazy. I hope you can forgive me for everything. I wish you were still here with us. I miss you baby doll.
Hugs, kisses, ear rubs.
I love you forever.
Mom

[scoora]

Hey my Scoop,
Miss you so much my baby doll.
I hope you can feel the love we all have for you.
Hugs, kisses, ear rubs.
I love you forever.
Mom

[apollo6]

Dear Vicki
I am so sorry for the loss of your angel. Scoop will always be in your heart. Keep writing, let her love enfold you.
Love and hugs Sonja and Angel Apollo.

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
It was 2 weeks ago tonight that you spent your last night here at home.
It has been and continues to be so very hard for me without you. I miss you so very much. I think about you all the time. I hope you can still feel all of our love for you. You are so special my sweet big boy.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs
I love you forever.
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweet Scoop,
The weekends are so hard thinking about you spending your last day at home and going to the hospital for the last time.

I miss going grocery shopping on Saturday mornings and coming home to have you all excited for me to be home. Then remembering you having your breathing problem and having to take you to the hospital Sunday morning. The last time you were here with us.

Daddy and I spent a very special moment together this morning about you. He misses you so very much. Molly misses you lots and lots too. I'm sure Raleigh does. He used to love being with you. Just laying by your side.

I hope you know how very much I miss you and love you. Things are so different and so difficult without you my sweet boy.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweet baby doll Scoop,
Tonight it will be 2 weeks since left us and I saw you and held you and kissed you for the last time. Oh how hard it has been. I miss you so very much. The tears still flow freely anytime. I wish I could hold you and kiss you and give you ear rubs again. How you loved your ear rubs. Whenever somebody was rubbing them and would stop you would paw at them and want more.
Today I was having one of my guilt trips. I just feel like I should have known something was going on and been able to help you. I hope you can forgive me if there was something I could have done different that would have helped you. I'm still trying to work through all of this. We all miss you and love you so very much. I wish you wouldn't have had to leave us.
You are always in my thoughts and in my heart. In a few hours it is going to be extra hard thinking of what happened two weeks ago. I hope you weren't in any pain and you were thinking of your family, who loves you so very much, when you left us.
You are my big boy, my baby doll and I love you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

My sweetheart Scoop,
It's been 2 weeks now.
I miss you so very much, my baby doll. Love you lots. I sat here holding your box for over an hour. I'm getting tired so I'll be back tomorrow to talk.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
Molly and I were sitting here tonight looking at some pictures that I found in a box in the basement. Some of them were of you on the day we brought you home. Some of the others were from shortly after that when you were so young. In the one you were dashing around the yard. Molly said she remembers you used to run around and around the dining room table. She said you used to fly up the stairs to her bedroom jump up on her bed, jump down and then run back down the stairs.
Miss you so very much.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
I'm very tired. I'll be back tomorrow to talk.
Have to tell you how much I miss you and love you!
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
I am missing you so much. I wanted to tell you I am thinking of you and miss you all the time. Oh how I wish things would have turned out different. I still think it could have.
I have some errands to do. I'll be back later. Just wanted to tell you how much we all love and miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
Picked up some more pictures today that I got printed. Later Molly and I will sit down and look at them. We sit there together, looking at the pictures and they bring tears to our eyes. We miss you so very much. I am feeling guilty about what happened to you. I am so very sorry for all that happened to you. I'm thinking this didn't have to end like it did. Right now I am not happy with the vets. I hope you weren't in any pain. It must have been building up in you for a while. I feel so bad about everything. I hope you know I would not have done anything to hurt you. I love you and I didn't want you to leave us. I am struggling so much with all this right now. The more I think about everything the more my heart breaks and the angrier I get.
I hope you forgive me and love me as much as I love you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Molly and I looked at the pictures last night and we did cry. We miss you so very much. I picked up a few more pictures today but not near as many as yesterday. I think we will pick one of the pictures from today and have a 5x7 made for the special frame that Molly got for your table. It has a beautiful poem on the left side and a place for a picture of you on the right side. Molly said she will be getting you some more fresh flowers over the weekend. I go to your table many times a day and give you a kiss and tell you how much I love you and miss you. I hope you hear me tell you that.
I will say goodnight to you on here. When I am ready to turn in I will give you a kiss and say goodnight and tell you I love you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Tonight it is 3 weeks since you spent your last night here at home with us. We still miss you so very, very much. It has been so hard since you have been gone. I think of your last few days and I feel so, so sad and just cry. Please forgive me. I didn't want that to happen. I love you so much. The heartache is still unbearable. I wish we could go back and do things over and have a different outcome. I want to be able to give you kisses and ear rubs again and just hold you. I miss your cute face.
I'll be back tomorrow, which will be another hard day.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
Today has been another tough one. Molly and I were just talking about you. You are always on my mind. I miss you so very much. I found a few more older pictures of when you were a young guy. Tears still flow easily. My heart hurts.
Molly bought you some fresh sunflowers today. A few of the wildflowers that came with the sunflowers last week were still OK so we put them back in the vase along with the new sunflowers. They look so nice. When you were younger you used to love to smell flowers. I found a picture of Molly holding a flower and you are smelling it. When we lived in Allentown when you were younger you used to like to do your business while you were smelling the flowers in the yard. What a silly guy you were.
I forgot to tell you. Yesterday Molly got a tattoo. I went with her. It is 2 paw prints. They are on the outside of her right leg, aside of her ankle. One is blue with a heart in the middle of it and it has a yellow/gold halo over it. That one is for you. The other one is red with a heart in the middle of it. That one is for Raleigh. The blue is because you wore the blue harness and leash and the red for Raleigh because he wore the red harness and leash. She said maybe in time she will get your names put on.
I'll be back tomorrow.
We all love and miss you so very much.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
I had to come by and tell you how much I am sorry for the way things happened this past year and especially your last few days. I am hurting so much. I am so sorry. Please forgive me. I miss you so very much and I love you with all my heart. Tonight it will be 3 weeks since you left us. I'll be back later my sweet boy.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
I keep looking at the clock. Around 11:00PM or just after, it will be 3 weeks since you left us. They couldn't tell me an exact time. It hasn't gotten any easier since 3 weeks ago. The only time I might have a little smile on my face is when I come across some pictures of you from when you were young or I'm sitting at the camera store to get pictures made of you when you were young. Just seeing you being happy in the picture brings a little smile to my face but then reality slaps me. I am sitting here holding your box on my lap. I wish I would be giving you an ear rub and some kisses. I wish you could give me some kind of a sign that you are OK and that you forgive me and that you love us. This has been so, so hard. Molly had to work late tonight and just now as she should be walking to her car it started to pour. I have quite a few pictures to pick up tomorrow. I am going to need lots of photo albums or a big container till I'm done getting all of your pictures. That's OK. I'm glad I have them. There might be some on the computer that got the virus. Hopefully Saul will be able to retrieve them for me. Know that I am sitting here holding you close. You will always be close by me as long as my memory doesn't fail me. Forever in my heart my sweet Scoop.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
It's just about that time. I had to come back and tell you I am holding you and thinking of you my sweet boy. Wish you were here. I love you so much. Miss you my sweet boy.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
I wanted to let you know I am thinking of you. I have pictures for Molly and me to look at. I got a picture made to put in the special frame Molly got for you. You will like it. You were young, no gray, a couple of your teeth are showing and you have one of your favorite toys. Also your head is turned a little bit.
Oh, to bring back those happy days.
I am always thinking of you and my love for you is always in my heart.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Oh how I miss you. I feel so alone right now. I wish I could hold you and kiss your sweet head and give you ear rubs. Dr. T called me today. As soon as she said who it was I started to cry. I don't know how much I can take. My heart aches constantly. If people die of broken hearts, I am feel like I am close to it.
Raleigh likes to get his belly rubbed but he isn't as affectionate as you. You were always a little love bug.
I got some books today that I hope will give me some help. I sure need it. I think I will get one out now and start to read. See how long I can do that till it makes me sleepy.
I wish things didn't have to be like this. I wish you were still here and you would be healthy and bugging me for something to eat.
I love you with all my heart.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
Sorry, I'm a little late tonight. Molly and I looked at many pictures tonight. They are so sweet. I love coming across all of these pictures of you. I had forgotten I took all of them. I'm so happy I did.
Molly's little angel doggie statue came yesterday and she opened it tonight. It is so sweet. Right now it is by your table but not sure where she wants to keep it. It is just the sweetest thing. Molly knows how to pick the nicest, sweetest things.
I love you so very much my sweet boy. It is still so hard to get through the days. I miss you so much.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
After supper tonight I found it to be very hard. I sat out back for a while and just cried. Tomorrow starts the weekend. They are tough on me and then comes the dreaded Monday. It will be 4 weeks Monday. I can still picture the last time I held you and kissed your head and told you how much I love you. I am afraid of losing that. I wish life wouldn't have to be so hard and so heartbreaking.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
4 weeks ago tonight you spent your last night here at home with us. We miss you and love you so very much. I can't believe it has been 4 weeks but seems like yesterday. I am so sorry for the way things happened. I hope you know if I could have changed things I would have. I didn't want you to leave us. It has been so hard without you here to kiss and love and give ear rubs to. You are so very special and we will love and miss you forever.
I love you with all my heart.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
4 weeks ago this morning I had to take you to the hospital. I visited with you for a while later in the afternoon. Oh how I wish I could still hold you and give you kisses and talk to you like I did then. I miss you so very, very much. I wish you were still here with us. I am so sorry you had to get so sick. You are always on my mind and in my heart.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
It is almost 4 weeks since you left. I have you on my lap, just holding you.
Tonight Molly said she still can't believe you are gone. I said, me too!
It's been so very hard. They didn't know for sure what time you left us 4 weeks ago but it was somewhere around this time. I miss you so very much my sweet boy.
Molly brought home 6 fresh sunflowers for you tonight after work. They look so pretty on your table. I picked up some pictures today. There are 2 pictures in there where you are smelling flowers in the back yard many years ago at the old house. You used to like to smell the flowers.
Scoop you are always in our hearts. We love and miss you so very much.
I am so sorry you had to get so sick and had to leave us. I wish I could have helped you get better. With all my heart I wish you didn't have to leave us. Now it is about the time I got the horrible phone call that will forever haunt me saying you went into cardiac arrest. I'm sorry baby doll. I wish it would have been different. You were such a good boy. You didn't deserve having all those problems. I wish you were still here.
Another friend joined you and the others today, Jackie's boy, Ugga.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
I took the bags of dry food and your baby food to a place where some other doggies can enjoy them. I left a little donation saying it was in memory of my Scoop. I might go to another place tomorrow and give them those cat treats and give them a little donation too. I wish I could give lots more. Maybe I can send some at another time. I felt so bad for all the doggies that were there locked up in the kennels. Some were barking their heads off and others seemed so shy and quiet.
I miss you my sweet boy. Love you lots and lots.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
I will have a lot of pictures to pick up tomorrow. I did quite a few today. After that I went to Peaceable Kingdom. I gave them the cat treats, Kylee's pills and a small donation. All I do is think about you. I miss you so much!
I forgot to mention this on Monday. I was taking a bowl of cantaloupe rinds down the back to put in the pile and as I walked just past the line of trees I had this feeling you were there and I thought I saw you for a very brief moment. You were by my side then went running. Was that you or was I just hoping to see you? You used to love to roam around in the backyard. You didn't want to go in the house unless we would tell you-chickie, want some chickie. Then you would come running. I miss all those little things you used to do. It makes me so sad. Thank you for being you. You are so special. We are so glad you are part of our family.
I'm so glad Molly and I came to the pet shop when we did and we were able to take you home with us 12 1/2 years ago.
Miss you my sweet boy. Love you so much.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Not much to tell you tonight except I love you! I have pictures to show Molly so we will be doing that shortly. Kathy made me smile when she said about you and Buddy and Simba being best buds. I love you and miss you so very much.
Talk to you tomorrow.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Molly's out tonight with her friends. I hope she's careful. I got a few pictures today, not many. They are ones Molly asked me to get printed. You are sitting on her lap looking at her.
I took Raleigh to John's house today and we went with him and Comet to Comet's vet to pick up Comet's food. I wanted to see what it was like there. I'm thinking of switching Raleigh from the vet the two of you went to. I just don't know if I can go back there any more. I have a hard time just driving past the place but then I feel like I will be breaking a tie I had with you. Not sure yet what to do. Raleigh put on the brakes as soon as we walked in the vet's door. It was just like he knew where he was. The girls tried giving him carrots and a biscuit treat. He didn't want any. Raleigh has become pretty picky with food. He used to gobble up carrots when you would eat them. Now he won't touch them. I think a lot of times he did what you would do. He followed his big brother. Raleigh used to love being with you. We all did. We all miss you so very much.
Do you remember the lady at the pharmacy who would talk to you and she had a pug named Dolly? They belonged to the Lehigh Valley Pug Group. I talked to her today and she told me she lost her Dolly back in May. So heartbreaking.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
5 weeks ago tonight was the last night you spent here at home with your family. Saturdays are so very hard for me. So are Sundays and Mondays and Fridays can be a bit too. I miss you so very, very much my Scoop.
Every morning I wake up and I have such a cry.
Molly bought you some new sunflowers today. They are so pretty. There are 5 yellow ones and 5 red tinted ones. The ones Molly got you last Monday aren't in too bad of shape so they are in the vase with the new ones. They all look so beautiful in the vase.
The lady that I talked to when I was at Peaceable Kingdom the other day emailed me to tell me they had found a Pug who has to have surgery then he will be put up for adoption. That was so nice of the lady to do that. Molly had seen on facebook about the Pug. She said the Pug was found in a Tupperware container with holes poked in it so he could breathe. He has a tumor that has to be removed along with neutering and some teeth extractions. The nice lady said he is about 8 years old. I feel so sorry for him. Wish I could adopt all of them.
I wish you were still here with us. I miss you so much.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
5 weeks ago you were in the hospital. Every weekend I think about you being there and not at home with us. It makes me so sad. Tomorrow night it will be 5 weeks since you have been gone. I still miss you so very much. I cry so much cause I miss you my sweet boy.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
My computer is acting up so much. I lost 2 messages I wrote to you. I will try again.
Now the time has passed. Around 11:10PM is when I got that horrible phone call telling me you went into cardiac arrest. She asked, should they keep doing CPR? I screamed YES! and flew out of the house to get to you. When I got there you were already gone. I didn't get to hold you again before you passed away. I'm sorry I wasn't there for you my sweet boy. Every Monday night I sit here with you on my lap, crying as I write to you. The pain is still so deep just like my love for you will always be. That night is just so painful. I miss you so, so much my sweet Scoop. Today I picked up a few pictures I had done. They were taken the day after Molly and I brought you home. Molly and I brought you home on Saturday evening (Jan 27, 2001) and Sunday morning you were shaking so much we couldn't get you to stop. We got scared. We didn't know what was wrong. We wrapped you in a blanket and held you so tight thinking you were cold and when you wouldn't stop we took you to Valley Central to see what was wrong. How ironic. The last time I took you to Valley Central it was a Sunday morning. Your life with us started at Valley Central and it ended at Valley Central. Only thing is we weren't at Valley Central with you when it ended. I am so sorry I wasn't there with you. I miss you so much. We all do! I can't express all the hurt and anger and how sorry I am for the way things ended. A total shock to me. Oh, I just get so angry sometimes I could scream and sometimes I do.
I love you and miss you so very much. We all do. I'm sure Raleigh does too. He loves his big brother. Before you got sick he would always sit or lay down where you were.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
Not much to tell you about tonight. Picked up a few pictures today. Some of them are when Molly bought those Halloween hats for you and Raleigh and she put them on you. You were always a good sport when it came to stuff like that.
You were always such a good boy.
I forgot to tell you the other day when Molly got you flowers and I put the new ones and the ones from last week together it made for such a big, beautiful bunch. Molly said they looked like a "burst of sunshine."
Raleigh's allergies have been bothering him lately. He rubs his belly a lot.
Love and miss you so much.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Molly was looking at some pictures of you that were taken the day after we brought you home. She said it looked like your paws were so big. You were only 3 1/2 months old and I guess you still hadn't grown into them yet. I can't believe 12 1/2 years went by and now you're not here with us any more. It makes me so sad. We all miss you so very much. I wish I could hold you again and give you kisses and ear rubs. Love you so much.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[Budsters Mom]

Thinking of you Vicki and sending you lots of hugs and love. Xxxx

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Raleigh seems a little odd sometimes. He will be in the house and all of a sudden he will start barking. I don't hear anything so I don't think that he does because it seems like his hearing is getting worse. After supper dad took Raleigh out to pee. He stood by the front porch and barked at the bunny planter. Dad said he wouldn't stop until he made him move away. That seems strange for him to do that.
It is pouring down rain right this minute. It has been doing that off and on all day. It was pretty humid today. Had to run the AC today. Didn't have to the last few days. It had been pretty nice and comfortable.
Love and miss you so very much my sweet boy.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[astrosmom]

Scoop's mommy,

My heart breaks right along side with you. Every word, every loving heartfelt remembrance, every tear, I ache with you. My beloved Astro left this world on July 20, I too am lost, hurting, aching with a void that cannot soon be filled. This I know you feel too. And you are not alone.

xoxo
Much love, tight hugs and peace

Donna, Astro's mom.

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
Did a lot of crying today. Just miss you so much. Picked up quite a few pictures today. I took grandma to an appointment this afternoon. You used to love sitting on her lap when she would come and visit. She would always give you an ear rub or two or three. Now the weekend starts and they are always so difficult for me. More crying and missing you my sweet boy.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Boy it sure has been tough. I have been crying so much, missing you. Last night Molly and I looked at the pictures I got printed. They brought tears to our eyes. We miss you so much. We wish you were still here with us.
Peaceable Kingdom had on their website that they need can food for the dogs. I picked up a few cans at the store this morning and took them there before I went home. I saw the dogs while I was there. I said hello to them and they would bark as I walked away from their kennel like they wanted me to come back and visit with them again. I felt so bad for them.
Tonight it is 6 weeks since you spent your last night here at home with us. I still remember that night. Oh I remember. It's been tough. I miss you so, so much my sweet boy.
My heart hurts. Always thinking of you. I love and miss you so very much.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Wow, what another rough day. Every Sunday morning I wake up and the first thing I think about is me taking you to the hospital. It's been 6 weeks. I can't get what happened to you out of my head. It is driving me crazy. I feel like I am going to lose my mind. I want to be able to think about you and not feel like something should have been done that could have helped you not to get so sick. Like you didn't get the proper treatment or they didn't realize what was happening to you and something should have been done and they didn't do it and that's on top of you should have been on your cushings meds. I'm so sorry things ended the way they did. If I am at fault please forgive me. I want to be able to think of you and smile, not cry. I want to remember the good times before you got sick but everything from this past year, esp. the last few weeks before you passed just takes over my mind. I am so miserable right now. I don't know how to handle this. I love you. I miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
It is now 6 weeks since you left us. I am sitting here with you on my lap. The time we got that horrible phone call has come and I would be arriving at the hospital about now. Only to find you had left us already and they couldn't get you back. I wasn't with you baby. I'm sorry. I miss you so much. I wish you were still here with us. I'm sorry for anything I might have done wrong. I hope you know I only wanted to help you. I tried so hard. I wanted you happy and healthy my sweet boy. It hurts so much that things had to end like they did. I am just so sorry. I saw that nice lady Sylvia again tonight. I'm trying baby doll. I just miss you so very much and I do feel guilty at times. Molly bought you 6 beautiful new sunflowers today. They are so pretty. The centers of the flowers are light in color. Others you have had were darker in the center. They are all beautiful just like you my sweet boy. I'm holding you tight right now and the tears are flowing. I just miss you so much. Wish you were laying beside me here. You are my sweetheart forever and ever. Always in my heart and always thinking about you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
It just got done pouring down rain a few minutes ago. I guess it's supposed to get a bit cooler. I always think how you probably would be panting when it's warm out. I just think about you all the time. Everything relates back to you, everything. Molly is going away tomorrow for a few days. I am going to miss her. I went to the camera store today again and printed more pictures. I will pick them up tomorrow. Not feeling the greatest tonight. Love and miss you so very much my sweet boy.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
I don't know baby, I just don't know. It's been tough. Miss you so much.
I am having tummy troubles again tonight just like last night. I picked up pictures today but Molly went away this afternoon and won't be back till sometime Friday. So we'll look at the pictures when she comes home. I'm going to miss her. Seems strange tonight she's not here. It seems strange every day cause your not here. I miss you so much. I hope Molly's careful. You watch over her, OK? It was a nice, cool day today. The days are getting shorter. I am not looking forward to the last few months of the year. I'll be glad when 2013 is over. With your birthday and the holidays it's going to be tough. I'll be remembering everything that happened to you last fall with you totally losing your eyesight, infected calcinosis cutis, MRI, ear surgery, eye ulcer and before all that happened we were without power for almost a week. Actually I know you still had some eyesight on your birthday 10/7 but when the storm hit at the end of the month I don't think you could see much if at all then. Your C.C. started in Oct. Then in Nov came the rest. I remember after your ear surgery was over and the surgeon called me and told me you were fine and she thought all that in your ear was infection and not a tumor, I was so, so happy. That is until I saw the MRI report talking about your macro tumor which Dr. Northington said was small. I don't know my Scoop, so much it's mind boggling. I wish you were still here with us. I had high hopes for a few days after your surgery but then nothing went right. Everything just went against you. I'm so sorry baby. It's not fair. You went through so much. I just don't know why these freakin doctors didn't know what was going on the last few months. It really ticks me off when I think about it. I often wonder if I had taken you to a IMS on a regular basis if things would have been different. Sometimes I wonder if you would have seen Dr. K on a regular basis if she would have been able to help you. I just keep thinking what if they didn't do everything they could have done at Valley Central to help you. I'm having a hard time with stuff like that. Please forgive me if I didn't always do the right thing. I hope you know I always tried to do my best. I would have never done anything to hurt you. I love you Scoop. I better stop for now. I'll be back to talk to you tomorrow.
Hug, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[DorothyGirl]

Scoop was one lucky pup to be loved so much :)

[Robert]

Scoop was one lucky pup to be loved so much :)

He definetly was .

[scoora]

Thank you. He was and always will be loved so very much.
He was a very special little guy.
We were lucky to have had Scoop in our lives. Wish he was still here with us.

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
My tummy is a bit better tonight. Still not totally right.
Got more pictures made today. Will pick them up tomorrow. Molly and I will have lots to look at when she gets home. She called me today. She said they were on the beach. Sounded like she was having a good time. I asked her to bring home some salt water taffy for me. Don't really need it but oh well.
Oh how I wish I could settle and not be so tied up in knots inside. Missing you so much. Ever since you came back home, Molly has made sure there are fresh flowers on your table. The first time it was field flowers which included sunflowers. After that they have been all sunflowers. I take Raleigh on the dirt road behind George's house everyday so he can do his business. Yesterday I noticed a single sunflower, a smaller one not large but it was tall, growing in the grass right at the edge of the cornfield. It just gave me this warm feeling, like you were there. You used to love going for walks when you weren't sick. You used to walk so proud and you loved smelling the flowers. It makes me sad to take Raleigh and not have you here to go along, my sweet boy.
I'll be back tomorrow to talk to you. Just know how much we all love you and we miss you so very much. We wish you were here with us.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Molly came home tonight. She was tired and has sunburn. We talked a bit and ate some salt water taffy and fudge that she brought home. It sounded like she had a good time. She was starting to fall asleep so we didn't get to look at the pictures. We can do that tomorrow night. I forgot to tell her about the sunflower by the corn field. Have to remember to tell her tomorrow. She also brought dad and I each a t-shirt home. Raleigh was really glad to see Molly. I bet you would have been too if you were here.
I was checking into something and now I'm upset about something else with Dr. T. Can't figure some things out as to why she did them. I wish I would have known things months ago that I know now. It pisses me off. Don't know what she was thinking. It upsets me to think these things could have helped you and I trusted her because I thought she knew what would be best. Yeah right. I'm sorry Scoop. I wish I would have known better.
Miss you and love you so much.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Another Saturday night. They are so tough thinking that Saturday was your last day you spent here at home, 7 weeks ago. I still miss you so very much.
Molly and I looked at the pictures I got printed. They make us smile if only for a bit. Then I realize you aren't here any more and I miss you. You were one special boy. You were such a good boy. You mean so much to us and we love and miss you so much. You will always have a special place in our hearts.
Dad and I were talking about you at lunch today. Dad said you were such a good looking Pug. You were very handsome. We talked about all your good qualities and how you could have been a show dog except maybe your tail wasn't quite curly enough. It was just fine to us. We loved your tail. I got out the papers from the pet store. I remembered you came with papers but I didn't remember them exactly. They showed your family tree. It was so neat to see it. You were one special boy. We were so lucky to have you in our family. I'm so sorry the time was so short. It's so nice to talk about you and how special you were but then there are times I think about you not being here and it makes me so, so sad.
Just know how much you always were and always will be loved so very much.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
Another tough weekend and tomorrow night will be even tougher. I was having a very bad night and when Molly came out of her room we started to talk about you and we talked for quite a while. That's why I'm a bit late. It felt so good to talk like that to her about you. I'm feeling a bit on edge now again but it was worse before we had our talk. I miss you so much. I just hurts. I forgot to mention I had a nice dream about you a few nights ago. I don't remember what it was about. I just remember waking up in the morning thinking I had a nice dream about you. It was calming to me and made me smile just a bit. Wish I could remember what it was about.
I want to send the AAC an email and ask them to fax Raleigh's records to Comet's vet. I am going to start to take him there instead of seeing Dr. T. I'm going to do that now so I will say goodnight. I love you my sweetheart. I miss you so much. Wish you were still here with us.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Here it is another horrible Monday night. 7 weeks ago you left us. It has been tough my sweet boy. We all miss you so very much. You are in our hearts forever and ever and we will always love you. This time of the night is so hard knowing what happened to you around this time. I hold you in my lap every Monday night around this time. I want to be close to you. I wish oh so much that you didn't have to get sick like you did. I am sorry for that. I wish it would have never happened. I miss holding you and kissing your little head and rubbing your ears.
I emailed your old vet and asked them to send Raleigh's chart to the new vet. I will be making an appointment for Raleigh for his check up and blood work. I hope that will come back OK. Did some more pictures today. Will pick them up tomorrow. They were from last summer when you first started with that horrible Cushings.
It's just about that time when I got that phone call that changed everything. You weren't here with us anymore. I miss you my sweet boy. I am holding you close to my heart. We all love you forever and will always miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Molly and I had some pictures to look at tonight but other than that, things have not been easy. Even the pictures were hard to look at. They were from last summer into the beginning of fall. That was when you first started with cushings. I don't know why things can't be easy for me. Everything has to be so difficult. I know it's not your fault. Sometimes I just don't know. I love you Scoop and I miss you so very much. Nothing about this past year has been easy. I feel like a failure. Just know how much you are loved and missed. Good night my sweet boy.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[apollo6]

Dearv
Vicki, keep writing, let the feelings out. There is no easy way to grieve. When we lose our precious angel, the one thing that kept us grounded we flounder ,grasping to make any sense it all. Wishing
I could jump in the computer and give you a big hug.
Hugs
Sonja and
Angel Apollo

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
It was a warm day today. Raleigh has been panting a lot. You know him and his black fur. Tomorrow I am taking him to see the new vet. He will get a check up and some blood work done. Please watch over Raleigh so that everything is OK. I worry that he will start having problems. Oh Scoop, I am missing you so much. I think about you all the time. Wish you were here with us. I have some kind of rash on my neck. It itches a bit. Don't have any idea what it is. Hopefully it will go away soon.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs,
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Raleigh had a rough day at the vet's. He has a bit of an ear infection. It's not too bad. So he got some drops. They took blood to do a full work up. I should hear about the results tomorrow. He got his butt glands squeezed. Got his nails clipped. They also took blood to do allergy testing. That could take a week or two for those results. The vet talked about putting him on prednisone and an antihistamine or an allergy diet. I wasn't crazy about either of them. So we did the blood testing. Raleigh is also starting with cataracts. I guess that's why sometimes it seems like he isn't seeing too good. I know his hearing isn't good anymore either. I hope his blood test results are good. Watch over your little brother. I'm sure he misses you. Just like we all do.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Here it is. Another weekend getting ready to start. They are so hard on me. It makes me cry now just thinking about it. Oh how I miss you. I worry about Raleigh now too. The vet said Raleigh's blood work was pretty good. His one liver enzyme is a little high. I said to the vet that I worry about cushing's with the higher liver levels. She said it's usually associated with the other liver value. So I hope Raleigh doesn't have any problems. He needs to lose some weight. He pants a lot. I picked up pictures today and I forgot to get them out for Molly. John called me earlier and told me he has the copy of Raleigh's blood work. He picked it up at the vet's for me today when he got Comet's food. We were talking for a while and when we hung up I forgot to get the pictures out. I thought of it right after Molly went to her room. We can look at them tomorrow night. I forgot to tell you. Molly brought home some flowers for you tonight. They are sunflowers but they are already in what looks like a jar. The stems are short. There are 2 sunflowers with the dark centers, one sunflower with a light center and there is one I'm not sure if it is a sunflower or a mum that is red-orange. There are what looks like 4 green like wildflowers in the middle of the other flowers. The flowers are so sweet and beautiful. Just like you. I miss you my sweet boy. You are always in my heart and on my mind.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
Here it is another Saturday night. A tough one for me. 8 weeks ago you spent your last night at home. It is still so hard to not have you here with us anymore. We miss you so, so much. Molly and I looked a the pictures tonight. They are from last year when you first started with cushings. It makes me sad to look at those pictures. I hate that you had to get that horrible disease. I am so sorry. I wish they could find out why so many pups get cushings and how they could prevent any others from getting it. I worry so much about Raleigh now. I hope he doesn't start to have any problems of any kind. Watch over your little brother. Keep him safe and healthy. I miss you. I love you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Thinking of you like always. Forever missing you. Sundays are another tough day. The day I took you to the hospital and that hurts knowing you didn't come back home again. I still cry for you. John brought me a copy of Raleigh's blood test results. He has some levels that are high. The vet said she will call later this week. Hope there's nothing wrong with him. I hope you are OK with what we did today. Please watch over ALL of us my sweet boy. I love you so much.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
It is now 8 weeks since I saw you last. I hold you every Monday night when I talk to you. I miss you so much. I can't believe it has been that long since you passed away. I still want to hold you and give you kisses and ear rubs. I still cry many times a day. I miss you. I just want you to know how much we all love you and wish you were here with us. I am so sorry you had to get so sick. That stinks.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
Don't have much to say tonight. Just want you to know how much we love you and miss you. Always thinking of you. Last night I did forget to tell you Molly brought home 6 beautiful sunflowers for your table. So those sunflowers and the jar with the small ones are on your table. They all look so beautiful.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Don't have much to say right now. Please my sweetheart watch over Archie and Raleigh, please. I still love and miss you so very much. Molly's working late tonight. She'll be home soon. I got the heart locket today. I'll see if I can get some of your fur in it. I still carry some of your fur and your truck bandage with me when I go out. Also pictures.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Miss you and love you Scoop. You are in my heart always and on my mind.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[gatorgirl_bama]

Vicki,
Just read all your loving posts to Scoop and am sitting here crying my eyes out. This is a beautiful and heartfelt way to keep Scoop in you life. I too miss my Tia so much that I feel like I may loose my mind. I don't write to her as you do Scoop, but I go to her grave every morning and every night and talk to her to tell her how much I love and miss her and to beg for forgiveness for not being able to make her well again. Sunday will be three weeks since I lost her. It has been the hardest three weeks of my life and I don't see it getting any better.

I just want you to know you are in my thoughts and prayers that we both might find some inkling of peace we so deserve. In my mind I know we did all we could for our precious babies, but my heart still feels like it has been ripped out of my chest...

Hugs and prayers,
Donna

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
Sometime real soon I'll have something to talk to you about but not right now. I still break down and cry, maybe not quite as often as I used to but it does still happens many times a day. I miss you so very much and my love for you will always be so deep in my heart. You are very special. It still makes me so angry that you had to get so sick. You didn't deserve that and I am sorry. We all miss and love you so very much.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop.
I hope you can help with what is going on around here. You were always a good helper. I hope and pray everything works out without any problems. Another Saturday night. How upsetting they are. 9 weeks since you were here at home. I miss you very much. Wish you were here with us.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Another sad Sunday when I think about taking you to the hospital 9 weeks ago.
Miss you so much. I don't feel the greatest tonight. Tummy bothers me a bit.
Please watch over all of us sweetheart. We love you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
Tonight it is 9 weeks since I got that horrible phone call and you left us. I can't believe it. Miss you my sweet Scoop.
Please watch over all of us. The little guys need you to watch over them. Please let them be OK. I'll never be able to forgive myself if anything happens to them. I need you to help, please.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
I'm sorry I didn't get here yesterday to say hello. I talk to you everyday. I go to your table and kiss you and tell you I love you. I have been a bit busy and I fell asleep last night before I could come on here. I know you understand. You are in my heart forever.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Scoop, my sweet boy, please help me. Gus and Archie need you to watch over them and help them get through this. I'm so scared. Gus is so little. I hope he can fight this. I don't know what I will do if something happens to either of them. It's my fault this happened with Gus and I feel so horribly bad about it. I hope his little body can fight it. I never meant for this to happen. I feel so responsible. After losing you I would be devastated if something would happen to them. Especially since I feel responsible for this happening to Gus. I can't seem to do anything right. I feel like such an idiot. Please help them get through this, please. I love you Scoop.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
I forgot to mention yesterday that Molly brought home some fresh flowers for you. They are not sunflowers. I think they are some kind of Lily. They look beautiful on your table. Gus and Archie still need all the help you can give them. I pray they will both be able to get through this mess without any problems.
Miss you so much.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Again I fell asleep, sorry. You understand. Love you and think of you even when I'm busy.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[apollo6]

thinking of you and sending you healing prayers. Wish I could make it better.
Hugs Sonja and Angel Apollo

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Another Saturday night/Sunday morning. They are rough thinking back. Still makes me cry. It was a tough time and it will always be in my mind what happened to you. Miss you lots.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
Are you watching over Gus, Archie and Raleigh for me? Please, I hope so.
The little guys need all the help they can get to fight this. Little Gus has such a hard time breathing.
Every time I think of you my heart still breaks and tears come to my eyes.
Miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
10 weeks, I can't believe it has been that long since you were here with us and I gave you ear rubs and kissed your sweet head. I still miss you. I have lots going on with Archie and Gus and Raleigh but you are always in my heart. I love all of you so much. Please keep watching over Gus, Archie and Raleigh. They mean the world to me, just like you do.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Love you very much. Still having some tough times. Wish you were still here. I would love having 4 Pugs. You, Raleigh, Archie and Gus. You are all sweethearts.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
Late here again. I am tired. Had to say hi and tell you I miss you and love you.
It was hot and humid here today and tomorrow is supposed to be the same. You wouldn't have liked this weather.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Miss you. Even though the little ones keep me busy I think of you lots. I love you, Raleigh, Archie and Gus so very much.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
The little ones sure keep me busy. Gus has such a hard time with his breathing since his nostrils are so small. It sounds like his nose is blocked all the time. Poor little guy. That must be hard on him. He plays hard. Gus and Archie are always biting each other. I hope they learn to get along with each other. Molly brought home some new toys from PetSmart today. Raleigh actually joined in playing with the toys. That was really good to see. Wish you were here to play too. Missing you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
Sorry I didn't get to talk to you last night. I get so tired and fall asleep before I get on here. The little ones have me up during the night or early in the morning so I fall asleep before I can come here. I don't mind that they have me up. They are such sweethearts. I love them very much. Just like I love you and Raleigh. Archie does things that remind me of you but I think Gus is going to be more like you. Daddy used to call you Mr. Independent. I think Gus is going to be like that. Molly and I talked about you earlier and it made me cry. Molly has been missing you lots. She loves you, Raleigh, Archie and Gus very much. She brought home sunflowers for you today. There were 9 of them. They were smaller ones. John came to visit today. This is the first time he got to see Gus. He saw Archie once before. That was the day we brought Archie home. He didn't come to see Gus before this because of the kennel cough. He didn't want to give it to Comet. Thank you for watching over Archie and Gus. Please continue to watch over all of us. Daddy is having a lot of trouble lately with his leg. He has been getting pain in it and now he has some discomfort in his hip where he had it replaced. When he had that surgery done you were still here with us and you hadn't gotten sick from that horrible Cushings yet. It still makes me so sad to think of what you went through and what that disease did to you. I am so sorry you had to get sick. Molly has had a lot of trouble with her sinuses (allergies?) lately. Now I just heard her coughing. So please watch over all of us. We miss you Scoop. We love you so very much.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Weekends are hard thinking about what happened to you and then Mondays are even harder. Thinking about that makes me cry. Miss you and love you so much.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
It has been 11 weeks since you left us. It makes me so sad. I still miss you very much. I still think about what happened and it makes me cry. You will always be in my heart. You will always be loved and missed very much. I'm sorry you had to get sick and are not here with us.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
Raleigh was laying in the sun in the dining room this morning. Archie laid next to him and put his head on Raleigh. That is what Raleigh used to do to you when you would lay in the sun. It made me cry thinking of how it used to be and seeing them do that. You used to LOVE laying in the sun in the dining room in the morning and at the kitchen door in the early afternoon and in the living room window later in the day. Miss you so very much. Always in my heart.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
I'm sitting here listening to Gus breath while he is sleeping. He sounds so stuffy all the time. I feel so bad for him. I wish I could help him. Scoop please watch over Gus with his breathing problems. Please watch over Archie and Raleigh too. I think of you often and still miss you lots.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Sorry I didn't get here last night. I want you to know I think of you, miss you, and love you very much.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
I was cleaning the bathroom this morning and I was thinking of you. Tears were falling and for a brief second or two I just got this feeling that you were here with me. Out of the corner of my eye I saw a blur. I couldn't tell what it was. Were you here? I would like to think you are with us. Miss you Scoop. Love you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[littleone1]

I know what you're going through. I still sidestep as I walk down the hallway, thinking that I'm going to step on Corky, as I still see him there.

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Molly brought home some flowers for you today. There are sunflowers but they aren't open yet. The sunflowers from last week are still pretty nice so I put them together in the vase. She also brought home some orange and yellow daisies. I put them in the glass that had the little sunflowers from a couple of weeks ago. They all look so pretty. You always loved sniffing flowers when you were younger. You would love the flowers that Molly gets to make sure you have all the time on your table.
Tonight it is 12 weeks that you spent your last time here at home with us. I can't believe it is that long. We all still miss you so very much. Archie loves being in the sun in the dining room just like you used to. This morning he was sitting in the last little bit that was coming in the window. It was RIGHT in front of your table. I said to him that he was sitting with his big brother Scoop. He was kind of turning his head toward your pictures on the bottom shelf of the table. I wish you were here so you could meet your little brothers Archie and Gus. They have grown so much the few weeks they have been here with us. Raleigh has been giving me a hard time about eating his dog food lately. I don't know if he doesn't like it or if he isn't feeling well. He's been leaving stinkies so maybe his tummy is upset. Raleigh got tested for his allergies and we have been getting him different food to avoid what he is allergic to.
Miss you so much Scoop.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Miss you so much. Wish I could give you a hug, kiss, and an ear rub. Oh how you loved your ear rubs. I miss doing that for you. The little guys are growing so much. Poor Gus, I feel so bad for him. He has trouble breathing. I can hear him now. I hope he will be OK till he is old enough to have that surgery. Scoop, please watch over Gus, Archie and Raleigh. You're their big brother. You are such a sweetheart. I know you would love them. I keep thinking about your birthday coming up. It is going to be so hard that day. The whole rest of the year is going to be very difficult to get through. So many things in my mind from last year that happened to you. Then the holidays will be so hard without you here. It will help to have Raleigh, Archie and Gus but I will still miss not having you here.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
Tonight it was 12 weeks since I got that horrible phone call and you left us. 12 weeks since I saw you last. It is still hard to believe it has happened. You are missed so very much. My love for you will never change so my heart will always hurt not having you here. We all love you and miss you so much. Wish you were here.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Been thinking of you.
Wanted to tell you I love you and miss you so very much.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
I picked up some pictures yesterday. I forgot to give Molly hers last night so we looked at them tonight. The one picture of you was just so touching. Just the look on your sweet face and your eyes, it made me cry.
Gus has such sharp teeth. They are like little needles. Today I saw he chewed through his harness. Just holding together by a thread. I couldn't believe it. Archie has grown so much he no longer fits into Raleigh's old harness that he had been wearing. You can see Gus is growing so fast, just like Archie.
I miss you. Think about you often.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
I had a scare today. Archie slipped backward out of his harness and was running around the yard so fast. Thank goodness we were in the back and not in the front. I couldn't catch him he is so fast. I finally tricked him to come on the deck and I was able to grab him. I was so afraid he was going to run away. Please have a talk with him. I couldn't stand it if something would happen to him. I was so scared I wouldn't be able to catch him and he would run down the street or into the corn field. That's the second time this week he put a scare into me. Please let him know he shouldn't do stuff like that and that we love him very much. Thank you big brother.
Miss you. Love you lots.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
The weeks seem to fly by but it is still hard not having you here with us. Still miss you lots and things just keep going through my head.
Molly got a promotion at her job. I'm so proud of her. I know she misses you and loves you lots, like I do.
Molly bought Archie a new harness yesterday. Today when I took him out I put 2 harnesses and 2 leashes on him. The harnesses are 2 different types. He really scared me yesterday. Hopefully that won't ever happen again.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Another one of those hard Saturday nights. Always thinking of you. My heart still aches.
Molly brought home some fresh sunflowers for you today. She's always thinking of you too. We miss you. I wish I could give you a big hug right now and hold you close.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
My heart just breaks thinking of what happened to you on Sunday and Monday 13 weeks ago. It's still tough. I still miss you. I love you.
I love all my boys so much.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Around this time 13 weeks ago you left us. You are still missed so very much.
When I think of that night tears just start to flow. I hold you in my lap every Monday night thinking I wish you were sitting here and I was giving you an ear rub and lots of kisses.
I don't know if Gus is getting sick or what. He seems to have a cough or something. I hope that darn kennel cough isn't still hanging around here. Please watch over Gus and make sure he is OK. Also please watch out for Archie and Raleigh along with Gus. Thank you my sweet boy.
Love you, miss you so very much.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Tonight it is 3 months since you left us. I still wish I could hold you again and give you lots of kisses.
Archie loves to be held and will fall asleep in my arms. He loves to give lots of kisses. Gus will let me hold him for a bit then he wants to get down. He gives kisses just not as much as Archie.
Scoop you were a little love bug. You loved to give kisses.
Archie goes to the vet Thursday morning and Gus goes Thursday after supper. They are supposed to get booster shots. Gus started with that cough yesterday so we will have to see what the vet says. Maybe he won't get his shot. There's something by Archie's mouth I have to have the vet look at. I hope it's nothing. Please watch over your little brothers. Let them be OK. I worry about them so much. Thank you big brother. You're a sweetheart.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
Tomorrow (Thursday) the little ones go to the vet. They are supposed to get shots but I don't know about Gus. He still has a cough. He sounds so stuffy when he sleeps. That nose of his is so tiny.
Forgot to tell you last night, I got a card in the mail from PetSmart. It is for your birthday. They haven't sent one in a few years. This year, when you're not here, they send one. It figures. Made me cry when I saw it. It makes me cry when I think of your birthday coming up next week. Wish you were here.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Archie and Gus went to the vet today. There is no kennel cough. Thank goodness. They both got their shots. They both have gained weight.
Another weekend coming up.
Molly is going to work overtime both Sat. and Sun. No day off for her this week. It's late again. I'm tired. Miss you lots.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[apollo6]

Dear Vicki
I pray with time the grief will be less. But the loss will always be there. We love them so hard, that it is when we no longer have them that we realize what an important part of our life they are.
May your sweet Scoop let you know he is okay.
Hugs Sonja and Angel Apollo

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Gus is still coughing. It was worse today than yesterday. Of course he didn't do it at the vet's yesterday. It is starting to bother me. Please watch over Gus, so he will be OK and Archie and Raleigh.
Love you lots. Miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
It's Sat. night/Sun. morning. That time is tough. Always thinking of you, missing you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Today Oct. 7 would have been your 13th birthday. I wish you were here to celebrate it. I remember last year on your birthday you still had some eye sight. I can still picture you on your birthday last year. You had some special treats. Which you did enjoy very much. It is so sad to think you are no longer here with us. I am so sorry you aren't here. I tried my big boy, I tried so very hard. It just makes me so, so sad this horrible disease did that to you. I hate the day I heard the word Cushings.
In less than 23 hours it will be 14 weeks since you left us and it was the last time I got to hold you, kiss you and rub your ears. I can still see that night so clearly in my mind.
I sent a donation to the Morris Animal Foundation in your memory for your birthday. I know it's not much compared to what they need to do research but I wanted to do something. I hope someday someone discovers with the cause and a cure or prevention for Cushings so in the future others don't have to go through what you and others had to.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SCOOP!!
We love and miss you so very much.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Sitting here holding you like I do on a Monday night. It has been 14 weeks since you left us. I can't believe how fast the weeks go by.

Happy Birthday Scoop! I wish you were here to celebrate it with us. I put the pumpkin toy that Molly gave you last year for your birthday, on your table. I bought the boys a couple of special treats to celebrate your birthday. They enjoyed it just like I know you would have. I saw a Hedgie at the pet store today. I bought it and put it on your table. It is so nice and soft. You loved your Hedgies so much, I couldn't resist it. I know you would have loved it. I also put a few of your other favorite toys on your table. Your table is getting quite full. There isn't enough room on your table for all your favorite toys.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SCOOP!!
Love and miss you lots.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[milosmom]

<3 <3 <3 I will forever hold you in my thoughts and prayers ... xoxox

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
Today I picked up pictures I got made of your birthday from last year. Molly and I looked at them tonight. It was tough seeing you from last year. Made me miss you even more. Even though Cushings was taking a toll on you, you still had some eye sight. You were enjoying your special birthday treats. I'm sorry you weren't here this year to enjoy your birthday with us. I'm sorry for what all happened to you the last year of your life. It just gets to me and makes me so mad and so sad. You're such a sweet boy. You didn't deserve any of the crap that happened to you.
Gus is having such a bad time with his nose. Please watch over him so that he will be OK. Please watch over Raleigh, Archie and Gus. Love you lots.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Sorry I forgot to mention that I also got you a birthday card. It has a Pug on it and he was eating pizza. There was a time when you knew the word pizza and you would get a special little bit. Seems so long ago. That was back even before your diabetes. John would come on a Sunday afternoon and we would have pizza for lunch. If the sun was out you used to love to sit in the front window in the sun. Those were your kind of days. Miss you Scoop so much.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Just wanted to tell you how much I love and miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
I'm a bit worried about Gus. Please watch over Gus, Archie and Raleigh. Thank you my sweet Scoop.
Raleigh's been eating better lately.
Tonight I threw a soft ball for Archie and Gus to chase and neither one went after it but Raleigh did. He took it up on the sofa and wouldn't let anybody have it. That was nice to see that he wanted to play for a bit. He hasn't been playful lately. All he wants is his belly scratched.
Miss you Scoop.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Was thinking about you and your last few days while I was in the shower. Had a good cry. Miss you lots.
Always in my heart.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Molly brought home some fresh sunflowers for you today. The last ones lasted pretty long. She brought a bunch of yellow ones that had 6 flowers and a bunch of orange tinted ones that had 5 flowers. They look so beautiful. Archie seems to like to smell the flowers in the yard like you always did. I had a crying spell in the shower again tonight. I miss you and I just keep thinking about all that happened to you.
I look at Archie and Gus and see how fast they are growing. Where does the time go to. I remember Molly and I going to the pet store and bringing you home. I can't believe now you are no longer here with us.
Soon Molly and Raleigh will be having a birthday.
Miss you!
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
Tonight it had been 15 weeks since you left us. Still tough.
Still miss you lots every day.
You are always in my heart.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Molly had car troubles today. I had to take her to work and get her car fixed. Lots of running today. I also picked up dad's trimmer at the repair store.
It was a busy day. The little guys can be a handful. They are always after each other and biting. I get scared one of them will get hurt. Sometimes I hear a yelp from one of them. I love them so much. I don't want one of them to get hurt. I started them on a new food. They seem to like it. Hopefully it is a good food that is good for them.
The flowers look so beautiful on your table.
I miss you lots.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
I picked flowers from the yard today, mums and marigolds. They are on your table. So between those flowers and the sunflowers you are surrounded by such pretty flowers. I miss you.

Today I went looking for something to put in the bottom of the car seat carrier for the little guys. I looked in the pet shop where we got Archie from to see what kind of bedding they had. Well I guess I shouldn't have gone in there. They had another Pug. Oh my, if only I was rich and I had enough energy for another one, I would have loved to bring him home. I was told he is a little over 3 months old. That's how old you were when Molly and I brought you home with us. He looks about the same size you were at that age. He has a tail that reminds me of yours. It is not real curly, more relaxed. The way he is built just reminds me of how you were at that age. The only thing he is darker above his eyes than you were. It breaks my heart. I sure hope he finds a good home and a loving family to be with. I hate to think about if he doesn't get adopted what will happen to him. It makes me cry. I should stop going in there. It makes me sad that I can't take him home.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
Sorry I wasn't here to talk to you at all yesterday. I went to sleep earlier than usual. Tia's mommy sent me very special pictures of you. They are so beautiful and special.
I have to ask you to please watch over Archie. We think he had a seizure this morning. I am so scared there is something wrong. Please watch over him. I don't know what I would do if anything would happen to him. I don't know how I could take it. I am so scared there is something wrong. I took him to the hospital this morning to be checked. The same place where you passed away. Why am I being punished? I just love all of you so much and nothing seems to go right. Archie is so young. He shouldn't be having problems. Please watch over your little brother.
Miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Sorry again for not being here. Another early night last night. Just know I always have you in my heart and I love you.
I'm not feeling the greatest tonight. I have a belly ache. I want to go to Archie and Gus thread and talk about Archie's seizure. Please watch over your brothers. I mention your name to them at times. I'm just so worried about Archie.
Miss you lots.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Tonight it is 16 weeks since we last saw you and got to kiss you and hold you. That night is still so fresh in my mind. Miss you everyday.

I forgot to tell you last night that Molly bought you some fresh flowers yesterday. There are 2 bunches of assorted flowers. The one bunch has a small sunflower. They are so pretty. I put them in with the sunflowers from last week because the sunflowers from last week are still nice. You have so many beautiful flowers on your table. They are for such a beautiful little guy who we love and miss dearly.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
Always thinking of you. Miss you lots.
I think about how things were last year at this time. Makes me so sad.
Raleigh's allergies have been bothering him lately.
It is going to be cold here tonight. I have to take the little ones out now.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[Meg_Elizabeth]

My deepest sympathies. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I can't imagine the pain you must be going through. Hang in there.

-Meg

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Thinking of you Scoop. I miss you.
I stubbed my little toe this morning and now my toe is all purple and my foot is swollen. It hurts. It's hard to walk so keeping up with Archie when I take him out is a bit hard. I can't move too fast. It's not as hard with Gus.

I forgot to tell you, last weekend Molly bought 4 little pumpkins. They are all different. They have painted faces and witches hats on. They are just so cute. Molly said she got 4, one for you, Raleigh, Archie and Gus. Do you remember the cute Halloween hats Molly got you and Raleigh a few years ago? I don't think you liked it when she put them on you but you were such a good sport about things like that. You would put up with it. I got some pictures of you and Raleigh with them on. Things like that should make me smile but right now I am crying. Hopefully one day I will be able to remember things like that and smile thinking of you and not remembering all that you went through with that horrible disease.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Molly bought you 5 sunflowers today. The bouquets she bought last week are still pretty nice so I added the sunflowers to them. The flowers Molly gets you always look so beautiful.
I am always worried about your little brothers, Archie and Gus. Please watch over them. Besides his allergies, Raleigh seems to be pretty good but please watch over him too.
Miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
Another week has gone by. It is now 17 weeks since you left. Still hard to believe. We miss you.

Today the furnace got cleaned. You never liked it when someone would come to the house like that. You would bark the whole time they were here. Then after they left you would run around the house, down to the basement and up again, sniffing and barking for half an hour to an hour after they had left. You were our protector. Raleigh, Archie and Gus were well behaved except for when the guy was done Raleigh barked a bit but not too much.

Raleigh has an appointment tomorrow at the vet's. Nothing serious. It's just with the tech. Thursday Archie goes for his blood work. I hope the results are good. I just worry about him. I love you, Raleigh, Archie and Gus so much!!
Always in my heart.
Hugs, kisses , and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
I don't think I told you that dad got out the football pillow. Raleigh has been laying on it a few times. It is so strange to not see you on there with Raleigh. Molly said tonight that she expects to see you on there with Raleigh. We talked a bit about you on that pillow. Sometimes you would slide between the pillow and the back of the couch. You loved laying on it when it was cold out. Just seems strange not to see you on it. Miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Thinking of you.
Miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
Always in my heart. Miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Today it is 4 months that you are gone. Miss you. Last year at this time we had no power for 6 days because of the storm. You and I stayed at John's for a couple of nights. It was tough without power. I keep thinking back at last year and everything you went through. What a trooper you were.

Archie had his blood work done yesterday and the vet called today with the results. His white cell count is still elevated. I sure hope there isn't anything wrong with him. I worry so much about everything and now this is driving me crazy. Please watch over him. I love Archie, Gus, Raleigh and you so very much. I hope and pray there is nothing wrong with Archie.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
It was Raleigh and Molly's birthday Saturday. I hope you gave them a special birthday wish. Raleigh turned 10. When you turned 10 that was when you started with your diabetes. I sure hope Raleigh, Archie or Gus don't have to go through stuff like that. Although you did quite well with the diabetes until you started with Cushings then everything went downhill. I am so sorry you had so many problems. You fought hard my little trooper. Miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
It's really cold here tonight. It's going to be cold again tomorrow.
John was here today. Then Marni came by. The little guys went crazy. They were after Bella. She was playing with them. Gus was running around like he was on a race track. They must have been exhausted but they went out and then ate their supper before they went to sleep.
John brought me a copy of Archie's blood work. He picked it up from the vet for me. I don't like it. I am so worried there is something wrong with Archie. Please, please watch over Archie!! I don't know how I could handle it if something is wrong with him. It would be so very hard on me. I love all you guys so very much!!
Miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Tonight it is another week since you have been gone. It is now 18 weeks.
Love you and miss you. Always in my heart.
I forgot to tell you that yesterday Molly bought sunflowers for you. Still have the ones from last week and some from the bouquets. I planted some sunflower seeds out front over the summer. 2 flowers came up but it was late and they didn't grow fast enough. With the cold weather we thought they were done but the one opened up a bit the other day. Sunflowers will always remind me of you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Tonight I was thinking about Thanksgiving and I just started crying thinking about last Thanksgiving and that you won't be here to enjoy the turkey with us this year. The holidays will be special because they will be Archie and Gus first ones but they will also be tough because you won't be here. You always enjoyed Thanksgiving and Christmas. So they will be tough without you but it will be special for the little guys. Their first ones.
Gus is now 4 months old and Archie is 5 months old. Archie has lost 3 teeth that I know of in the last 5 days. They have grown so much.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
Sorry wasn't on here last night. Went to sleep early. Molly used my computer tonight so it's late.
One year ago Molly and I took you to Metropolitan for the first time. I was thinking about that day. Just seems like yesterday. Whenever we went to one of the special hospitals I got to hold you for the trip. I loved holding you.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Thinking of you. Always in my heart.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[infoviewer]

Hi Vicki: I have been reading your posts when I can bear to read it. My sweet CoCo died 9/19 and I thought I would be able to at least spend a day without crying and being so miserable by now, but like you I see him everywhere and think about him all the time and am really wondering how I will get through Thanksgiving and Christmas. I have gone through the grieving process so many times in the past, but this one seems so much worse. CoCo was 12 and so sick, but never ready to lose them. I can tell by your posts that Scoop was the most cared for and loved baby in the world and he is looking down and still knowing the love you have for him. I am sending you love and peace and just hold on as they say this grief also will pass. Sorry to hijack your loving memory of your sweet baby Scoop. Love, JoAnne

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Raleigh started playing with some toys again. He was probably missing you and it took him some time to get used to Archie and Gus. It is so good to see him show some interest. I'm sure he misses you lots. He loved being with you. We all miss you lots.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[mypuppy]

Vicki and Joanne,

I join the both of you right along with the others who have lost their precious heart babies. My Princess was released on 9/18 and as you still can't wrap my head around her not being here when it seems I just had her/saw her 5 seconds ago. It has been far from easy for my family and me to the point that my oldest daughter got so down that she just rescued a baby kitten left on side of the road 2 weeks ago. He is a cutie and very squeezeable indeed, poor thing. At the same time I was far from ready to welcome another furry being into my life because I am still holding on to my sweet girl. I know it sounds awfully selfish and I am loving the little guy, but it's all so soon for me and the feelings of guilt do take over because this is still my girls home. It has been for 11 years and it hurts to see this little bouncy thing laying where she once laid, eating where she ate, etc. On the other hand, my 17 and 9 year old girls have been very down and this little kitty has brought some joy back into their lives after losing their sister Princess. I know this little guy will very soon grow on me and I will have a special bond with, but I also know my heart will always belong to my Princess. I am dreading her 11th birthday coming up in 2 weeks and our first Thanksgiving and Christmas without her. many tears are rolling already. it seems so wrong, but I have grieved many times before and I guess I will try my hardest to get through these as well.

I wish you both peace in your hearts, strength to endure this deep pain and hidden blessings.

tight hugs.

Xo Jeanette

[scoora]

JoAnne, Jeanette,
Thank you both for all your heartfelt words. I am sorry you both are going through this. I know exactly how you are feeling. I can't believe Scoop has been gone all these months. His birthday in Oct. brought tears and I know the holidays will. Scoop will always have a special place in my heart and I will always love and miss him. When I started thinking about getting another Pug it was NOT easy. When I had to make up my mind and tell the breeder yes or no if I wanted Gus, it was hard. I kept thinking I had enough love for another but I too felt guilty. It was hard to know what was right until I said yes, then it felt right plus I asked my daughter if she thought Scoop would mind. Once I decided about Gus, it was easy with Archie. My love for Raleigh, Archie and Gus does not take away from my love for Scoop. I love them all very much.

Making Scoop's birthday special helped me get through it.

Having Raleigh, Archie and Gus will help at the holidays although I know there will still be tears for Scoop but without the other three I know it would be even harder.

Wishing you both strength for the up coming days.
Love and hugs,
Vicki

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
Tonight it is 19 weeks since you are gone. Still can't believe it. Miss you.
Molly brought home some fresh sunflowers for you yesterday.
Archie does some things that remind me of you. It makes me smile. It makes me think that you did enjoy your life with us at least up till you got sick last year. I'm so sorry you had to get sick. You didn't deserve to get sick.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Thinking of you and what happened a year ago. Yesterday a year ago you had your MRI at Metropolitan and it showed your pituitary tumor and the mass in your ear canal. They kept you overnight and did the ear surgery. That was a year ago today. I wanted to bring you home and take you back in the morning but they said it would be better if you stayed overnight. I was so worried about you. When I got the phone call from Dr. Niles after your surgery and she was so sure the mass was infection and not cancer, I was so, so happy. The day before the neurologist said your tumor was small (in his opinion) and how positive the surgeon was about your surgery, I was so happy. I had hopes that you were going to be able to live with that horrible disease, Cushings, but it was not to be. Now here it is a year later and I am crying my eyes out because you are not here with us any more. Just thinking back on everything that happened and what you went through just breaks my heart. I am so very sorry my sweet Scoop. So very sorry. It sucks. Miss you my baby doll.
Lots of hugs, kisses, and ear rubs for you.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Thinking of you. Miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
I can't get you off my mind. I think about this past year and it makes me cry.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop.
Molly brought home some fresh sunflowers for you today. So pretty, like usual.
Last year on Saturday Molly and I drove to Metropolitan to bring you home after your ear surgery. It was so wonderful to see you after you being in the hospital those days. It all seems just like yesterday but yet so far away.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Archie has been having itching issues. Now tonight he started with diarrhea. You know what having diarrhea is like. I get so, very worried about Archie. Please watch over him. It hurts me so to think he has these problems. Why can't things go smoothly and there not be any problems. My heart still aches from losing you. Now all I do is worry about Archie. I don't want any of my boys to have problems.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
Tonight it is 20 weeks since you have been gone. Miss you lots.
Always in my heart.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
A year ago this week you started with your eye ulcer. One thing after another.
Archie's diarrhea was better but now tonight its back again. I don't know what's going on. Please watch over Archie, Gus and Raleigh.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Thinking of you.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
It is so cold and windy here tonight. It's supposed to be like that tomorrow too. I just took the little ones out to pee. Gus didn't seem to mind it. He wanted to chase the leaves. Archie did his thing and went right back to the door. He came in the house and went on the couch next to Raleigh and put his front leg on Raleigh's back. It looked like he was putting his arm around him. It looked so cute. I could picture you and Raleigh snuggling together on the football pillow when it was cold.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
I'm sorry I wasn't here last night to tell you I miss you and love you. I think of you lots. It's been 21 weeks now that you are gone.
Molly brought you some fresh sunflowers again on Sunday. She always makes sure you have beautiful flowers.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Today is Thanksgiving. I'm sorry you won't be here with us to enjoy the day. It is Archie and Gus's first Thanksgiving. Archie is still having diarrhea problems so they won't be enjoying any turkey. Archie worries me. I wish things would get straightened out. I worry so much after what happened to you everything scares me. I want Raleigh, Archie and Gus to be here with me for a long, long time, healthy. I wish I could stop worrying. That there wouldn't be any reason for me to worry. I love Raleigh, Archie and Gus so very much. Just like I love you.
It is going to be a long day with cooking and everything so I don't know when I will get back here. I will be thinking of you.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
My thoughts went to you while I was eating Thanksgiving dinner. It brought tears to my eyes but I didn't want anyone to see me. I thought of you and how it was last Thanksgiving. When you weren't sick, you loved to eat. You loved Thanksgiving and having some turkey. Raleigh had some turkey but Archie and Gus only had a taste of it since Archie is still having diarrhea issues.
I had to give them at least a taste. It is their first Thanksgiving.
I wish the vet could help Archie with his diarrhea and his skin problems. He pulled at his fur this morning and he was bleeding a bit. Late this afternoon Gus started with diarrhea. I sure wish I knew what is going on.
It seems like Raleigh is having trouble seeing close up. Please watch over your brothers Raleigh, Archie and Gus. I love them so very much just like I love you.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Thinking of you.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
It's been 5 months since you left us. It's still hard to believe.
Think of you everyday.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
It's been 22 weeks now. Hard to believe. Think of you everyday. Miss you.
Molly brought home some flowers for you. They are daisies. 3 red and 3 white. They have glitter on them. They are so pretty.
Archie is having a tough time with his itching and his bowels. Why must such a sweet little baby have a tough time. Please watch over Archie. Please watch over Raleigh, Archie and Gus. I love them and you so very much. It hurts me to watch Archie have such problems. I get scared for him.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Thinking of you.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
It's very late. I must get to sleep. I am so worried about Archie. Please watch over him. I love all of you so much. My boys-Scoop, Raleigh, Archie and Gus. It's still hard dealing with losing you. I worry that something is going to happen to Archie. I wouldn't be able to stand it.
Love you, miss you
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
Always in my heart.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
I just wrote a message to you and the computer has been acting up tonight and I lost the message. I will write it again tomorrow night. It is late.

Please watch over Archie. His problems are not getting any better. I am so worried and scared. Please watch over Raleigh and Gus too.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
It's late again. I wanted to tell you that on Saturday Molly bought you some beautiful holiday flowers and one of those small, real trees with decorations. She bought some ornaments for on it. I will describe them to you another time. Everything looks so nice.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
Last night was 23 weeks. Miss you. I was so tired last night. Didn't get on here.
Archie's diarrhea problems makes me think of what you went through and it scares me that he is having such problems at such a young age. He's just a baby. Please watch over Archie. Please watch over Raleigh, Archie and Gus. I love all of you so very much.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
It has been cold here and we have had snow a few times. I picture you wearing you're little coat last winter when it was so cold. Raleigh doesn't seem to mind it and neither does Gus. They both have thicker fur. I was worried about Archie getting cold since his fur isn't as thick. Molly got him a cute Christmas sweater which he has worn quite a few times already and a coat I bought for him came. I took Archie for a short walk. He had his sweater and his coat on. He doesn't seem to mind wearing those things. He walks down the road like you used to do, quickly and walking like you are so proud. Raleigh and Gus wiggle their butts when they walk.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
It has now been 24 weeks. Miss you lots.
We put up a smaller Christmas tree this year. Dad was tired of fighting with the old one and we were afraid Archie and Gus would go after it so we got one to put on a table. I'm sorry you aren't here with all of us to enjoy the tree and some new toys and food on Christmas. You always loved Christmas day. I know Raleigh, Archie and Gus will enjoy it. It will be Archie and Gus' first Christmas. I can still picture you with your head in the bag with all the torn up wrapping paper in it. You were always so curious about things. Before you got sick, you and Raleigh always sat so nice waiting for Molly to give you your new toys and treats.
There is a lot of snow on the ground and it has been cold. It's a bit tough for your brothers to do their business. Hopefully some of the snow will melt by the end of the week. It is going to warm up a bit.
Please watch over Raleigh, Archie and Gus. I worry about them, especially Archie.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
I think of you so many times. Just thinking about Christmas and you not being here hurts so much. I am so glad I have Raleigh, Archie and Gus otherwise it would be even worse.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[hfurlotte]

Puppy hugs ..... Seems like the pain goes on forever but good times and good memories will shine through for you.

Love and hugs always,
Heather and Zoe Claire

[Bo's Mom]

Scoop,
Many hugs, kisses, and belly rubs sent from all of us here to you and all your newly found fur Angel buddies. Please share because I know your mom has extras. :D

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Christmas is so close. Thinking of you lots. Wish you were here to enjoy Christmas with all of us. I know Archie and Gus will enjoy all their new toys. I wish Archie wasn't still having diarrhea issues so he could enjoy some special treats just like you always did. I just don't understand what is going on. Please watch over Raleigh, Archie and Gus.
Raleigh is going to the pet salon on Monday. He will not be happy about that.
I hope he doesn't give them too hard a time.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
It is now 25 weeks. Miss you.
Raleigh made it through the grooming at the pet salon today. They did a great job with him. He smelled so good when he came home. They said he was a good boy most of the time.
I don't know if I will get on here the next 2 days. It will be busy. So I want to wish you a Merry Christmas. I hope you will have a special day with all your friends. I wish you were here with all of us to enjoy it. We will be thinking of you and missing you. This is Archie and Gus' first Christmas. I hope they will enjoy it. You always enjoyed Christmas.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Molly bought you 2 bouquets of holiday flowers today. So beautiful on your table. I think of you and I miss you.
The little guys are going to have so many new toys. I hope they like them.
I had 2 ornaments made in your memory. They came and I put them on the tree. When I showed them to dad he said, "that's our boy" and said they were nice. I know dad misses you. He calls Raleigh, Scoop, every once in a while.
Merry Christmas Scoop.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Raleigh, Archie and Gus enjoyed their Christmas. They got so many new toys. I put a new little Hedgie in your stocking. I just had to get you something too.
John gave us a calendar that he had done with pictures of you, Raleigh, Archie, Gus, Mugzy and Comet. It made me cry when I saw it.
I hope you and all your friends enjoyed your Christmas.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
Molly put some pictures on the computer from her phone. Some were from this Christmas, one was of you from last Christmas and others were of you the last year of your life. It made me cry to see them. It's just so sad.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
It is now 26 weeks. Miss you.
Please watch over Archie. I am so worried about him. There has just been so many things going on with him. I get so scared. Please watch over Raleigh, Archie and Gus.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
It is New Year's eve. Thinking of you.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
It is New Year's day.
Tonight it was 6 months since you have been gone. Still can't believe it.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Molly brought home 5 sunflowers for you today. They are on your table along with your Christmas flowers that are still looking nice.
We had snow the other day. Not many places for your brothers to do their business right now. I hurt my leg shoveling the other day but it is feeling a bit better now.
I took Archie to the vet Friday. I am so worried about him. He just doesn't seem right to me. His energy level isn't as high as it was and he lays and sits in odd places. He has a bump on his head and the Pustules on his face aren't getting any better. They seem bigger. The vet is having blood work done on him. I will hear the results on Monday. I pray there is nothing wrong with Archie. My heart hurts just thinking about it. Please watch over Archie. Please watch over Raleigh, Archie and Gus. I love them so much as I love you.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
It is so cold and windy tonight. Tomorrow is going to be really cold. We had some rain and it washed a lot of the snow away.
I got Archie's blood work results today. Things have not gotten any better. They have gotten worse. The vet wants me to take him to see Dr. Carter. You know who Dr. Carter is. This whole thing scares me. I don't know what's wrong with my little guy Archie. I am so scared. My heart hurts. Please watch over Archie. Please watch over Raleigh, Archie and Gus. I love all of you so very much.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
I'm sorry. I know it's been a few days since I was here to talk to you. You are always in my heart. Things are not going well with Archie. I am so worried about him. I will be taking him to see Dr. Carter. He has changed, his eating has changed. I don't know what to make of it. It sure scares me. Please watch over Archie. I am so scared something is wrong with him. I love all of you so much. Please watch over Raleigh, Archie and Gus.

Molly bought you some sunflowers yesterday. Last weeks sunflowers are still nice so you have a nice vase full along with some of your holiday flowers.

Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
I have some things to tell you but I have to get Archie and Gus out to pee. I'll tell you another time. I do want to say that Archie is really giving me a hard time eating his dog food and it worries me so much. We are going to see Dr. Carter on Tuesday. Molly is going along with us. I'm just so worried.
I think of you often and it still hurts to think about what happened to you.

Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Molly bought you some fresh sunflowers today.
Today is my birthday. It brought tears to my eyes, remembering and missing you. I am lucky to have Raleigh, Archie and Gus in my life.
Molly gave me an 8x10 picture of you and Raleigh in a frame. It made me cry when I first saw it. It is such a wonderful picture. I love it.

Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[Budsters Mom]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VICKI!! xxxxx

[molly muffin]

Happy Birthday Vicki :)

Sharlene and Molly muffin

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Tomorrow is Archie's appointment with Dr. Carter.
Please watch over Archie. I am so worried and scared for him.
Please watch over Raleigh, Archie and Gus. I love all of you so very much.
This is breaking my already broken heart even more.

Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
Archie saw Dr. Carter today. Don't know anything yet. I'll let you know if we find anything out.

Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Sorry I haven't been here for a while. I do think of you every day. Still brings tears to my eyes.
1/27/2001, it was a Saturday evening, Molly and I brought you home from the pet shop. That was 13 years ago. There are lots of things I don't remember but I remember that day and lots of days and years that followed. You were and always will be a special big boy to us.

Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Feb. 1 it was 7 months since you have been gone. I still think of that day and it still upsets me.
Think of you lots.

Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
I have so much on my mind lately. I still think of you lots. Even if I don't get here to talk to you, know that you are always with us.

Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Happy Valentine's Day.
Haven't been on here for a few days.
Molly bought you sunflowers on Saturday and she also got a bunch of Valentine's Day flowers for you. They are red, white and purple. They are so pretty.
Archie had his ultra sound today. Dr. Carter didn't see anything unusual.
Please watch over Archie. I still worry about him so much. Please watch over your brothers Raleigh, Archie and Gus. I love all of you so very much.

Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Always in my heart.

Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
I don't come on here much lately. I spend time reading lately and it makes me sleepy. Also it can be hard.
Always in my heart.

Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
It has now been 8 months since you left us. We miss you.
A day doesn't go by that I don't have a tear in my eye.
Last weekend Molly bought you some fresh sunflowers and some of your Valentine's Day flowers still look pretty nice.
A couple of weeks ago Dad hung pictures in the living room. Two are from your last Christmas with us and one is of you and Raleigh. Molly had these pictures made and put them in frames. I want to find a nice picture of Archie and Gus and hang it up too.
Always in my heart.

Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Molly got you some fresh sunflowers yesterday. Some of the Valentine's Day flowers are still nice.
I wish I knew what is going on with Archie. He has lost some weight. I worry about him so much. There has to be something wrong. His eating habits are so strange. Please watch over Archie. Please watch over all your brothers Raleigh, Archie and Gus.
Always on my mind.

Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
I haven't been on here much lately. It can be hard. You are always in our hearts.
I am so worried about Archie. He did not seem right this weekend. Everybody thinks it's nothing. I think he slept more than usual. Something just doesn't seem right. Please watch over Archie. Please watch over all your brothers Raleigh, Archie and Gus. I can see changes in Raleigh. His eye sight isn't good but he loves to play with toys a couple times a day. He usually hopes Archie or Gus will play with him. Sometimes he comes to me and he likes me to throw the toy and he chases it. I love all of you so very much.

Earlier I was looking at some pictures of Archie and Gus from months ago.
Tonight I was looking at a few of you. Boy, how the time flies.
I guess it's time to get Gus his rabies shot. Not looking forward to it. Oh how I wish I would have waited longer for Archie to get his.

Molly got you some fresh sunflowers yesterday. They are so nice and open. They look beautiful.
Think of you lots. There is always something that reminds us of you and things you did.

Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Gus got his rabies shot. So far, it's OK.
Last weekend Molly got you sunflowers. This weekend she said they didn't have sunflowers so she got you a beautiful bouquet of field flowers. They are so beautiful.
Last weekend dad and I were talking about you and I saw tears in dad's eyes. We all miss you.
Sorry I don't come on here that much and talk to you. We talk about you and think of you lots.
Raleigh's eyes are getting pretty bad. He walks into things outside. Dad and I talked about getting surgery done on his eyes. We would have done that for you if it would have been possible.

Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Yesterday it was 9 months since you left us. It's hard to believe it has been that long. Think about you every day. It still breaks my heart.

Last week Molly bought a pretty, little yellow flower from a sale they had at work. I don't know what kind it is. When she brought it home she said she got it for you. She then put it on your table.

Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[gatorgirl_bama]

Happy Easter Scoop.

[gatorgirl_bama]

Hey there fella. Please watch over Mama, Molly, Archie, Gus and Raleigh. I've messaged her, but haven't heard from her in a while. Prayer she, the family and the boys are ok.

I know losing you was very hard for her.

Love,
Donna

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
I'm sorry I wasn't here to wish you a HAPPY EASTER.
Molly bought you some lilies for your table.
I thought about you. You are always on my mind.
Sitting here writing to you brings tears to my eyes.

Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
It is now over 11 months since you left us. I can't believe it. It has not gotten any easier. Molly still brings you fresh flowers every week, sunflowers if they have them, if not then she brings some other beautiful flowers.
Think of you lots. Miss you lots. Love you lots.
Archie's birthday is on Friday. He will be one year old. He is still having all his problems. It makes me sad and upset. I don't know what to do.
I keep thinking did I do something wrong along the way to make him like he is. It breaks my heart. Please watch over Archie. Please watch over Raleigh, Archie and Gus.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
Archie is now one year old. His birthday was on Friday 6/6. That was the same day you had your treatment done in NY last year. It still makes me so sad.
Archie seemed to enjoy his special day. I hope he has many more birthdays with us.
Archie has changed and I am so worried about him. He doesn't eat right. Something just isn't right with him and I don't know what it is. It hurts so bad. I think of you and cry and I think of Archie and cry and my heart just breaks into pieces. He acted so strange today in the car and at his class. I don't know where to turn or what to do.
Please watch over Archie.
Raleigh went to the eye doctor the other day. His eyes are pretty bad. I have to put ointment in them. He will be going back in a month and get checked again.
Please watch over Raleigh, Archie and Gus.
I love all of you so very much.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
Oh I am having such a hard time. All I do is worry and cry.
Things with Archie are not any better. He acted so strange the other day. It scared the heck out of me. Something is not right. I can't get any help. It seems like nobody thinks there is anything wrong except me.
The visit to the new vet was not very successful.
Please watch over Archie.
Soon it will be a year since you left us. It is still hard to believe.
Please watch over Raleigh, Archie and Gus.
I love all of you so very much.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[gatorgirl_bama]

Good morning Scoop.

Please watch over your Mom. It's not easy losing our sweet babies and she's having a hard time and needs some loving from you.

Sending prayers,
Donna

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
I don't think I told you this. Archie went to obedience classes. Today they had graduation. Archie was voted the most improved and got a big blue ribbon for it. I am so proud of him.

A year ago today was the last day you were home here with us. You seemed fine and then during the night you started having problems. I think about it often.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
July 1-a year ago you left us. I know with all the problems you had you got tired and just went to sleep but I still find it hard. Sometimes I think of everything that happened and it just doesn't sit right with me.
The phone call I got from the hospital at 11:10PM that night will always be in my mind. I rushed to the hospital with a bit of hope but deep down I knew I was too late.
Thank you for the wonderful 12 1/2 years we all had together. We were so lucky that you were still in the pet shop waiting for Molly and me to come and take you home with us. I still remember that day too. You were in the pen as soon as we walked in the door. I'm so glad nobody else took you home and you were still there for us. Dad always would say that you are the best dog ever.
You came home with us on a Sat. evening and Sun. morning we had to take you to the emergency hospital because you would not stop shaking. We wrapped you in a blanket and held you so tight but you would not stop shaking. The ER vet said it was your tummy and probably nerves. You were fine later. Then the last couple of days of your life were spent at the same emergency hospital. Wish it would have been at home with your family who loves you.
I hope you know how much you were and still are loved so very much and missed every day. We have Raleigh, Archie and Gus and we all love them very much and glad they are our boys. You will always have a place in our hearts.
I think of you and usually shed a tear, every day. Sending you lots of ears rubs. I know that was one of your favorite things. Sending you lots of kisses on your little head.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[molly muffin]

Big hugs Vicki!
Sharlene and molly muffin

[Trish]

Hard to believe it is a year, hope you got through the day OK. Hugs for you Vicki xxx

[scoora]

Sharlene and Trish,

Thanks for all the hugs. They sure are needed and appreciated at a time like this.

[Tina]

Hugs from me too Vicki. Thinking of you and Scoop, and all of your boys.

Tina and Jasper

[scoora]

Tina,
Thank you so much.

[Harley PoMMom]

Tons of loving hugs from me as well.

[scoora]

Thanks Lori.

[labblab]

Vicki, I am not sure you have seen them yet, so just want to make sure you know you have some special notes waiting for you on Scoop's other thread. :o

http://www.k9cushings.com/forum/showthread.php?t=4574&page=124

Marianne

[scoora]

Marianne, Yes Thank you.
I did read them and I was headed back there now.

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
I haven't been here for a while but I think of you everyday. I kiss you good night every night.
Gus is now a year old. He had his first birthday on the 4th.
Raleigh has been seeing Dr. Landis for his cataracts. His retinas passed the test she gave them and he had blood work done and a check-up yesterday at the vet's. They said his blood work was good. He will be starting on pre-surgery meds. I have to wait to hear from them about it. Looks like he will be having surgery on one eye. I'm a bit nervous about it but the poor guy keeps walking into things so hopefully the surgery will be successful.

Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Thinking of you.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[Meg_Elizabeth]

Hugs and love from Meg and Abby. My heart aches when I think of your precious Scoop and how hard it must be to live without him. Like Kathy said in one post, grief comes in waves, and I wish more than anything that I could take away some of your pain. I wish our little ones could stay with us forever.

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
Every time I come here I cry. Boy it sure hasn't gotten any easier.
I wanted to tell you Raleigh is scheduled for his eye surgery tomorrow.
I hope is eye is OK for them to do the surgery. I feel so bad for Raleigh. I don't think he can see at all any more and his hearing isn't great either so at least if they can do the one eye and the surgery is successful he will be able to see. Please watch over Raleigh. You guys were such good brothers.
I still worry so much about Archie. Things just aren't right. Please watch over Archie.
Please watch over Raleigh, Archie and Gus.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
It's been a week since Raleigh had his eye surgery. He saw Dr. Landis on Friday. She said everything looked OK. They couldn't put a lens in his eye so his close up vision won't be good. The doctor did say it should keep improving.
I hope she's right.
Dad and I will be grandparents again later this week. Bella will have a baby sister. I remember before you got sick and Bella would come and visit, you used to follow her around. You would keep an eye on her.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[scoora]

Hi my sweetheart Scoop,
Happy Birthday! I hope you and all your friends have a great time celebrating today.
I wish I could have done something special for your birthday like I did last year but I'm sorry, we just can't afford it.
We all love you and miss you so very much.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
Love you forever,
Mom, Dad, Molly, Raleigh, Archie and Gus

[mytil]

I surely hope your little Scoop has met up with my pups at the Bridge. They are having a great celebration day for Scoop.

We miss them so, don't we?
Terry

[scoora]

Terry,
Yes, we do miss them very much!
I do hope they met up and are having a great day.
Thanks

[scoora]

Hi my baby doll Scoop,
I wanted to say I hope you had a nice day today on your birthday.
We missed having you here with us.
Good night Scoop.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom

[apollo6]

right there with you. Miss Apollo everyday. Hope they are having a grand celebration up there.
Sonja

[jas77450]

happy belated birthdat to your little Scoop!!!

[scoora]

Thank you.

[scoora]

Hi my big boy Scoop,
I'm sorry I don't come here much. It's tough.
I don't think I told you, Raleigh got an ulcer in his eye that he had the
surgery. The ulcer is healed but he has scar tissue so don't know if he sees.

Archie has issues and his blood work is a bit off.
Gus went for blood work today. This is the first he's had any done.
If everything is OK he will be getting neutered in a couple weeks.
Please watch over Raleigh, Archie and Gus.

Tomorrow will be a very busy day. Then it's Thanksgiving.
I hope you have a very happy Thanksgiving. Will be thinking of you and
missing you.
Love you, miss you.
Hugs, kisses, and ear rubs.
Love you forever,
Mom