In Loving Memory of my Mila baby

[loshie]

I miss my little girl so very much. I was so blessed to be her mommy and am forever grateful for that. Each day I feel a little less sad as I remember how much fun we had together and knowing how much Mila would not want me to be sad. I've been reading a lot on grief and on animals in the afterlife - it's comforting and it's been helping, but I still just miss her so much. But I'm trying to be strong.

I created a website in loving memory of her. I want to eventually have all my pictures and videos of her on there so that I can look at them wherever I am :)

The site is www.pavanie.com for those who would like to see some of her pictures and videos that are up.

Luv,
Melanie
xox

[labblab]

Oh Melanie, I've just been to your website and it is such a sweet and beautiful tribute to your baby girl! Thank you so much for sharing it with us all. I know there will still be many times when the pain of your loss may feel overwhelming, but what a comfort to have created such a loving and peaceful haven to which you can retreat and remember the days when Mila was healthy and strong and blessed by the lives that you shared together.

She was, and will always remain, a precious member of our family.

With huge hugs to you, always in loving memory of your baby Mila ~
Marianne

[frijole]

Melanie,

Sending strength and warm thoughts as you deal with your loss. I know it is so difficult. Remember all those good times and just know that Mila is running wild and free now. RIP angel Mila. Kim

[Squirt's Mom]

Oh Melanie,

That tribute is just wonderful! What a great idea! I hope it will bring you and your family much comfort to visit.

Her pics are precious. The ones with her ball....well, you can see the challenge for play in her eyes - "Come on! Try to get my ball!" Like she is just waiting for you to sneak a hand over there and snatch it! :D

Mila is much loved, that is so very obvious in your tribute. I know she continues to feel that love and returns it 10-fold. We will see them again, Melanie. I do believe that with all my heart and soul.

Hugs,
Leslie and the girls - always

[bkdice]

Melanie - I just took a look at your site for your beloved Mila. I love your pictures. She looks like she was a happy loved pup. Building a tribute site can be very healing, and can help you forever memorialize her. The farther down the road you get, the more you worry you might forget some of the little things.... but you don't.

Society is very awkward with grief. Take each day one at a time and be kind to yourself. Wishing you the best....

[loshie]

Thank you all so much!
Some days are better than others but almost every night I dream of her :) and I'm thankful for that. It's kinda funny in a way too, because some of my dreams are so weird and random, but she seems to be there, even if I can't see her in the dream, I just feel her.

When we said goodbye to her, I wasn't holding her my husband was and I was giving her some people food so she wouldn't look at the vet and it all happened so fast and I wished that I was holding her and squeezing her tight for that one last time. About 5 days later, I had a dream of it but this time I was holding her so tight and kissing on her. I think that she let me have that dream.

Big hugs to you all,
Melanie

[Altira]

Loved the swimming video. She's was a great swimmer.

[jrepac]

Such a wonderful site! What a terrier she was! She reminds me of a tri-color rattie a bit...she was very cute! And what a swimmer! The years go so fast and it never is enough time, is it? But, it is so nice to preserve these wonderful memories of your Mila.

Jeff & Angel Mandy

[clydetheboosmom]

I am so sorry for your pain and loss,, but so glad for you that you have such a wonderful tribute to look upon.

Hugs to you, always -

Lynne, Bailey and Angel Clyde

[Casey's Mom]

Wonderful tribute - I loved it. I am so glad that you are finding some peace even thought I know it is still very difficult.

Love and many hugs,

[mytil]

I truly love all the photos and video on her site. She was a very happy girl and very much loved!

Thank you for sharing this.
Terry

[loshie]

We got to see our Mila on TV this week - she was so cute and they used a lot of footage of her that we were so happy to see. It's been so hard, and I miss her so much everyday.
If you are in Canada and you want to see her, they are replaying it on Saturday - HGTV at 9:30 - it's a show called Income Property - in the US it airs in June...
They did send us some extra footage of her which was really sweet. I think she had a lot of fun being the centre of attention :) I remember that they were all shocked at her age and her energy!

[mytil]

Oh that is so great!!!! Oh I wish it could be put on youtube. I would love to see it!!!

How are you doing Melanie?

Terry

[Squirt's Mom]

Hi Melanie,

Nice to hear from you again. How are you?

HGTV...in June. geez.....with my Swiss cheese memory, I will need a reminder the day OF! :p But I would LOVE to see Mila doing her thing. If the folks involved in making the film had known what a wonderful mom Mila had, they wouldn't have been so surprised by her!

I understand what you mean about missing her every day - my Crys has been gone nearly a year and she comes to me at least once every day. But the pain is less often, the laughter more frequent now though I miss her no less. Time doesn't really heal all wounds but it does teach us how to live with them. A thought that always brings me comfort is thinking of her with our other babies - running, chasing, hunting, playing together, all of them strong, whole and pain-free. We have some fluffs (Bichons) there who have an endless supply of ham biscuit sandwiches and I often see Crys very politely taking one, as is her nature, then tearing off at top speed, saliva flying out in ropes beside her face from the desire to chomp but wanting more to play with it a bit first! And I can laugh at her in spite of the tears. I pray for the day that you, too, can find joy through your pain.

Hugs,
Leslie and the gang

[loshie]

Thanks Leslie and Terry :)

It's been rough, my husband and I didn't know how to deal with it, but it's getting better and our house isn't so sad anymore and we are opening up to each other again.
We took all her vet bills and set them on fire! My vet was really sweet though and made a donation in her name, and also when we picked up her urn (a beautiful rock), he made her paw print for us.

And I swear Mila comes to visit us :)...her spot on the bed would be warm where she'd sleep, or I could smell her or hear her breathing. Maybe my mind is playing tricks on me, but I like to think that my little baby girl is checking in on me :) As I know all our little ones are our guardian angels.

We have decided that we are going to get another puppy - another jack russell terrier. Not sure if we will have any kids, but we got a lot of love to give, and I know that Mila would like that very much, to not have her mum and dad moping about everyday.

Big hugs to you all,
Melanie

[mytil]

I am glad you two are doing better - it takes time, believe me. I am certain she is there - I have had several occasions where I thought I was loosing my mind, but they were very real - the smell, the jingle of tags.

I know Mila would be very happy to have her mum and dad share their love with another.

Please keep us posted and check in often.
My continued (((hugs)))